im in Visual Basic cls n it's kinda fun. the clowns are dancing n singing to Nas' I Know I Can. hahhahaa.. it's lyk an anthem ware everyone is singing to a particular song. hahahaa..

oh yeah, aisya,syikin,ain, nur, me n 5 more other gerls in my cls whose names i dun quite noe yet, were selected to haf a tok at Eunos C.C on Saturday. it's about Muslim ladies n her wateva stuffs lah.. i dunnoe lah.. haizz... of all the gerls in our cls, the 5 of us were selected. teacher muz be blind..

yesterday
went to watch Mr Bones wif dear n his younger bro, hariz. dat show was sooo funny to the max! it's a dun-make-sense kinda movie. laffed till my stomach hurt. den dear sent me home n after dat, i sent him to his bike. at the carpark, he tok about Ju-On n The Eye. made me scared to go up the lift, lagik2 tgh Hungry Ghost Festival.

today is KHUS' 18th BDAE!! dah jadi abg2, bleh isap rokok depan police station eh brader?
aniwae,had a fun time sabo-ing him. egg, flour, red bull, pepsi, chilli sos.. nice.. member smell lyk hell man.. ain,aisya,hanif n me weren't spared either. we all kenna oso.. ewww..

den took pics at the Singapore Post wif the 4 of the above-mentioned. click onto the usual column ya..

proceed to tampines mall to buy dear his belated bdae pressie. bad gf i am ya? sorie dear!! save up my money!! bought him a Levi's T wic coz $40.. n it's soooo nice!!! i want to buy the gerl's version..

he came my place n took it n we had a tok.. muackssss!!!!!

today is an OK day.. had an argument wif a teacher.. Bluergh.. n my attitude being lyk a bitch.. stoopid gerl.. never tink one...Bluergh... n someone in skool 1/3 2 get 2 noe me. another Bluergh...

be bringing the DG tomolo, i tink. if kakak allowed it.. coz it's khus' bdae tomolo!!!

dat's all.. waiting 4 my bro to bring back my burger.. bye peepz ... MMT 1R, dun 4get the eggs.. nitez..

i am truly sorry my dear.. but i noe u still love me rite? :)

p.s: 4got to tell u guys. i hate fiona xie but she has a great voice. when she sang at the NDPreview, my goosebumps appeared. nice..

the NDPreview was fun although the seating arrangement sux to the core. i wasn't quite enjoying myself coz my stomach cramps was killing me. but it was a 1st time experience for me to be at such a major event wif my bf instead of being wif my sis or a family member or fren. :) the fireworks was great as usual n it was so lovely. i was waving my flag given in the funpacks n was swinging my torchlights from side to side. took pictures. i'm not a good photographer. dear is even better at it than me. damn. mark lee was funny as... i wouldn't want to spoil it all for the rest of u, would i? ehehhe.. but he is indeed funny. tickle my funny bone to the core...
the journey to the kallang mrt station was such a shitty one. it was packed wif sweaty ppl n the bridge leading to the opposite road was jammed wif ppl. i was on the verge of fainting but i perservered.. hahaha.. nah, i'm juz exaggerating.

took the train to dhoby ghaut wif the intention of eating at Long John.. (i dunno wat's the name of the building but it's not at Plaza Singapura. it's along the road dere..i tink u guys noe lah..). when i came in, i saw an ex-beattyian sitting at the opposite of us. it was shahrul!! the guy wic me, nana n a whole bunch of gerls had a huge crush on. he was staring at me thru the mirror n i was lyk, "k,i noe i'm an ex-beattyian, u dun haf to look at me lyk dat lah." dear den ordered a drink for us coz mum said she bought 2 packets of nasi ayam for the both of us. when dear came back, he looked at the mirror n he was lyl, "tu shahrul kan?" i was lyk, "u noe him??" in my heart i was amazed dat he noe a lot of ppl. almost everyone i noe,he noes too.. argh.. :D.. den shahrul was lyk, "oh kau!! mcm aku pernah nampak eh.tapi dimana ya! tak prasan aku, kau." hahhahaa.. n so, he came over n tok to dear. hahahha.. he recognized me too.

n so i told dear about me lyking him a loooonnngg time ago n he was lyk, "eh?klah,next time u go out wif shahrul lah k?" hahahhaa.. i could smell vinegar in the air..

den we took NEL to sengkang n back to my place. reached dere at ard 10.30pm. boy, we were soo beat! i immediately ate my nasi ayam wifout a care in the world n i'm so sorry for not eating at the same time as u,dear. hungry lahhhhh!! mum n dad kept saying i pemalas. yeah yeah,i noe.. i'm a lazy gerl..

den he stayed until 12.30am n i sent him to his bike. chatted at the carpark for a while n off he go to his fren, khai's place at punggol. waited for him to gif me a call so as to assure dat he reached dere aredi but the call nv came. i fell aslp while waiting.. guys, when they mit their frenz, they forget bout their gerlfrenz.. rite? hahahahhaa.. i can understand dat. dun blame him though.. :)

now, i'm at home. hungry but can't be bothered to eat. dear is at his granny place. i wished his mum a happy bdae juz now on the fone. surprised me to death when he passed the fone to her. kannasai..

well peeps, haf a wonderful sunday today. enjoy it while it lasts!

today was kinda an ok day. hanif came to sch!!! excluding him, the rest of the R toads wore our t-shirts n made our Com Skill teacher nagged over it . had a teeney weeney argument wif dear wic we both resolved in a quick matter of time. :D went jammin wif the toads for awhile... miss them... thanx dear for allowing me to go jamming wif dem...

den took my IC wif yana. my IC is damn light!! n dere's a fading whitish border ard it.. n dere's not blood group coz they no longer do it to new ICs. goodbye passport!! (for those who didn't noe, i brought my passport ard wif me everyware i go since i've lost my IC). den met dear at Lavender ctrl station n we went home in bus no 82. he came over n stayed from 6-8.30pm.. he tok to mum, who kept making jokes...switty pie, he..

tomolo, the NDP Preview wif my baby. i'll be bring my sis' DG along as well!! he'll be cuming over here to fetch me n den off we go!!! wooohooo!! can't wait!! be looking at the fireworks wif the darling besides me.. hai... wat more could i ask for?

haf a gd weekend everyone!! i hope i'll enjoy mine wic i noe i will!!

brought the sis' DG today n had a crazy time taking the R toads pics. full of crazy antics ppl they are. pics at the usual column ya.. la-dee-dah..


everyone, minus hanif n haikel,who was taking the photo...

yeah,i'm so ugly in sch. dunno y. i hate to look pretty when i put on the school attire. i min, for wat u wanna look nice n pretty n try to act cool n all? i dun even fancy having a bf who is schooling in the same school as me. i rather be ugly when i'm in school. i do my own thang n not care for other shits. i lyk being dis way myself.. :).. take it or leave it, ppl.

missing u soo much my dear... cRaPPy PaTTY!! -=*bOnE*=-

today the cls was abit quiet. maybe becoz hanif wasn't in sch. :) .. den i met dear. he came over to my house n mum cooked sambal prawns for the both of us. nice... den we went to compass point coz i wanted to return the library books. i borrowed a blardy thick book wic dear predicted dat i wd finiz it by a week n a half. i felt soooo insulted!! hahahahhaa.. in a mock way, of coz.

HEY KHUS!!! READ THE SCORELINE!!! MAN U 4-O CELTIC!!! it's the same as u dear. read the scoreline!! hahaha.. liverpool fans.. watdya expek?

tomolo 9am to 4pm.. wiz me luck peeps. pray for me dat i'll be able to stay awake.. :)

met the R toads at paya lebar today. i was feeling so lazy to go to sch. n so was ain,khai n hanif. but eventually after much nagging from khus n aisya, we all did go to school. it was such a chore. CP was slack as usual. den,teacher gave us an early break coz at 10 we all had to go for a "Motivational" talk at the auditorium. but of coz, we didn't go for dat n so went to Singapore Post for breakfast/lunch. den stayed dere until 11.30. played taitee. once again, ain,khai,hanif n me felt lazy to go for our EP n once again, we eventually did. me n ain went to the bkshop to purchase our EP books. den both of us went up to cls only to discover dat the EP teacher was on the 2nd floor. he told us to juz take our attendance n den we could go home.. :D

reached home at 1.35pm. soooo early... n hungry...

mainstream (noun) ~ group of ppl who are considered to behave in a usual way
i've learnt a new word.. thx lepaked..

faizal, dear's fren, called me up n said dat dear fell into the longkang along wif his bike, near his school. den he told me to fetch dear from dere. i was prepared to do so but den he started laffing n i heard dear's voice. KaNnAsAi!

oh yeah,he told me to change the pic up dere. he lyks the top pic coz it is orange-y while i prefer the other one. coz i looked so cute.. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. thick skinned biatch,me.. i am thick skinned, so sue me.. ahakz.. juz kidding ppl, juz kidding!!~~ dun tag me wif hate tags.. my,my.. so to satisfy him n myself, i put both pics. easy..



dis is my keeeraazzyyy fren, hanif.when i said crazy, plz belif me.. he is.. but of coz, in a fun way.. :D

1st thing 1st.. i've changed back my layout to dis one coz dear n my sec sch fren, zal said dat they couldn't see it clearly n my layout was in a mess.whereas i see it being swit n simple..aiyah.. :)

had a great time wif my dear juz now. i escaped school at 12 n den went to sentosa wif him. we both lepaked at siloso beach. chylled dere until 3. den took bus 85 to sengkang. he came by my place, chatted wif mum while i took a bath. ahhh..refreshing.. den both of us took the NEL to orchard to mit kakak n her fren, wan tanker a.k.a aku coz kakak wanted to borrow dear's ic to get a 20% discount from Giordano products if it's ur bdae. den 4 of us walked to Dhoby Ghaut MRT n den took the NEL home. dear dropped at Potong Pasir, wan at Hougang while us 2 at Sengkang.

it was a fun n tiring day. i had my fun. sleepy but i still managed to update my blog. muacksss to my dear.

ok ppl, see dat guy up dere wif me? dat's my dear dere :). he's the one dat i've always mention in my blog n he's the one i've always mention who always make me laff. ok, his info. he is Hanis. He's 20. schooling at Ite Tampines. dat's all for now. tataX ppl.. haf fun ya?

be miting the R toads at Paya Lebar tomolo.. mini cls gathering.. yahoooooo!!!!!

Sum41 IS COMING TO SINGAPORE AND THEY ARE HAVING A CONCERT AT FORT CANNING PARK THIS 30 JULY 2003.

TIX DETAILS:
$61 for students who present a valid student ID at all Ticketcharge outlets in Singapore. Offer is good until the day before the show. Tickets will revert to normal price on the day of the show.

Early Bird Discounts (27 Jun to 15 July)
General Admission - $75
VIP - $100

Early Bird Discounts (16 July to 29 July)
General Admission - $79
VIP - $105

Day of Show (30 July)
General Admission - $85
VIP - $111

AND SO DOES SHEILA ON 7.THEY WILL BE HERE ON AUGUST 2, 2003

Event details as follows:
Date: August 2, 2003.
Venue: Fort Canning Park
Country: Singapore
Time: 8 pm

Ticketing: Early Bird Tickets at S$29 only for first 1000 at Caro Amico Italian Restaurant, The Riverwalk, Tel: 6534 5881. Standard Tickets at S$34 only at all TicketCharge outlets, Hotline: 6296 2929. (S$1 TicketCharge fee will be paid by ticket holders.) For more details, log on to www.ticketcharge.com.sg. Tickets at S$39 only available at the gate on the date of concert.

i so wanna go to both.especially to Sum 41's. i wanna go but i've got no money. *BIG HINT!!*

HaPpY 20tH bDaE tO mY dEaR!!
May all ur wishes come true!! muacks!! hope u'll haf fun today switheart. :D

New Layout!!i'm kinda not sick of the old one..but tot of changing it. dat goes to say dat the last layout was the longest i've ever had without changing!!! ta-da!! n so, i've found dis one. it's still greyish n it's so me... dat is, it is not girlish.. i detest girlish colours.. eurgh..

watched 2 Fast 2 Furious at Marina yesterday wif dear,his fren,khai n his gf, nadiah a.k.a lottery. i lovvvveeeee Paul Walker. the way he stared, his voice, his sense of dressing, so cool.. ;). dear fetched me from home den we were supposed to go to Robinson at Centrepoint to watch spongebob squarepants.but i wanted to watch my Paul so we went to Bugis. Lottery called me n said they were goin to marina to watch 2F2F. so we both joined them. khai disturbed dear while in the movies n dear kept laffing... haiz... guys...

den 4 of us ate at LJS n we went our separate ways...

i wanted to go to esplanade for the gig but decided against it...dear wasn't up to it n i was kinda lazy... so we juz head back to my home. ate some more at my house,watched the 2nd half of an S-League match, he tok to my dad for a while n den i sent him to his bike at 9.20pm...tok to him at the carpark n i went back up to my house at 9.45pm.

i juz love him to bits... ;)... n since alot of ppl wanna see his pic, i'll post it up some oder day... not the time yet, but i will. ;)

p.s: sorie my dear hunny bone,i love u loads but i love paul walker too... hahahhaha... juz kidding dear...

btw,if some of u r wondering, the title of my blog is a line i took from rufio's "road to recovery." juz tot of letting u noe. -=~*[BoNe]*~=-

the R toads came. dere were hanif, khairUn, aisya, syikin, ain, firdaus, khus, nur, haikel n wabul.mum cooked macaroni. had quite fun. nice.. den dear came over n we sat down and tok. hope i get to see him tomolo.. -=*[BoNe]*=-

yesterday...
had fun playing taitee wif the R toads yetserday at s'pore post. my cards all sucked. but had fun. den dear called me up n told me dat he was ard MacPherson coz he had juz came back from the Traffic Police. met him, along wif aisya n his fren, j.j. sat under the void deck n he spent his time disturbing aisya. so swit of him to tink about seeing me after the visit to TP. :D

i did my Visual Basic on my own, asking for help only now n then. could'nt concentrate last yr eventhough i sat wif the budak2 baik, n now,sitting wif the org gilas,i could.. weird huh?

today
i'm not having any school today coz the teacher cancelled the lessons coz he had something on.. so i'm at home. n the R toads will be coming here later. let's see, about 10 of them? yeah.. :D

it's not fair for u..i'm sorie dat i was being so stoopid when i was wif him..but thanx for wanting to be wif me n loving me.. -=*[BoNe]*=-

khus wanted to blanje the R toads to the movies. but i didn't go coz i wanted to mit yana. i miss her so much. aisya didn't go either coz she was going suntaning at sentosa. so smangat.. :) den i met dear. i had a whole load of fun wif him. he's the switist thing.. i'm so lucky.. ;)

k,now i'm addicted to Rufio's White Lights. Khus was blasting punk songs dat i was banging my head in cls juz now. den dear kept saying white lights,white lights n now i'm hooked. :)

oh yeah, downloaded the Jerky Boys' phone conversations. i d/l Kicked Dog, Arnold's Pizza Shop n Synchronized Swimming. they are hilarious!!! funny siak..

tomolo, 9-4... argh!!!

i'm in my Office Automation cls n it's soo freaking boring! u're supposed to use alot of Microsoft Word n Excel. n u're supposed to type some stuffs in dere n print it out. lame... aisya juz asked for my email. she's bored. ain is smiling to herself while looking at her computer. hanif is blasting his com wif RnB songs. syikin is rolling ard wif her chair. nur is doing the same thing. khus is blasting punk songs. khairun is not here. haikel is looking at syikin. i'm typing my blog n tinking of dear. hmm.. siann.. klah,gtg n type some shits in the Microsoft Word.cheerios. haf fun guys!

watched the News 5 juz now. a 41 yr old man had been arrested for sexually abusing a 6 mth old baby n throwing her down a rubbish chute. how despicable, beastly, inhumane is dat? u're 41 damnit! haf u got no brain? the baby had no chance at all against u.. i felt lyk crying in front of the TV juz now. it's so sad n tragic. it's life...

cls started at 8 juz now but me,ain,aisya n wabul came in at 8.30 lyk dat. kaysiao ah... den sat down n we had one of the boringest lesson of the coz, Communication Principals. it's almoz the same as physics but it's much more complicated (not dat physics is easy huh?hahahha). aniwae, had fun sitting among the R toads. laff here n dere n nuthing got into my head. or theirs as a matter of fact. hahahhaa..

den we went for break at 9.30.supposed to cum back at 9.45 but ain,syikin,aisya,wabul,hanif,khussaini,khai,haikel n me came back at 10. teacher was lyk, "i tot i gave u all only 15 mins break?y cum back so late blah blah blah.." we all juz sat down n tok among ourselves.. gila man..

the cls ended at 11. next cls was at 11.30. but the usual R toads came to the next cls at 12. hahahaha.. so we all had only about an hr of the next lesson, dat was Electrical Principals. it's also the same as CP n physics. so today, we were supposed to haf about 4 hr n 30 mins of physics. but minus 2 hrs, the 9 nine of us had only about 2 hrs of lesson. hahahahahha..

went to Paya Lebar's S'pore Post wif all except aisya. sat down at Mac n tok about ghost stories. hanif is such a joker. he's nuts man.. linger dere for a while, coz i've got the strongest feeling dat dear's teacher allows the cls to go off early n dat he mite wanna see me. n guess wat? i was rite.. :D

met dear at Tampines MRT. for the 1st time ever, i saw him in his ITE uniform. he looked soooo cute n ensem!! ppl were looking at us lyk, "eh,the gerl is in macpherson ite,while the guy is in .. ite.weird.. " :) deargave me some funny riddles/jokes n i was laffing my heads off.den we went to Toa Payoh to mit kakak. she asked me wat was i doing at Starbucks. i smiled n i said, "saye dtg nie ade hajat!" (meaning:i've come wif a motive). den she told me to ask her manager. i did,"abg jooooee, boleh ke tak bleh?" hahahahhaa.. n i got my Rhumba Frappacino. shared wif dear n both of us went ard Toa Payoh n den took 163 to,ware else, Compass Point. ate at KFC, den he sent me to my stop. den we went our separate ways... :(

mite not be miting dear tomolo after all. it's too rushing. he starting skool at 12.15pm, while i end mine at 11am. hmm... my wish is to see him everyday but i noe i can't. thursday,we can't see each other either. friday too. n saturday is a maybe n sunday...sunday...erm... i've no idea.. my,my.. feel lyk transferring to dat ite so dat i can see him everyday. k ayu, stop being bloody mushy.. ppl may puke.. rite kak? *smiles*

i read at afizah's blog dat we shd forgif n forget. can i forgif him for destroying my life? can i forget? i dunnoe.. n i'm not even sure dat i want to do so.. he has got his punishment, dat's for sure, but.. it's so hard to forget..i've been having restless sleep for the past 2 weeks. would be aslp at an acceptable time, lyk 10pm, but would be woken up at 2 am, 4am, 5 am n would be awake by myself for skool. y? izzit coz of him? i dunnoe.. he sux man.. juz plain sux.. u r not here but u r still traumatising me...

yipppeeee!!!! i'll finiz early tomolo!!!!!!

oh yeah, i miss my smallvile. i miss my clark, my lana, my lex n my chloe.. gosh.. i've missed about 3 episodes aredi. n dat's considered alot, ok?!?!?!

my english sux... i noe...

i learnt an amazing fact today. khairUn n khairIn are definitely alike twins. both always ask me to blanje them. both always bug me for wateva shits. but both are great frenz. i tink, maybe, juz maybe, dat maybe KhairUn is indeed khairIn!!! hahahahahhaha.. maybe there is no twins. maybe they are the same person. hahahaha..i've gone cookoo! :D

had fun today wif the MMT 1R peeps.

den met dear at potong pasir. we went compass point to chyll. u guys may tink dat both of us are lame n always went to compass point or places dat are lame. but I dun mind n neither does he. we love each others' company n dat's all dat matters. 1,2,3.. awwwwwww...so swit.. he's a nice guy. his identity? it's a secret.. i'm keeping it low profile. :D .. n yeah ahmad, i'm missing him lyk mad!!

skools starts at 8 n ends at 1. haizz.. hope i can be wide awake.. @_@ \||/

yesterday
went out wif dear to Shaw Towers to watch Terminator 3:Rise Of The Machines. the show was okaylah... i dun reli understand it. n i tink neither did dear.hehehhee.. but i tell u, dat T-X lady werks lah dey!!! pretty sia... she's sooo bootylicious. ahakz.. den we went to walk2 after dat, took NEL to Sengkang. sat at Compass Point n juz tok.. nice.. :D

today
watched dear played the Street Soccer Tournament at Tampines. his team lost. he played keeper instead of being a player. got some problems ah. i took his tumbler wic all players received. but my dad wanted it.aiyah!den he sent me home on his bike. reaching home, i took $$$ from mum n went downstairs again. he took me ard the Expressway n after dat back to Compass point coz mum wanted some noodles. den he sent me home again. so swit... he insisted on sending me home eventhough i told him not to. i dun lyk him to waste his petrol. i rather take the public transport. BUT!! i guess once in a while is alrite huh? hehehhee..

i told mum dat i took a ride on his bike. luckily mum didn't blew her top. she juz went, "eh,eh!!" hehehehhee..

i tink i will cabot my SW (Sports n Wellness, aka:PE) tomolo. i'm so farking lazy. maybe only. or i'll lepaked wif ain tomolo. dunnoe lah. see how. see my mood!!

after reading dis,i'm sure u're curious to noe. so plz, ask me. dun ask anibody else. i tink she can't be bothered wif wat's going on either. so juz ask me ya? sms/msn/tag/email wateva..go ahead.aiyah, juz leave me alone lah k,to put it simply.

today skool was fun although we didn't reli do anithing except lepak here n dere. supposed to haf our mass workout n all but aisya, nur, syikin, khussaini, khairun and me didn't go n we stayed at the canteen. den khairun wanted to go smoke n so he asked me n aisya for company. lepaked under the void deck n hanif n ain came. sat dere for awhile n den watched the guys play the intercls soccer. we lost. hahahhaha..

den ain,aisya n me went to the hall to watch syikin,khussaini,haikel,firdaus n some more of our clsmates play floorball. we won dat round. n since the hall was too stuffy for our liking, ain,aisya n me called hanif n khairun n we lepaked wif them again. from 9+ till 11+, we all juz sat dere, along wif wabul n michelle. khairun is so damn fucking alyk lyk khairin sia.. wah piang.. feel lyk i was toking to khaiRIN. ahakz... :D

about 11+, we all proceed to the hall to watch the guys play the floorball for the 1st n 2nd placing. we won!! yippeee!! went under the void deck again. my god, we were all lyk ppl wif no sense of direction seh. they decided to go back in skool for the prize giving ceremony. it was fun. they wanted to eat at LJS Paya Lebar but i had to mit yana,ayid,yus,khai for jamming n oso dear.

my body is aching...

had such a stressful day. stressful not coz of skool but coz of other things. BUT!! i've mixed wif my clsmates. den juz now, we (4 guys n 5 gerls) ate at paya lebar s'pore post. nice. they are so funny, esp hanif. he's a bloody joker ah. oh yeah, i had my first conversation wif khairun,khai's twin. i felt lyk i was toking to khai seh.. hehehhee.. supposed to end our 8am cls at 11am. but we went for break at 10.30am n went to the hall at 11 n by 11.15,we all went to lunch when we were supposed to haf it at 12. hehehe.. den from 11.15,we had a break until 1. so siannnnn.. but fun ah. coz the guys are almost lyk my ex clsmates.. teacher let us off early, at 2.30 instead of 4... dat put a huge grin on me! :D


BUTT OUT OF MY LIFE.. plz gif me chance to move on, to haf my own life.. if you ppl want to noe about my personal life, get the info thru me. u'll get it from the horse's mouth. dun ask from anione else or jump to conclusion easily.. sux man u ppl..

i'm in the library rite now. it's so fucking sian sia. i'm using the com n it's so fucking slow!! argh!! i'm not dat tired n sleepy today. i dunno y. maybe it's coz i finiz early today. i dunno lahhh... it's seems dat i dunnoe anithing rite now. too drained out to tink about anything.

oh yeah, i tok to 2 gerls in my cls aredi. i tink i can get along wif everyone. of coz, ayu, who duno her?she can get along wif almost anyone.. rite? yeah, i tink so. btw, me n aisya kinda dun lyk dis gerl in our cls by the name of hidayah.she kinda kaysiao ah. she tinks she's cool. n yesterday, at the auditorium, she shouted at the top of her voice to tell the MC on stage to pipe down. my god, i was lyk, wat the hell were u doing? n the most embarrassing thing was, the rest of the ppl in the auditorium all shouted at her back. ahakz..

dis is not good. i am gossiping about a clsmate of mine. whom i'll be stuck wif for 2 yrs. oops.. sorie gerl.. hope by the time she noes about my webby, dis post will be long gone.. :D

i'm so freaking tired rite now dat i want to cry. reli i do. my body is calling for help n i'm so exhausted. my mind is not in the good state n i wish i could bang my head against the wall. let everything evaporate n fill my head wif pain.

den dear was stressed up too n dat makes me more stressed. i wiz i could help him out in ani way i can but it's not within my reach. neither does he want me to help him coz he said guys shd endure some hardship but i can't sit ard n see him suffer alone rite?i can't express myself reli well but i do hope dat he'll take care n not tink so much. plz take one step at a time k? it's ok if we can't mit up everyday or not at all. i'll miss u but u got to tink bout urself first. gosh, i badly miss him man... muackss

skool was ok juz now. some one wanted to get to noe aisya. aisya was called up on stage to dance along to a hindi song wif a guys from another cls, as a forfeit.

ate at mac wif nizam coz i was bloody hungry. no choice.

i miss my previous clsmates. i miss yana n MMT 1Q 2002. n most of all, i miss my dear!!

i hate myself..

hi ya ppl!! my 1st day in skool n i'm so talkative sia. i got the same cls as my childhood n pri skool fren, aisya n mind u, we were both so kecoh!! we both looked so fucking alyk! we both the same height, same hair length, same skirt length, same blouse size. some ppl were lyk, "are u guys adik bradik?" n we both were lyk, "yeah!!" hahahaha..dat was fun.our another pri n childhood fren nizam, was also in macpherson. so lepak. we 3 were so kecoh!!

since i was dere last yr, i knew alot of ppl. so my frenz were lyk, "AYU!!!!!" "eh pendek!!" "oi kecik!!" everyware. my new clsmates looked n me n some wondered aloud how cum i get to noe all dis toads. dat was funny.

i got the same cls as khairin's twin bro, khairun. n i was lyk, my god, both of u are so fucking alyk. oh yesh, my clsmates, the guys i min, are mostly goodlooking. hubba hubba!!

i miss my last yr clsmates. lepaked wif them at the void deck during lunchbreaks. miss them alot. especially yana. i miss her soo much dat i wanted to cry. reli, i do.

den met dear at potong pasir n aisya n nizam tok to him coz they noe him when he was living in potong pasir. so cute to see the 3 of them tok. :D

tomolo, i'll be starting at 8! and end at 2.30! i tink i'll cabot by 12. i tink only ah.. dunno.. my eyes are getting droopy.. bye ppl...

ok. skool starts tomolo. i'm in dipshit. (dat's one of rufio's songs btw!) i hate being a freshie. i was a freshie laz yr in dat skool (ite macpherson,ppl.) n now, i'm cuming back as a freshie again. gosh. it sux man. i hate the introduction thingy.("hi,i'm ayu. n u r?oh,i'm from beatty sec. n u r from?oh i'm taking multimedia. n u r taking??") argh. suckiness. plain fuckiness. n the ice breaking games. oh my.dun let me even go dere. maybe tomolo, i'll probably juz take my freaking attendance n get out of dere. no games for me. na-ah. i've tasted it last yr,i'm not gonna start all over again. no way. n no way am i gonna stay from 9-5 n experience the same old thing i've experienced last yr. deja vu.. ewww

*taking a deep breath* i'm gonna go to skool n pretend dat i enjoy it juz lyk last yr. one thing i lyk to see something happens is dat the toads will come to my cls n make a big noise n let the freshies in my cls noe dat i noe some 2nd yr kids.. (kerek siak ayu..BUT WAT DO I CARE??) i noe wat it feels lyk to be a freshie in ite. it's a big diff. u r considered cool if u noe some 2nd yr. hahhahaaa.. lame, but lyk i've said, I DUN GIF A SHIT!

ayah, would u be so kind as to iron my skool U? i'm not lazy, it's juz dat i'm being complacent. i'm so used to dad ironing my U since pri 1 rite up to my last yr skooling-at-ite-macpherson-for-a-short-while days. i'm not gonna start ironing my clothes juz becoz i'm 18! i am still the youngest child in the family! i dun care!! (oh grow up bitch!)

told ya i'm stressed!

on a lighter note, i dreamt of hulk last nite. he was fighting wif dis giant blind cockroach. although blind, d roach was so strong. n after the fight, hulk came n sat down wif me n ate some potatoes. my god, i'm getting lame.

hey dear, thanx for being so nice n swit. muacks! gd luck for skool!

i can't belif dat skool will reopen in 3 more days. argh! am i prepared? let me see, although yesterday i altered my ite skirt wif hanis at hougang mall, n had tried my full U when i reached home, i'm still not prepared. if i was still in the same cls as yana,ayid,faizal,man,yan,khai,jenn,yazid,alep etc, i would be prepared, i would be so looking forward to skool. but now, i am starting as a freshie, as a new student, as a yr 1 kid, i am soooo bloody scared. anxious.excited.kancheong. ______ (plz fill in the blank wif the appropiate word to describe anxiety). argh!!!!! shdn't haf quit skool. so regret it. stoopid ayu.

u make me smile dis few days. alot. :D

be collecting my NDP preview tixs tomolo.

k peeps, my new hairdo, u guys will get to haf a look at it when i haf the time to take a pic of myself.. cheerios. n lyk my sis' fren, telor, said, "roll, roll!"

went to watch Finding Nemo wif hanis at Bugis' Shaw. dat show rocked dude! hehehe.. reli let u laff n let it all out. :D
den both of us went walk2 ard Raffles Shopping Centre n after dat,proceed to take bus 82 home. we both decided to drop at Hougang Mall n ate at KFC.went home by NEL n waited wif him for his train to Potong Pasir. short but fun journey. :)

oh yeah, although he was angry dat i cut my hair,eventually when he saw my hair,he was like, "lucky it's nice.or else,i won't tok to u until ur hair grow." hahhahaha.. I TOLD YA IT'S NICE!!

i'm full..burp..

went out wif kak leen to tampines to mit up wif hanis after my plan to visit faizal wif yana was cancelled. it was a whole load of fun! hanis bought his fren faizal along n dat guy was hilarious!! i tell u, even kak leen, who is the joker not the kind who laff, laffed at his sillyness. in logical sense thou. not weak-in-the-brain kinda jokes. logical sense. hehehehehe.. (i now know 4 FAIZALs!)

den i slpt over at kak leen's place. it was nice bitching n talking wif her. it's been awhile since i had some girl talk wif someone. yana not included. :D slpt at 3am n woke up at 10.

hanis came to kak leen's block coz he was near the area. had a tok wif him, wif faizal tagging along n as usual, sillyness in the air.

after dat, wak minah, kak leen's mum told me dis, "eh ayu,kau takmo ikot rambot ah. mcm org tue!" (eh ayu,dun tie ur hair. u look old.) "mmg nak gunting,tapi takde duit wak minah!" (actually,i want to cut, but no money lah!) "nah,amik nie duit,gie gunting."(nah,take dis money.go n cut.) n so i did. for $12, i love my hair. it's short. up to my neck. n since my hair is straight, the result was superb!! i juz love it. hehehehee.. free of charge n i love it. cool.

den me n kak leen went to aljunied to mit up wif the toads for awhile n oso to fetch yana to come over my place. ayid n yus said my hair was nice. :D yeah! n yana said i looked different. in fact, she told me dat i looked like kak leen!!! hahahahahha

the 3 of us went to my place n den proceed to compass point. dere, we ate at the Banquet. met kakak n her fren,wan, at Starbucks. it was fun!!! me n yana realli were so belo dat the other 3 adults were lyk laffing n laffing at our antics.

DEN WE WENT HOME!! NOW I'M BEAT!!!BYE!!!

*thanx mum. it mins a lot to me when u gif the green lite. :D*