dis sux.

Happy 24th Bdae to my dearest cuz, Kak Leen!!

n so, i spent my monday walking alone ard town.
sat at the mac in front of shaw center.
nice u noe, ppl watch.
commenting on ppl's dressing.
i dun reli gif a fuck if they comment on MY dressing.
hahahaha...

reached home ard 10.16pm.
mum was surprised!
i surprised myself even more!

i noe i'm not reli in the wrong...

din n ainis mite be cuming here today.
wooohooo.. i missed them so much~!!

oh yeah, read my phlog.
my waist measurement was reli 22.5cm.
from 24 to 25, i dropped to 22.5cm.
my mum was so angry wif me

mak: makan lah kau~! asal tak makan?
me: makan per! kau nampak pe aku makan!
mak: ak ah eh.. abih asal kau krempeng?
me: mane ayu tahu mak...
tailor: 22.5cm, awak nye pinggang mcm mahu tercabot lor..

mum: "eat lah~!! y nv eat?"
me: "but i eat wat! u saw me eating~!"
mum: "oh yah ah.. den y u so skinny?"
tailor: 22.5cm, ur waist lyk want to come off lyk dat.

kuang kuang kuang~!!!

rite now, i'm playing whiteboard wif alif on MSN. we rawk~!! \m/

nite ppl.
can't wait for thursday morning.
portugal vs holland. woohoo~!

our 1st anniversary

talking bout $$$,
ware am i supposed to dig to get something for the boy
for our upcoming 1st anniversary?
i noe he'll say dere's no nid to.
but i want to.

0307.
den it will be his bdae on 2107.
$$$ again.
i tink i reli reli reli reli reli nid to diet
when skool starts.
n dat's on 0507.
AaAaArRrRrGgGgGhHhHh~!

ahakz

farid: exucse me, where's the entrance?
security: how old are you?
farid: 18.
security: this is only for 23 and above.
farid: ok thx.

we tot we could watch holland vs sweden at the Devil's Bar.
to tink we drove around the place for about 15 mins to look for a parking space.
but it turned out, our efforts were in vain.
well, actually, juz farid's.
he was the one driving.
ended up, we watched it at his place.
n ended up, i was the only one awake to watch the whole match.
n i had to crept home silently at 6am juz now.

my holland won!! 5-4 on penalties.
after 120 mins of play.
my my, those woodworks, they saved holland.
van de sar looked lyk clay aiken abit, duncha tink?

b4 miting the boys, me n the darling went out.
we sat by the fountain at suntec n watched the laser display.
Ni-iceee~!!
got myself 2 tops from Mango for $25.
ok, it's on sale blardy hell.
i had to grab it. now, i'm left wif $20 to last me till 23rd JULY!
woohoo. n i nid to use $7 from dat $20 to pay for my concession card.
mum's forking out the other 20 bux.
so technically, i haf $13 to last me till next mth.
so yeah, i'll be on diet. hahahaha..

rite now, i'm staying home.
been going out since, god knows when.
dad's nagging. but he still let me go out.
hmmm... my family is weird.

till den, haf a great sunday ppl~!
i owe someone a paddle pop n someone owes me one.
so farid,gif the paddle pop to nas.
hahahahaha..

france lost!!

n so, france lost to greece!!
i told u so, kin!
u shd haf use my "premonition" n bet on greece.
woohooo!!!

going out. tara.

wwwwwwwwwweeeeeeee

i'm back from my bdae chalet!!
it was great!!
great is not a strong word.
it was marvellous!!!
i had an awesome tym!!!
n the stress/tension feeling dat i've been feeling for the past mth,
was lifted n carried away yesterday..
wowoooooo..!!

i didn't expect to be sabo-ed,
much less a cake.
but yesh,i got both!
someone punched me on the back coz the egg dat he/she was holding, didn't crack.
so rite now, i haf blue black all over my back the size of a fist.
great. n it hurt damn bad!
u all tink i'm a guy izzit?
kene rembat siak!!
yesh, all guys. all my guyfrenz sabo-ed me.
hanif threw an egg n it hit my head n it bounced to the floor.
khus threw sand on my head.
i hugged alif n tweet. if i'm dirty, i'm bringing u guys along. hahahahha..
i almost got to hug hanif n khaiRUN too. but they were too fast for me.
nabei.
but great fun.

aisya's sister,Rimah also celebrated her advanced bdae wif us.
she was also sabo-ed but i was the worst case.
we ended up scrubbing each other's back in the bathroom.
n we stank.

me n my darling had our own quiet moments together by the beach.
i luv him.. thank u baby boy.
muacks.

we played Twister later at nite.
"aisya, nur, nak wok?
hahahhahaa.. butt directly on the face lah, monk pose lah, froggy style lah..

n den it was Fatal Frame the game.
we switched off the lights n shocked ourselves to death by a video game.
after dat, it was Face of Death volume IV.
gruesome scenes. i almost puked.
splattered brains, broken legs. ergh~!!

den it was portugal vs england.
argh. dun remind me.
6-5. argh. noisyness

so photos r up.
i had a great tym.
a big THANK YOU to ALIF. you noe y. thank u sooooo much~!! i reli appreciate it.. YOU'RE THE MAN!! hahaha.. it's a compliment damn it, nb cb.

thank you to the R Toads n frenz.
thank you for making the best 19th bdae for a gal.
alif, hanif, aisya, nur, hafidz, tweet, nisha, fir, faliq, kin, her fren, khai, suhadah, khus, kak rimah, her frenz n my bofren.
BYE!!
MUACKSSSSS!!!

n thank you for the wishes taggers!!
i reli appreciate it!!

happy bdae to me~!!!!

HAPPY 19th BDAE TOOO ME!!!

Happy Birthday To Me...
Happy Birthday To Me...
Happy Birthday To Me...
Happy Birthday To Me...

thank u to all lovely ppl out dere who wished me
via the handphone, MSN n tags.
i lurve u all!!! *touched*

i can't thank each n everyone of u, coz dere's too many.
but i'll group u guys:
thanx The Family, The Boyfren, The Sec Sch Toads, The R Toads, The Toads, The Kampong Clan, The Boyfren's Frenz, The Bloggers. THANK YOU ALL!!!

hahahhaa.. n to my lovely boyfren,
thank u for the long but wodnerful speech.
dis sounds corny n so cliched,
but dat's the best bdae present a boyfren cd ever gif me.
i noe u dun usually tok dat way.
so it was very special.
MUACKSSS..

n so MMT 1R, i'll c u guys later at sentosa.

take care ppl.
haf a great tym~!
i noe i will!!

wooohooo~!! 1 DAY!!!

1 MORE DAY.....!!!!!

i did went to The Padang yesterday,
to "catch" Linkin Park.
but hey, b4 u guys start to envy me,
i wasn't in the concert,
i was outside of the huge tent
listening to chester n shinoda singing,
the spotlights blinking according to the music.
lucky sis of mine, sat at te perfect place,
she sat at the area ware they can see the big screen.
my bf n i had to take careful precaution in looking at his bike
coz the TPs n the policemen were everyware~!
in the end, he was fined $70 for parking on the pavement.
it was so blardy unfair. the TP didn't fine anyone else but him.
to tink he was at the bike. the rest weren't.
n the TP even didn't gif any leniency.
i tink he's racist.
oh well. kinda spoilt my mood.
fuck man.

but when chester forgot the starting of Numb,
i was laffing. it's been a while since i reli did dat.
i kinda feel very sad dat i got only get dat close to Linkin park.
yesh, i'm a fanatic.
say wateva u wanna say, dis is my fave band.
u guys dun lyk them? i dun reli care u noe.
i'll make sure i go to their concert the next tym they come by.
IF they come by.

i'm so excited bout tomorrow.
i reli am.
plz dun let anything or anyone burst my happy bubble.
i'll be so devastated n i won't celebrate my bdae animore.
so plz, juz let me haf tmrw for myself.
i nid dis break. thank u.
n alhamdullilah i finished my period. juz in tym. woohoo!

so italy is out.
n sweden n denmark did get the scoreline they needed to qualify.
did i tell u dat tomasson is so cute?
he got dis baby face look.
very nice. :D
spain n italy.. i didn't reli expect dis 2 to be out.
but i tink czech deserve to be in dis position rite now,
or further. gooo nedved!!hahahhaa..

so after maghrib,
i'll be watching You Got Served n Linkin Park: Live in Texas - Again.
yeap, again for both dvds.
so, till then, take care peeps.

ps: alif, how cum my song nv cum out?

2 days left...

2 Days Left... to a GREAT 19th bdae..

i was so lazy to update my blog.
but i did find tym to reply to taggers at their tagboards.
so yeah, i did sum stuffs on the com.

linkin park concert is today.
i tink i'll snoop ard padang for sum juicy stuffs.
dat is, if somebody, *hint at bf* wanna tag along.
but nvm, all is cool if i dun even get go dere.
i wun cry. nah.. it's juz linkin park u noe.
they r not dat big wat.
UWEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!
*SOOOOOOOOBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB*
the best bdae ever if i can at least snoop ard padang.
n hear the wonderful sounds of linkin park playing the seinnheizer thingy.

ok, stop dreaming.
i can only confirm if my bf going.
transportation plays a big role on someone's who dun haf any cash on her.

YEAH! i PASSED MY EXAMSS!!!
i got 3 satisfactory n a D n a B.
thank god, or else i'll haf to stay wif the sin-ma models. argh..

for the 1st tym since the starting of EURO,
i didn't watch yesterday's morning matches,
portugal vs spain n greece vs russia.
slept at 1am n i woke up ard 1pm.
wow. 12 hours of sleep.
n i nv felt so fresh b4 in my life.
the fatique of staying awake for soccer
made me sleep dat much.
i gave in to the tiredness.
spain lost. oh well. my bro n i predicted dat greece n portugal wd get in.
we were rite.
so rite now, i predict a 4-0 win for france over swtizerland
n a 2-1 over england for the croatia.

n so, i pissed my bf off again.
tot i saw him smoking but he n his pals said no.
i haf sharp eyesights so how cd i be wrong?
he didn't smell of cigs n he hate dat shits
he can't be lyk starting only now, when he's 21.
so how could he be smoking rite?
but i tot i saw....
ah nvm.

1st zai, den zouk den met the 2 of them.
i didn't even noe.
n u said i'm still doubting u?
who made me? who made me doubt u?
it's u. u made me doubt u.
sure, u did tell me.
but only AFTER u did all dat.
sure, u did nuthing at all.
but y the secrecy?
fuck man. ur making me crazy.
n to tink dat i'm madly in luv wif u.
u kept tinking about the sacrifices u made for me.
hello, mentally, it's tearing me apart ok.
i'm mentally making sacrifices for us.
i'm not asking much.
i respect u so plz treat me the same amt of respect dat i do of u.
i can't outtalk u. i reli can't.
when u reprimand me, when u argue back,
i'll be the guilty one, the bad one.
i juz can't open my mouth.
n if i do, u'll get so worked up.
n when i keep quiet, u'll ask y.
wat do u reli want?

aniwae,i tot i cd stay 18 forever n always.
but wake up to reality!!
my bdae's in 2 days tym!!!
it will be spent wif my R TOADS n my baby at sentosa.
n invites are being given out to certain ppl.
dowan ppl dat i dowan to bring read dis.
*shudder*
i tink my R TOADS noes who i'm talking bout.
THANK YOU R TOADS FOR PLANNING EVERYTHING!

for those who r not in the know,
he n he are in the july issue of the mag, Seventeen. so yeah. whilst stock last.

so yeah, gd morning ppl...

fook

i badly want to win the linkin park tixs.
i relly relly do.
i sound so pathetic, but i dun care.
all i want rite now is to go to the linkin park concert.
u'll nv noe if they'll cum by here ever again.
i dun even mind going alone
coz even if i'm alone, i'll still enjoy myself.
so plz? can i win those tickets? i promise i'll be good... :D

disappointment of not being able to do
wat u had been promised to suck.
BIG TYM. physically, the smile is stucked on my face.
mentally, the sadness, the dissappointment, the betrayal is too much to bear.
but i won't blame anyone.
i won't blame myself either.
kite merancang, tuhan yg menentukan..

italy vs sweden.
yeah, sweden is much more appealling to support.
coz they are lyk the underdogs, u see.
so... 1-0 to them.
i tink i'm wrong..
got a huge feeling i'm wrong.. oh well..

every gal is pretty.
16 tahun tapi jambu...
[a gal passed by..] jambu seh..
i feel so inferior.
i feel so ugly.
i feel so pathetic.
i feel dere's sumthing wrong wif me.
BUT I'LL KEEP QUIET.
coz i noe i'm cute. in my own ways.
dun agree wif me? dun reli care yaw.

oh yeah. anyone noes when n wat tym is linkin park arriving in spore?
any details about their hotel or etc?
plz plz tell me plz.
dat's all i wanna noe.

my bdae gonna suck.
i got a huge feeling bout dat.

i tot we cd spent sum quality tym together.
nvm, i won't cry.
i won't fret.
i won't despair.
i'll be happy again lyk last tym.
i'll regain the 2 kg dat i lost.
oh *psstt...* it's saturday today.
i doubt we're going out rite?
yeah, i noe.
n again, i won't cry, fret or despair.
i'll keep smilin. juz for ur eyes.

gd morning ppl.

i dono

so the threesome date wif my "hubby n my "scandal" is cancelled.
it's ok, no harm is being donw.
n you r still one of my greatest pal.
:D dun keep apologising lah.
lyk irritating u noe.. hahahhaha...

my bf n me haf sum issues between us.
n i tink we haf handle them very well.
*applause*

haf u guys ever feel paranoid,
lyk the whole world is against u?
lyk everyone hates u,
n no matter wat u do,
u kept finding signs dat maybe u're rite?
but no matter how many tyms u ask everyone,
they'll gif a flat no?

for me, my worst feeling of paranoia
hits me whenever my boy goes out wif his pals.
i kept having dis visions, dis feelins
dat he's gonna cheat me,
he's gonna play behing my back.
but the more i probed, the more he's deny it
n it gets to the point ware we both suffer badly,
all becoz of my paranoia.
it's very unhealthy, i noe.
rite now, we both r trying to go self counselling,
ware we communicate about wateva
without either one of us jumping to conclusion,
or shouting down to each others' throat.
n u noe wat? i lyk dis arrangement.
i'm calmer now, n i trust him much more.
wow. i'm a freak.

so the thing is,
dun tink bad about others.
ppl maybe juz tinking the best of u,
n u misinterpret some stuffs into bad ones.
dun easiy judge ppl or jump to conclusion
coz u may easily hurt the one u love.

ceh bah.
lyk real sia i tok.
woohoo.

n england won 3-0.
woohoo..

n the outing juz now wif the sec skool toads
was fantastic.
great one.
too bad din n ainis couldn't cum along.
i miss them both.

gd morning everyone.

hey

i'm jealous of my boyfren.
yesh, u read it rite.
i'm jeles of him.
well, juz for the fact dat he has great pals.
great n awesome pals dat he can call up out of a sudden
to go out for a ride or whenever he nids any help
in the middle of the nite.
his frenz won't grumble. they won't fret or nag or whine.
they will juz say, "ok bone!" n off they go in a flash.

i dun haf dat kinda frenz - yet.
i haf great pals dat i can relate to or can tell my problems to.
but i dun haf the kind dat will go out wif me at the drop of a hat.
or those who will help me or understand my situation
without whining, complaining, or judge me.
maybe i haven't reli see the potential in some of my frenz yet.
saying dat, can i help my frenz too if they ask me to in the middle of the nite?
no? den who am i to judge rite?

dat's y i'm so jealous of my own boyfren.
ahakz.coz he got a transport n so are all his pals.
n for the fact dat he's a guy.
urgh.

rite now, i want spain to win.
n i can't wait to mit my "hubby" n "scandal" on friday.
n maybe a date wif the ONLY ONE on saturday.
coz i've bin home from monday till today.
i nid to be outside,smelling the fresh air.

change of bgsong n layout will be ongoing soon.
so in the meantime, enjoy kayz ppl.

a draw

holland drew 1-1 wif germany.
the man above scored the late equaliser.
luckily he did, or else i had to treat someone to paddle pop, dis friday?
yeah, the bet is still on doode.
we'll bet for the next match. ahakz.
confirmation by tmrw aite.

i noe ware i stand rite now.
i'm not his fave person at the moment.
i noe dat. but i can't help feeling lyk dat can i?
when i kept quiet, he kept asking me y.
n when i finally open up my mouth, he get pissed off wif me.
so wat am i exactly supposed to do huh?
but yeah, i noe i'm in the wrong too.

my boy n his fren, farid, have dis bond between them dat's so strong,
dat even i, not dat i want to, could not break it.
i'm soooo jealousssss!!!
but i'm glad he has farid as his pal.
coz dat dude can take care of my boy.
they haf sumthing special which i won't take away.
well, i can only hope dat my boy spend as much tym wif me as he does wif farid.
which i noe can be very difficult to ask for
coz guys tend to get more chummy wif their mates than their gfs.
oh well, i can take into comfort dat he luvs n adore me very much.
muaX.

my bdae thingy is well underway.
thx dad. n everyone, we'll nid to mit up next week for last min planning.

till den, cheerios..

yawn...

ahakz.it's confirmed.i won't be going tonite.
uweks.
nvm,i expected it as well.
the boy's kinda lazy.
yeah,he's always lazy when it cums to me.
hahhaa..i'm gonna get it from him when he reads dis.

yeah sure, i'm juz part of the group.
the rest looks up to u.
wateva u say or do, it's a definite yes or a funny thing.
but dat doesn't min u haf the rite to criticise the rest
or say wateva in ur head without tinking of the feelings of the others.
ur a gerl damnit. behave lyk one.

*yawn* i'm fucking bored.
fucking tired. fucking stagnant.
but i fucking hell can't wait for the 2.30am match.

won sumthing

i won a pair of tixs to watch the holland vs germany match.
no.. not in portugal!
rite here in singapore, at golden village plaza, plaza singapura.
there will be free flow of drinks n pop corn.

but the thing is, the boy is not sure whether he is going anot,
the bro said it too late n he has to werk dat morning,
the sis n i will haf no transport back.
so... i dun tink i'll be going.
oh damn.
usual price of a ticket is $18 n i got it free, 2 sum more.
n i won't be going.

if anyone of u noes my hp number n memorise my ic number,
den go ahead n redeem those tickets.
once in a lifetym experience.
watching soccer in an airconditioned theatre wif strangers supporting n watching soccer wif u. wow.

anywae, holland is my team for euro.
:D

gd nite.

blah

guess wat?
i supported denmark instead of italy.
denmark was so fast n smooth dat i couldn't resist supporting them.
sorensen was good in goal, so he's the one who made me sit up n watch.
n rommedahl was sooo freaking fast!!
amazing..
i guess there's sumthing appealing supporting underdogs. :D

gtg n bathe. wait i continue...

soccer

soccer beats my sleep anytym.
so yeah, i'm staying up
for the italy vs denmark game
eventhough i'm freaking sleepy.

watched the 2nd season of Extreme Makeover.
dat show gifs me the creeps n always makes me nauseous
but blood gore is, well, sumtyms, my thang.
i'll be cringing on my bed,
but i still watch it.
freak.

i'll be supporting italy.
not coz they play well, which i dun they do coz all the players r drama mamas,
but for the fact dat they haf beautiful players.
yummEH!

gd nite ppl.

told ya.

told ya i'll be back.
i tink i got a fetish of blogging.
heh.
nah..maybe coz i'm so freaking bored at home,
i'll haf to resort to blogging every now and den.
haiz.

the ps2 at home is collecting dust.
only when the boy or my cuzzens come over
do the gadget gets to live to its worth.

i'm perspiring all over
but i dun haf the energy to bathe.
hahhaa.. i haven bathe since morning.
lazy ah..

n the com is beginning to show its evil side.
pop ups lah.. lagging lah..
the IE can juz suddenly hang on me.
everytym i blog, i haf to copy n paste my entry onto the notepad,
lest the com hangs on me.
so stupid rite?
wat to do...

tot the euro will make me even more imsoniac
but it is truly the opposite.
WHY? WHY!!!
when i truly nid to watch the whole match,
i'll end up sleeping halfway.
wah lau..

klah, i'll blog again later.
*yawn*

sadness

i predicted a 2-1 win to france.
but when dat reli happened,
my heart was so sad dat i kinda regretted predicting a france's win.

deep in my heart,
no matter how much i'm not willing to admit,
i AM an england fan somehow.
it's lyk, u noe all the players from the english premier league
n so u're lyk basically supporting ur own home team.

yesh,i support holland
but i'll be if england elated if england won the euro.
so becks missed a penalty.
kinda shocked dat he did.
barthez did a good job.

mistakes by the england team cost them dearly.
hope they'll get to win their following matches.
i want them to get as far in the campaign as possible.

i've been predicting loads of stuffs lately which were all true.
lyk, i predicted my boy n his boys would received a trophy
for their tournament.they did.
i predicted the boy's fren, farid, to get driver as his posting.
he did.
i predicted france to win 2-1. they did.
i shd be a soccer bookie man.

so,i'll be back later to post more shits.
till den. get ready jer....

Us: Then..  




Us: Now... 



one thing nv changed? we r still as crazy as dickheads as ever...

gosh

arlo.
do u noe dat the match cuming up at 2.35am on 14/06/04 later
is killing me wif anxiety?
i could die b4 the match even start.

aniwae, i'm broke.
anyone kind enuff to gif me 5 bux everyday till skool reopens?
plz?

n the boy's werking tmrw.
so i'll haf to stay home.
oh well. nid to try to catch up on my sleep.

ok.i wanna slp now.
dat if, IF i can slp.
so i'll be fresh when the match starts.
wake me up at 2.35am plz.
call my hp.if i nv answer, call me until i do.
PPPPPLLLLLLLEEEEAAAAAAAASEEEEEEEEE~!

thx.

juz when i click on the publish post button,
my boy juz called me n said he's cuming by here.
are we tele-pathetic to each other or wat?
hehee.. ok, it's telepathic.

blah..

so portugal lost 2-1 against greece.
well.
all i can say is...
HAHAHAHAHAHA..
in front of their home crowd,no less!
could they be the france of world cup 2002
ware the latter lost their opening game
n went on to lose their remaining games
without scoring a single goal in the whole campaign?
wow. very embarrassing yeah?

spain won 1-0 against russia.

tmr morning, it'll be france n england.
i hope england will win.
but i got a strong feeling dat it will be 2-1 to france.

holland. netherlands. dutch. my euro 2004 champions.
yeah.

n so today i stayed home.
slpt for 2 hours juz now.
n i'll be sleeping again soon.
coz i nid to be fresh for england vs france.

i miss my boyfren.
coz we've been very swit together dis past few days.
juz lyk how we've been when we first got together.
no one can reli stand my paranoia or sensitivity,
but how he could, i dun understand.
now, i've mellowed down a little.
the old ayu would haf kill him.

n i juz realised dat it's 11 more days to my bdae.
how fast.
scary? excited? nervous? happy?
i dono, i feel the same.

n i won't mind the boy not buying anithing for me.
i'm not materialistic.
juz being dere wif me on my bdae
or juz wishing me
n kissing n hugging me
is fine for a simpleton lyk me.

so ppl,
dun take advantage of me.
BUY ME A PRESENT!
;)

gd sunday everyone.

i've been sleeping less n less each day.
one thing i hate about having a chalet is dat,
they can disrupt ur slping pattern.
n yesterday, it didn't help at all n
it certainly made my sleep even more irregular.

for the past few days,
i've been sleeping wee early morning
n woke up ard 10-11 +am.
dat's lyk 4-5 hours of sleep everyday.
the body is crying out loud of fatigue
but the eyes juz ain't willing to cooperate.
if dis continues, i'll die pretty soon out of sheer exhaustion.

new must-see pics r up.
they r a must-see pics.
reli.
i had so much fun dis past few days
dat i dun reli care if i dun slp at nite.
*yaw*

n of coz, the EURO 2004 doesn't help much to my imsonia.
the campaign is basically making me more awake at nite.
die lah lyk dis.

i'm unreasonable at tyms.
i noe dat. i noe myself.
how to stop ah?
gosh, is dere a manual on how to understand my own self?
i nid one..

anyway,


do i look hot or wat?
haha..yeah,i noe, the car looks even hotter.
haizz.. wish it was mine..
den i'll drive to skool n be the envy of the sin-ma models.
hahahaha.. fat hope..
for more pics lyk the above, click on the latest pics.
yeah baby.

2 hrs n 50 mins more to the opening match of EURO 2004.
it's 9.00pm exactly.
let's support latvia shall we? hahahha...

enjoy ur remaining weekend.

i miss my peeps~!!

i miss my peeps.
i miss my R homies,
i miss my R girlies.
gosh i miss mmt1r.
and I'LL miss mmt1r.
it will be a 2 instead. wow.
how a year fly so fast.
wonder if any of us will repeat.
plz not. i hope.

everyone has been telling everyone in my group
how much dat everyone is missing everyone.
i received smses from khus n tweet,
they telling me they misses everyone.
in MSN, the usual suspects in my links
telling me they misses everyone.
syikin tagging everyone she misses everyone.
wow.
n now i'm gonna blog n post an entry on
HOW MUCH I MISSES EVERYONE!!!

i miss my CS session,
i miss the toilet breaks,
i miss the aircons in the labs,
i miss the fans in the clsrooms,
i miss the labs,
i miss the clsrooms,
i miss the ritual of spinning the roll-able chairs,
i miss the cigarettes smell when the guys enter the labs/clsrooms,
i miss my weird accented teacher,
i miss my bad breath teacher,
i miss the green, orange, white building of ite macpherson,
i miss all the cute guys in the skool,
i miss all the crushes of my homies in the skool,
i miss chinapoo, the name of the mama shop outside,
i miss the i-net,
i miss the whole skool,
n surprisingly, i miss the fucking sin-ma models.
DAAAmmnnNNN..~!!

i must be mad.
i'm only on a holiday,
not graduating.
still, i miss everyone.

skool is lyk my solace to all my problems.
n rite now, i haf tons of problems
but my only solace is on a holiday.

ppl changed.
sure thing.
i can accept dat.
but y izzit wrong for u to accept the change in me
while i HAVE TO/MUST accept the change in u?

fuck. i miss my boyfren.
the boyfren dat i fell in luv wif the 1st tym.
i miss dat boyfren.
rite now, i kinda dun recognise dis boyfren.
who r u again?
ware haf u taken my boyfren to?
wat haf u done to him?
bring him back~!!

i'm sleepy but i can't slp.
slpt at 6 am today n woke up at 11am.
5 hours of slp.
not enuff.
but i juz can't close my eyes n go ZzZzZ..

gd nite ppl.
not going to slp.
but juz a way to end my post.
tataX.

in the end..

i dreamt dat i won 4 pairs of tix to watch the one n only LINKIN PARK.
so i guess in reality, i won't be going dere.
haiz..
coz wat u dream usually dun cum true.
as to how i won 4 pairs,
well, i joined in many many contests
n i won all the contests.
hence the 4 pairs of the tix.

haizz...
will be going out wif the boy n his boys...
haizz...

in the end,
it doesn't even matter...

haf a great day today ppl.
Euro 2004 will be commencing in 2 days tym.
can't wait!!!
go DUTCH~!

only one

n so i slpt at 3+ n woke up at 11.
sooo short~!!
dis eyes juz popped open eventhough i wd be forcing myself to slp again.
but i juz can't..
so here i am, yawning away..

i finally took off my earring dat i juz pierced recently.
can't turn to my rite side when i'm aslp.
the earring juz keeps poking into my skin.
painful lah.
i tink the hole is kinda closed.
alah.. waste another 5 bux.. haiz..

do u guys notice how sexy usher is?

i juz love dis one dashboard confessionals song.
the title is "for justin."
but when i went to look for the lyrics,
the lyrics of the song is completely different.
so i tink the title is not "for justin" ah..
alamak.. nvm, wait i can pass to alif
n ask the professor wat's the title.

i'll stay home today.
promise.
:D

gd day peeps.

hey

today was an ok day i guess.
forgot bout venus miting up wif the sun.
but i saw the effect on the tv.
venus looked so freaking small compared to the sun.
well, wat do i expect? the sun is the biggest star in the universe.
but still, i wasn't kinda expecting venus to be dat small yaw.

aniwae, spent the day walking around town
wif my boy n his boys.
it was such a warm day
so i guess i was lucky dat we took the fren's car dere.
ate at cineleisure kfc n den we decided to bowl.

on my 5th or 6th frame, i accidentally step over the line of the lane.
n my, i fell~!! n not juz on my butt, i practically did a spilt!!!
luckily my pants didn't rip.
the lane was sooo waxy n slippery.
the ppl besides us n behind us were smiling n chuckling at me.
n yesh, the boys were red in the face coz the laffed too much.
after i fell, i ran to my boy n hugged him n laffed n laffed.
i hit 5 pins after dat throw.
so on my 2nd throw, i hit a spare~!! yesh, i hit the remaining 5 pins.
n the boy's fren said dat the rest shd fall too
coz falling makes someone lucky in bowlin.
hahahahah.. lame, i noe.. but i was sooo paiseh siak..
till now i kept laffing n laffing juz tinking bout it.
i was the only gal some more..
wah lau...
they even said i looked cute flat on the floor.
cb sia...
:D

reached home at 6.55pm.
hehehe.. good rite?
i noe.. went out at 3+..
3 hours of outing but i had a great tym.

oh yeah, my boy thank me for the letter
n i got a kiss on my forehead.
:D

well, gd morning peeps.
i'll slp now.

haiz

mum said each day my face looks lyk i haf sum problems.
do i?
i dun feel sad, but neither do i feel happy.
i feel, well, stagnant.
mum said i looked worried, sad.
is it reali dat obvious?
is it dat pathetic?
i dono.
lyk most thing, i dono. will never noe. don't even wanna noe.

n wat hanif chatted wif me on the MSN
has hit a raw nerve.
it hurts but i noe he meant well.
n i noe wat he said was true.
very true.
he can't judge me juz lyk dat.
but i noe dat he was rite.
kinda couldn't face up to the reality.
the teenage heart. so stubborn.
well, thx my fren, i'll keep ur advice in heart.
dat's nice of u..

wrote a letter to my bf in the dark at 3+ in the morning.
couldn't see anything but my writing was still acceptable.
only when i finished writing did i realise dat i didn't switch on the lites.
ha-ha. stupid, i noe.
aniwae, i've been writing letters to my boyf since we got together.
only when i tink he doesn't listen to wat i say will i write him one.
so yeah, i'll gif him if he's cuming here later.

rite now, my life's a bore at home.
dere's practically nuthing for me to do.
i can't talk to mum dat much now, coz she'll repeat n repeat.
my eardrums can crack u noe.
as for lil butterfly, i can talk n talk to her.
i can play wif her, but when she sleeps, i dono wat to do.
haiz.. switching on the com?
dere's a limit wat u can do in the virtual world, really.
n dere's nuthing on the tv.

argh...
klah, i wanna go n.. erm.. emo?
yeah..dat would be nice.
gd day ppl.

la di da

i've juz typed a 4 paragraph entry
1 paragraph was about 8 lines.
n my IE had to hang n it automatically shut off my IE.
eh, best sia.. do again ah..
mcm gerek gitu,type panjang2, pastu kau ilang. buat lagik ah~!!
but it's ok. i won't fret. i'll try to summarise wat i juz typed.
HAIZZZZZ...

i'm tired coz..
erm.. coz.. y?
i forgot... oh yeah, my sec skool toads n i missed a stop
to our destination, coffee bean clarke quay,
n we walked dere from the stop we alighted.
u noe the 1 bus stop away was lyk about 15 stops away.
by the tym we sat down, my legs wobbled n they almost gave way.
i can still feel the numbness in my legs man.
it was soo freaking far.

but the spore river view n scenery juz blew me away.
it was awesome, kinda take my mind off certain stuffs.
i could certainly find myself having my tea dere
when i'm a werking lady, tinking bout my future
and my family.
i noe, i'm lyk real.
but it's true~!!
S.O.S.,Hooters,Hendrix etc never looked dat, erm, clean.
wow.
i had a great tym miting up wif them.
great fun. we shd do dis again. :D

i'm so lethargic now.
it didn't help dat we walked dat far juz now.
it didn't help dat i didn't get sufficient rest nowadays.
been going out for the past countless days.
mum's been nagging n so does dad.
been low on cash but still i went out.
reach home in the wee hours of the morning.
tired n aching but will not think twice when opportunity arises for me to go out.
very enthusiatic when going out,
but when parents asked if i am as enthusiatic to pray as i am going out,
i'll be sooo ashamed. dono wat to answer.
i nid to wake up my freaking ideas man.

my eyebags. wooohooo..
i can filled them up wif encyclopedias n thick dictionaries.
i could even bring them to skool yaw~!

so rite now,i'm gonna stop yapping
n get back to my MSN chat wif alif.
after dat, i'm gonna slp.

p.s: i dun mind if ppl ask me to go out today. :D
i can still take it yaw~!

how's my layout?
jambu? nice rite?
heh. finally i found a nice layout.
but the codings are very funny.
tot it won't werk, but well, it did.

the feelings...
gosh, the feelings...
the turmoil in my heart n head...
gosh, they're killing me...

haf u sms for ur NDP tickets?
no nid lah u all, so i can haf a higher chance of winning the tix.
hahahahha...

gd day.

shites

tiring man.
reli tired.
i almost slpt while eating.
slpt at 3 morning today n woke up at 8
n slpt till 10 to go the the boy's NSSL [national street soccer league] tournament.
stayed under the hot sun till ard 4+.
sweaty, smelly. urgh.
but it was all worth it.
well, to me lah. for sum gerls i tink they wouldn't bother.
ha-ha.

i got lost at boon keng NEL.
fuck, first i looked stupid at potong pasir NEL.
den i got lost at boon keng.
mum told me to accompany her to potong pasir
since she didn't noe how to get dere by the train.
i sent her. i even tapped my ez link out of the station
instead of juz waving her gd bye inside the station.
5 mins later, i was tapping my ez link to get back in the train.
the staffs were lyk looking at me lyk one idiot.
nvm dat.
boon keng NEL has 3 exits.
1 towards my destination,
the other 2, way out of my league.
i read the signs, they didn't help much.
so i tried my luck to one of the exits
which had a looooooonnnggg stretch of underpass before reaching the escalator.
i walked n walked, n finally i reached the escalator, n i went up.
behold~! it was the wrong one.
i walked n walked back again to ware i started from
n walked to the other exit.
hehehe, it was still the wrong one.
i tink by den, the staffs muz be laffing at me from the all the cctv cameras.
paiseh sia.

i hate it if i lost my newspapers if i haven't finish reading it yet.
80 cents is alot ok~!
one guy asked for it, n the next borrowed.
the last i saw my papers, there were only pages 1 n 80(?) on the grass.
isk~!

who is zai?
the name juz stucked in my head.
i can't get dat name out.
who is she/he?
will i ever get to mit her/him?
she/he is bugging me, torturing me.
she/he is controlling my head.
zai zai zai zai zai.
argh. i hope i'll NEVER EVER get to see him/her.
i wouldn't want to.
it'll hurt damn fucking bad for me.
up to me to belif wateva was being said, u told me.
well, i'll try. :(
dun ever accuse me of not trying.

my love for u is growing my dear.
argh~!! am i normal?

HaPpY BdAe TwEeT~!!
MaY You StaY HapPy N RaWkiNg AlwaYs~!

so ppl, enjoy the pics.
till den. cheerios.

emoing

i've been emo-ing juz now
nice..
blasting to emo punk songs.
hehehhee..
n singing at the top of my voice.
yeah, i'm alone, wif the sis for company at home.
she told me to shut up loads of tym,
but i noe she's enjoying too..
hahahaha..

oh yeah,
HaPpY BiRtHDaY to My Sec SkooL ToaD, Faizal!
MaY You StAy GoOfY n FunnY AlwAYs.
n oh yeah, 20 more days~!!

gd day peeps.
i want skool.
i miss skool.

hahahha

hahahahhaha..
i juz love my blog song..
hahahhahaha..

for my bf..
hear the lyrics..
hahahahahhaha..

ENJOY ppl!!
for a while only...
hahahahhaha...

old skool rawks~!

slpy lah

i read her blog.
she said her ex luk so swit n good wif his current gf.
i cried reading dat.
did i almost blow it all away?
did i reli almost blow my chances away?

i was truly happy juz now.
u nv failed to lite up my life.
but someware deep inside my heart,
i noe things would be different.
it won't be exactly the way it used to be.
i'm so gonna miss dat.

so rite now, i'm patiently waiting for u.
thank u for the tym juz now.
we'll gonna cum back stronger, i hope.
our love won't change.
u told me juz now ur love for me won't change.
n i'm telling u rite now my love for u is forever.

so i'll be waiting for u my dear.
rite back into my arms.
i'll change, i promise.
n dis tym, it's for real.
i won't want to experience dat sucky feeling animore.

thank u for believing in me.
thank u for standing by me.
n thanx to u, i found out dat frenz do matter,
not juz us. coz partly,frenz make us.

n believe me when i said dat my frenz blame me.
not u. i realise my mistakes.
bah~! i'm growing up mah.

:D
<3 happy 11th mth anniversary <3
i won't change dat.
u're my boyfren still.
n i'm still urs.

to my frenz who stood by me,
who knocked some sense into me,
who advised me,
who were willing to hang out wif me
a big THANK YOU!
*applause*
u guys deserved it
n u guys noe who u r.
[my best fren, my R Toads, my Toads]

to my beloved bf.
i love u soo much.
forgive me.
i'll promise u i won't do shits again.
serik ah..

gd morning ppl.
i juz got back from hanging ard wif my Toads.
frenz rawk! n so does bf.
a balance life is good.
dun deprived ur bf or gf of miting up wif their frenz.
dat's not love.
dat's possessiveness.

tataX.

i'm bawling my eyes out yaw.

so, the plan was called off last min.
my frenz ah, bastard ah u all.
nabuih. nvm, i gif u all chance.
so i walked alone ard city hall.
u guys shd try to do it once a while.
walking alone to parts of singapore which u won't want to walk alone to.
it was a great tym to sort out ur tinking n loosen up ur limbs.

den behold! who did i see?
my own best fren!! EZZUDDIN!!
he was wif his neighbour who was also my acquaintance.
ehekz. to tink i was on the fone wif him for a while.
n i didn't even ask him ware he was n so did he.
so it was kinda shocking to find him dere.

took a cab home coz i wasn't feeling well.
felt lyk puking. n i did puke immediately after reaching my place.
eeewwww.. the colour was whitish2 n all, coz i haven't eat properly since my pit.
i ate ard 2 tyms, so it's lyk i ate 1 tym per day.
wat a big difference from my routined eating habits.
n hence the colour of my puke.
okok, i'll spare the details.
wouldn't want u guys to close dis window down. :D

sumtyms, at dat actual moment, when i'm tinking,
i always tot dat i was tinking reasonably, or very logically.
but when someone or anyone points out my excuse for tinking dat way,
hey, i find myself weird too. n i tot to myself dat my excuses r lame.
heh. but ppl won't belif me if i tell them dat at the actual moment,
i was tinking dat way. coz they won't belif a stupid thing lyk dat
or a stupid person lyk me.

yeah, my self esteem had dropped from being dis high up
[do a six wif ur hand. ur thumb n ur pinky pointing outward]
to dis low.
[fist up ur hand but juz make ur thumb n index finger parallel to each other]
amazing. dis is wat happen when ur thinking too much.

i'm strong? i dun tink so.
i tink i am more vulnerable now.
i get so carried away easily.
i get so emotionally easily.
i get paranoid easily.
i am so sensitive now.
i could be tinking of the worst of ppl when in fact,
ppl were juz being concerned
or juz doing something harmless.

so rite now, my heart is close back again.
it's scared. i'm scared.
bawling my eyes out is the way
but yet, when i finished doing dat,
the world seems a rather nice place to live in.
but juz as quickly the tears dried up,
it falls back rite onto my lap dat quick too.
how ironic.

if only ppl could laff when they r sad or happy,
i'll gladly laff for u.
in tyms of happiness n sadness.

not having him besides me sux big tym.
i miss him so much.
does he noe dat?
i hope so.
does he get to read dis?
i hope so.
will i see him soon?
i hope so.
will we be together again?
i hope so.
n will our love change?
i dun want it to.
we love each other so much,
but tym is a killer.
my hols sux without him.

so rite now,
i tink i wanna slp.
yesh, at 10.20pm. :D
sleepy lyk anything.

argh~!

miss dat person much.

miss dat person much.

miss dat person much.

aniwae, i'll be going out wif my frenz today!
woohoo!! i miss my old ite frenz. mmt1q 2002!!

the cls pit pics r up.

miss dat person much.

miss dat person much.

miss dat person much.

for the 1st tym ever, i went to the market wif my dad.
my gosh. it was so tiring~!!
argh!!

klah, gtg. gd hols ppl!!

sob

the pit was a blast.
well, not quite but the bowling session was great.
teacher forked out the money for 15 of us to bowl.
dat was amazing.

cherished wonderful memories. great ones.
thx alot.
hope reconsidering would be in the mind.
plz.

easier said than done.
wow. how i luv contradicting myself.

i dun bitch ard.
i won't bitch ard.
n i won't spread malicious rumours bout u.
i'm not her.

"u almost always pick the best tym to drop the worst line."
how appropriate.

pics will be up soon.
i'm kinda fucked up ah to upload.

p.s: to yana, jenn, man, thx alot for cuming on sunday. great tym.
to jenn, man, alep, sorie ah. paiseh sia. :D
to the person concerned. i'm sorie for any of my wrongdoings. duly apologise.

HaPpY BdAe SurIa!! LuV Ya GaL!! KeeP on RawKinG!!

my my, so many june babies.

gd morning ppl.i'm going emo-ing now.
ah..my eyes..they r swollen. \m/
n dis song has nuthing to do wif anything. i juz luv dis song. RnB sia!!!!!!