ooppsss...

ok, i guess i owe zur n everyone
at the competition juz now a huge apology.
yeah,didn't realise dat u guys had practised so hard.
i didn't take ur feelings into account.
SORIEEEEEE.....

n so, one more person added on to the "hurt/offended/angry" list.
reli reli sorieeee.....
to those who came by here and discovered sumthing
hurtful, i truly apologise.
my intention is to juz let out my feelings.
but at the same tym, i ignored ppl's feelings.
so sorie..

yeah, it happened b4 last yr.
i was in town when sumone came up to me and said,
"ayu, i dun lyk the way u blah blah blah blah blah about blah blah blah..
dun say all dat again. i noe u dun min it, u r a kind person,
but it hurts."
all i could stammer was, "errr, ok.. sorie..."
yeap, i didn't noe dat person,
yeap, i didn't noe wat she was talking about,
and yeap, till dis day, i'm still clueless.
:D

so anione, it's ok.
u dun lyk wat u read, tag me.
u dun lyk my face, cum up to me n say it to me.
u dun lyk my attitude, tell me.
i dun bite. i take criticism quite well.
so yeah, holla at me aite.

and LJ is still the safest.
kutok lahh byk2, org takkan dpt bace. :D

haiz..
a long day today..
gd nite. outz.

i nid my slp.....

got back from skool at ard 2?
yeah, tink so.
skool supposed to end at 6
but we went home our own.

aniwae, my group didn't go to cls.
we were busy supporting faliq,fir,shasha,joe,suhailah
at the Mr & Ms Ite EAST MacPherson.
they didn't win anything
but shasha won the title Ms Fusion, wateva dat mins.

it was very boring.
very.
u didn't miss much for those who didn't go.
but den again, it was much better than goin to cls.
heh. :D
and the highlight of the day for me is of coz,
when suhailah tripped and pulled off joe's
sarong and exposed his pants which he was wearing underneath.
hear the auditorium roar man~!

lame jokes all ard..
sarcastic remakes remarks [ *winks* to lela]..
rude comments..

more in my Live Journal.
if u wanna add me, juz ask me.
yeap, i'm promoting.

so rite now, i nid to slp.

outz.

Maroon 5.

Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
...............................................

i used to hate maroon 5.
but after i heard She Will Be Loved,
i'm in love wif them.
especially after watching the vid,
i am madly in love wif the singer.
he's so charmingly gorgeous in the vid.
all shaven and some visible beard, YUMMY.

hey, i'm a hot blooded woman after all yeah? ;)

i nid a break from myself.

been putting up wif almost everyone.
can't be myself animore.
who am i? i dun recognise myself animore.
i dun even noe who i am animore.

been trying to appease everyone else
dat i've becum one of them.
dis is not me.
i am not lyk dis.
n it's so hard to get out from dis facade.
i feel lyk i'm in Mean Girls.

y does being so bad feel so good?
this hyprocrisy is beginning to get to me.

i guess the only thing dat keep me sane
is the fact dat i haf solace from
my family, close frenz n of coz my one and only.
god plays a major part too.
how long do i nid to endure from all dis shit?

oh yesh, on a lighter note,
i juz sign up Live Journal.
and frankly, it's so complicated.
but yeah, i guess i'm gonna make it a quite personal one.
how personal? i dono, my inner feelings will come out.

miting yana n man later at Toa Payoh.
we 3 nid to bitch, nid to let everything out.
2 gals n a guy, how fun it be?
very, especially if dere are yana n man. :D

take care everybody.
oh yeah, i didn't go to skool.
woke up wif a throbbing head.
and thank god too, coz i was feeling kinda lazy.
hehehe..

outz.

my life is rawking on full gear~!!!!!

life has been good to me. alhamdullilah.
maybe wat my mum said has been true,
dun see ur bf/gf everyday or dere will be alot of fite.
well, it's mostly up to the individual
but i guess dere's sum truth to dat saying huh?

he's been great. we both been great.
i can safely say dat i'm truly in love wif him.

hahahahhaa..maybe coz he treat me to alot of things aredi?
hahaha.. i'm not lyk dat. not a high maintenance person.
i dun buy on impulse.
i certainly love budget or bargain or cheap clothes store.
indulge on me for clothes only once in a while.
but food? i'm certainly hungry all the tym.
so he shd count himself lucky to get a gf lyk me.
hahahhahaha.. he won't ever go broke.

i miss him aredi.
*prays* plz plz plz, let his platoon pass their live firing
so dat he can go home next wk plz.

to yana,
hey babe, u noe i'll be here for u.
so does man.
so wateva happens, juz be strong.
wait for next wk ware we 3 can go out n juz bitch ard k?
muacksss..

and so dat's the end of my blogging for now.
i nid my nap.

outz.

fuck u arsenal.

i juz hate ASSenal to the core.
they r an amazing bunch of a team.
wow, n to tink it's cuming from a Man U fan.
gif a big round of applause plz.

i won't be miting him
for 2 whole weeks.
coz of some live firing he has to do next week.
damnit.

k,i'm having a headace from looking at the com.

morning ppl.
outz.

i can't slp...

tym check: 2.54am
so it's a saturday today~!!!!!
the weekend is here baby.....

aniwae, yesterday, as in friday,
my toads and i did our flag day for nkf.
singaporeans can be so i)incorrigible,
and also ii) swit.

i)incorrigible ppl:

scenario 1 -
me: "excuse me sir, would u lyk to donate to th......."
man already walked away without even a shake of the head

scenario 2-
me: "excuse me sir, would u lyk to donate to the NKF?"
man stared at the bag i was holding, stared at me and den walked away,
again without a shake of the head or a no.

scenario 3-
me: "excuse me sir, would u lyk to donate to the NKF?"
man actually had the audacity to "tsk" at me loudly and arrogantly said "no!"

ii)swit ppl:

scenario 1-
me: "excuse me sir, would u lyk to donate to the NKF?"
man: "sure!!" and continued striking a conversation with me

scenario 2-
me: "excuse me mdm, would u lyk to donate to the NFK?"
lady smiling switly and putting in ard $2++ worth of coins
and den suddenly proclaimed,
"along dis stretch of pavement, dis is the 3rd tym i had donated
but it's ok actually." god bless u lady.

scenario 3-
me looking around and taking a break for a while.
man: cuming up to me and putting coins into the bag themselves~!! hurray~!!

................................

so overall, i'm so freaking shagged.
to alif, so sorie dat i left ur NKF bag at the bus stop~! oh, it's a long story.


and i'm miting the boy today.
most prolly be going shopping for himself or watch a movie.
muackssss...

and i juz realised dat my title
has got nuthing to do wif my entry.

;) niteZ ppl.
outz.

i'm back~!!!!!

guess wat?
my com is back~!!
i'll update later
coz the dearest bf asked me to call him.
oh well, bf cums 1st..

tataX~!

heh.

oh ya, haf i told u all
dat i'm shagged from head to toe?
dun tink dat far~!!
i did my NAPFA yesterday
and squatting n sitting down is a chore!!!!!

i nid some great massage.

muacks~!!

k goo hommmeee~!!!

2 more days..

haha.. 2 more days..
actually, i met him yesterday
but of coz, it's never enough rite?

dat said, i wanna check my frenster.
it's bin a loooooonnngg while since i log in.

take care ppl.
juz tag me.
i'll read. heh.
outz.

yahooo~!!!!!

finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally finally dis bugger of blogger using the skool computer worked~!!!!!

YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOO~!!!!!

plz let dis shit work man~!!!!!

ok, let's see..
wat did i do on friday, saturday & sunday?

[friday]
my sister was being squashed by a girl ghost on the bed.
she couldn't move n she couldn't even touch me.
n finally, when she cd move, she was praying reli loudly.
i asked her y n she said she saw herself being squashed by a girl ghost.
no wonder lil butterfly was crying non-stop.
little kids do can see ghosts.
of coz, i couldn't sleep at all
and when i finally did, it was not a deep slumber.
hehhee.. ya, i was scared.

and so, i didn't go to skool on dat day.
but i did go out wif the usual ppl.
dis tym, we met up wif hanif n fir.
n dis tym, i reached home so freaking early -- 10am~!!

talked to my boy on the fone from 11pm-1am.
hahhaha.. mum was lyk, "tsk~!tsk~! r u gonna pay the bills?"
n i juz said, "no, dad will. hahhahaa.."
ya, mum's lyk dat. she's sporting.

[saturday]
my cuzzen's, kak murni engagement at bedok south.
she was gorgeous~!!!!!
finally, she's settling down.

and den!!!!! he came~!!!!!
gosh, too bad i was wif my families, or else i would haf kiss him rite dere n den..
hahha..
oh yesh darling, i KNOW i looked swit in a baju kurong but thank u aniwae
for telling me dat.. hahhaha

den we went to fort road n talked the nite away.
of coz dere were kissing n hugging but the talking were alot more.
came back at ard 8+ in the morning, exhausted.
it was fun. thank u for spending so much on me.
the tank top n the undergarment were not necessary but u still indulged me.
damn.. dun pamper me too much man..
yet again, it doesn't hurt at all.. hhahahhaha..

[sunday]
slept for awhile
and woke up at 1+pm to bathe coz the boy had soccer at IMH.
my mum and i were amazed at his energy.
i was freaking shagged but he could still play soccer.

after his soccer match, he sent me home
and dat was the last i saw him for last week.
damn...

i miss him aredi.
but i'll be seeing him on wednesday
coz he'll be receiving his Higher NITEC cert
rite here in ite macpherson.
and on friday, he'll be booking out.
so i'll be miting him alot dis week.

yaaaaaaaaaahoooooooooooooooooooooo~!!!!!!!

oh ya, it doesn't hurt dat his pay is out aredi.
so yeah, shopping? hahahhaa.. HELL YA~!!!

i luv u boyfren.

k ppl, dat's all lah eh..
take care all.
outz.

it worked~!!!!!

alhamdullilah~!!!!!
it worked~!!!!!

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

argh~!!!

i'm tearing my hair apart~!!
becos the skool com juz plain sux~!!

i've been wanting to update since yesterday
and all the blardy screens showed me
were "cannot find server~!!"

not one com but 7 coms in different labs~!!!

so rite now, i'm gonna post sumthing here so
plz pray for me dat it will work.

[friday]
lepaked wif alif, khus (who went off earlier), wabul n wandi.
yesh, weird combination but yesh, we had fun~!!
jokes flew ard everyware.
n finally, yesh guys, i was wearing sumthing slack.
hahahahaha...

[saturday]
had the most painful menses cramps ever.
had wobbly legs n foetus-positioned on the bed.
and axe oil wif 3 panadols finally killed the painful bugger.

[sunday]
of coz, the day i've bin wanting for since he went in.
the day started off wif me going to his place.
nervous lyk fuck coz it was my 1st tym
going to his place without him.
they were great but of coz, dear me was freakin quiet
dat the 3rd bro disturbed me dat i lost my tongue.

he was so cute in his uniform
n nerdy specs.
he kissed his family n pat my shoulders n said a smiley Hi.
it was soo cute..
went ard his camp n his bunk.
the boy has the furthest bed, near the window.
scary but nice scenery.

took alot of pics but u shd noe i can't upload them yet.
com at home has gone *kapoot.*
from 1-5pm was the visiting hours.
after dat, it was sayonara.
had to hold back my tears n said gdbye.

ira, i saw u~!!
i wasn't being proud or arrogant tau~!!
i did notice u n salim luking at me
but it didn't cross my mind dat it mite be u.
hanis told me a lil too late when u both had aredi turon the stairs.
nice miting u btw~!!! :D

went to guardian potong pasir to see aisya werking.
bot my pads n vitamin e. hahaha..

[monday]
lepaked again wif my 2 gay partners ++ faliq n gf
at pasir ris mac. she's cute btw faliq. hahhaha..
awesome tym.
yeap, they gave me a hand job.
wanna noe wat dat is?
no! not dat hand job~!!
they put my whole fist in their mouths.
yeap, my fist fit perfectly into their mouths.
so salivary-slimy dat i felt dat i juz killed some aliens.
but my buddies rawk big tym. muacks.

n today, went to mac pasir ris to haf my breakfast.
cls started at 1pm.
break tym, my uniform was all milo-ed.
coz faliq dearest dropped 4 cups of the drink on the table
n they splashed onto me.
so thank u once again.
hehehhee...

i juz love my frenz. they rawk.
n of coz, i'm so in luv wif my bf now.
he's cute. very.
yesh darling, i wanna marry u too.
when? tmrw? set?
i'll see u on saturday k?

i'm very happy.
life has been fun.
family, frenz, him. u all rawks.

n to one of my frenz, u dun deserve any shit from her.
u did nuthing wrong. so juz tell her to fuck off.
den again, better not.

take care ppl..
outz.

FINALLY~!!

do u guys see a new layout darlings?
finally~!
after for lyk 3 mths or so, i finally changed the layout~!!

ok, to ira,
basically, ur bf n my bf are in the same company~!!
so, i'll ask my switheart to ask ur switheart
to intro us ok? :D

i was juz being reprimanded
by the discipline master for wearing my SW (PE) T to class.
hahaha.. he told me to stand up
n he asked me y i was wearing the T.
i told him my shirt was being washed
n den, *poof*, i switched off.
didn't reli hear wat he said back at me.
haha.

do u noe how bored i am?
very.

GirlFest tomorrow.
dono if i'll be going anot
coz the dearest told me not to go
as there will surely be a lot of guys.
i nid to depend on alif
to saiko him.

speaking of alif,
a week ago, we juz discovered dat he's a quite distant cuzzen of my boy.
hahhaa.. small world.
so anione else related to my bf?
coz it seems dat almost everyone i noe, noes my bf.
urgh.

n again, i forgot to mention
dat i won a date wif denise keller of mtv.
but of coz, i didn't go.
it was 10 am on a saturday, so i passed.
hahahaha..

bin going home wif 2 of my gay partners
for the past erm.. let's see since tuesday.
nope, i'm not tired of them,
but we'll see how it goes as tym passes by... heheheh...
who r they in question?
it's him n him lah..

klah, sunday is approaching
n I CAN'T WAIT~!!
take care ppl~!! enjoy ur weekend~!

p.s: the EPL is starting tmr!!! woohoo..

BYE..

am i?

am i irritating anione here in the virtual world
by going on n on about my bf in the army?
i dun min to whine n i dun mind to irritate anione
but if i do come across as being an irritating, whiny biatch,
plz let me noe.
i duly apologise.
no, no one came up to me or chatted wif me or emailed me
to juz get on wif it n move on n stop being an asshole.
it's juz dat i feel dat sum ppl may get the wrong idea, u noe?

i've nv been dis away from my bf.
the longest i've been away wif him was 2 days,
when we both had a huge fite.
n oso 4 days,
when he went KL wif his family.

so 3 weeks, wif me knowing dat he's still in spore,
is killing me.

so dere.
bye.

alif is here.
u noe y i'm ending my entry short.

T to the I to the R to the E to the D!

T to the I to the R to the E to the D!
n dat's how i'm feeling rite now.
shagged lyk fuck.
feels lyk i had juz run a 1000km marathon.
hehehee..
2.4km jer dah makan 20+ min ade hati nak lari 1000km!
(i took 20+mins for my 2.4km, still got the cheek to say i ran 1000km)

ok, complete translation from malay to english is completely atrocious.

doing my E-tutor shit.
i did my exercise 1 n 2 aredi
but it didn't get registered on my teacher's computer.
BLARDY HELL~!
waste my freaking tym ahhhhhhh..

5 more days till the 15th.
will be going wif his parents n his 3rd bro, i tink.
plz let one of his bros follow plz.
it'll be a little awkward to go wif juz his parents, rite?
to ira,
u're going too rite? if u see me, say hi kayz?? :D

tot my hp is spoilt
it turned out dat i had only 2% of storage space left
hence i couldn't dl any tonez.
BODOH BODOH.
to tink i still could blame lil butterfly.
poor girl.. hehehee.. sorie hunny.

oh yeah, to faliq,
thanx for all the free food at Orange Julius Liat Tower.
we r such freeloaders. sorie darling. hehhehee..
thanx for the, erm 60% discount of the big tub popcorn.
hahhaahha..
oops~! am i allowed to mention his workplace?
there's a possibilities dat his bosses could be reading dis.
RITE????

ok,once again, as i've said always,
i'll update another tym.
take care ppl...
*yawn*

hey ya..

dere weren't any obstruction
blocking the view of the fireworks at my dad's office.
it was fantastic~!!
dere were love-shaped firework, a star-shaped one..
very pretty..
wish he was beside me though..
but well, i am contented dat he did msg n call me...

aniwae, yesterday was my cuzzen's wedding
n for the 1st tym ever, i saw him cried.
it was so swit~!!!
their mexican outfits were killers...
awesome...

i am very lethargic, shagged n tired
from yesterday's wedding reception.
i didn't do much, as usual,
but the sun n the heat caused me to feel sleepy n very restless..

i miss him so much..
but i am coping well.
he calls me almosst every nite,
n msges me each n every tym.
he misses me too..
:) muaX honey..

6 more days to go.
i can't wait..
the anticipation is killing me..

i'll update tmr..
coz dis is my dad's office btw..
mustn't overstay my welcome..
hahahhaha..

take care..
:D

i'm in my dad's office n it's awesome~!!
i lurve dis place~!!
i told my dad i'll be working here when i finis skooling - IN MY DREAMS~!!
n the scenery is damn freaking awesome..

k gotta go n watch the fire works~!!
toodles..~!!

oh p.s: 6 more days to go~!!

ani one wish me linkin u up, tmr kayz? muackss!! thx..

i miss you...

i'm so pathetic.
to tink i cried on faliq shoulders.
i miss him so much.
dis is bad man.
i can't even survive 2 days without him?
wat does dat say about me?
i'm too in luv wif him?
or i'm too dependant on him?
wateva it is, it's hard man..
especially when he msged me today's morning
dat he had sneakily msged me while on the way to lunch
n he ended his msges wif an I Luv U.
he nv used to do dat when he was here wif me..
maybe nur's rite.
maybe he appreciate me more since he can't see me everyday.
thanx to everyone for the well-wishes n advices.

to nas:
nak tgk dier tak on the 15th?
bleh dtg tau. haris kate bleh dtg ramai2..
pape kol me or haris k..

16 more days to go..
i can do it, can't i?

take care ppl..

he's away...

so yesterday was the last day i met him
b4 he went for ns today.
emotional me obviously cried - AGAIN.
so he was trying his best to pacify me,
but the tears kept falling..
told me to take care of myself,
listen to my parents,
dun be too stubborn n crazy.

but of coz, the crazy part, i can't change.
i was still being crazy in skool
but not dat much.
talkative, no. laffing away, yes.
haiz..

he bought for me an OP wallet for my belated bdae pressie.
yesh, i emphasize the belated.
2 mths later den i got my bdae pressie.
hahhaa.. but it's the tot dat counts.
the wallet is baby blue in colour wif a bit of pink.
so swit~!! 16 bux.
n he oso treated me to KFC n a bottle of deodorant. hhahahaha..
FINALLY, he gave me 30 bux to spend.
dat was the clincher man..
he got his pay mah..

i'm starting to miss him aredi.
his 3rd bro msged me, telling me dat he is completely bald rite now.
got his uniform aredi.
thanx haris.

will be seeing him in his full uniform on the 15th.
thank u auntie for allowing me to follow. hehehe..

u take care my dear.
3 weeks will be over soon.
i'll be waiting for u rite here.
of coz, i am typing all dis to comfort myself.
hehhee..

aniwae, i juz hate my SW, dat's PE in ITE term.
ran my 5 rounds. breathless by the 2nd.
hahahha..
sweat it all out juz now.

i feel so alone~!!!
no one's gonna fetch me tmr in skool when i finish at 6~!!
aiyoh... i'm so pathetic siak..
it's ONLY 3 WEEKS!! not 3 MONTHS!!!
but stilllllllllllllll...

klah, i'll stop blabbering..
in case anione of u wanna puke..

take care ppl..
HAIZZZZZZZZZZ...

blastful weekend~!!

i had a great tym clubbing my saturday away.
went to paradigm instead of hendrix
n the crowd dere was awesome~!!
the KL DJ sux tho..
wateva music only he played..
aniwae, went dere wif my pals, faliq,wabul,his cuz wandi
n his pals, haris(his bro actually), arep, nas, mai n faizah.
saw man, jali(for a while), noraini, eddy juz to name a few.
one of the bouncers looked at me n den at my ic n he proclaimed,
"tak padan cute kau eh!" (so cute ah u!)
n when i showed him my chop to gain entry again,
he told me, "tak ya,aku cukop kenal kau la cute."
(no nid, i noe u well cutie)
wellll, if u say sooo... hahahahahahhaa...

it's kinda irksome rite to read about me clubbing n all.
u can say dat i'm a late bloomer.
dis is lyk my 2nd tym clubbing n my mum noes it.
dat's y i dun mk it a point to club every weekend
coz i do not want to abuse my mum's trust.
n u noe sumthing?
if u club once in a while, it's much more exciting than u club evey weekend.
the novelty will wear off slower.
n of coz, i dun drink. reli.

n finally, i managed to see a different side of wabul.
sorie eh,aku asik kutok kau jer.. main2 jer mahhhhh!!!

oh ya, if u nid a clubbing "kaki" who is of the never-say-die attitude,
plz ask faliq along.
from the moment he stepped into the club,
he danced till the last song.
to tink dat he was werking from 12-6pm b4 miting us at 9.
gosh, his energy was commendable man.

so rite now, i'm doing my storyboard for my MCC class.
flash lah.. wat ah~!! i dun care~!!

i dono y, but i actually cried when i sent him yesterday to his bike.
n when he hugged me, i cried even more~!
it's gonna be 3 long weeks man.
3 weeks~!!!
the more i tink about it, the more i feel lyk following him to ns.
u guys may tink it's nuthing, but HELLO, it's sumthing to me~!!
sorie dat i kept harping n whining on his ns,
but plz, bear wif me till wednesday, when he's off to bukit panjang camp aredi.
however i doubt dat i'll stop especially AFTER he's away,
coz i'm sure i'll whine more about missing him.
hahahah..

is dis a long enuff post?
no? yeah, i still want to blow off summore steam.

to nas, my boyfren's fren,
FINALLY, awak dpt tag kite eh??
dah pandaiiii~!!

i miss my com~!!!
i NID IT FOR MY SKOOL PROJECT!!!

sorie? wat's dat?
we're reli dun min anything 2 u huh?

klah, i'll stop now man.
it's way too long.
till den, i'm gonna catch my 40 winks while my teacher yakked all the morning away.
tataX.