blow job.

juz finished changing khai's layout.
it is so cool, i tell u.
the guitar picture was so appropriate for him.
but after changing it for him,
i realised dat i shd haf juz taken it for myself instead.
damnnnnnn...
hahahhaha..kidding.

helped alif's to put up his pic at his blog too.
i'm such a helpful fren, i noe.
i dun mind helping.
but i tink it's more lyk i'm being taken advantage of.
hahahaha.. no lah!!!
they told me not to if i dowan to.
heh.

skool was a blast as usual.
khai, alif, tweet gave me a blow job.
nah...not THAT blow job.
they knew my most sensitive part is my ears.
they kept touching, caressing and blowing my ears.
grabbed me from behind and holding onto my arms,
not giving me a chance to escape.
i was no match for the 3 of them.

den we had to videocam ourselves using the teachers' vid cam.
it was hilarious.
big gesticulations, big reactions, big noses.
it was fun while it lasted.
but khai was being a very noty boy.
he shd noe y. kept distancing himself wif dis guy from our cls.
nabuih ah kau.

the low point was fir's mp3 was stolen.
someone had opened up his bag and took out his mp3,
leaving his earphones behind.
kong asam kan.
shame on the person. shame!!!!!

be miting alif,tweet n kin tmr at pasir ris mrt at 11am.
skool starts at 3pm but the 4 of us r going sumware 1st.
it's 11am ok? not 11.01am or 11.15 or 11.30am ok?
;)

and the boyfren, once again, is my angel from my nitemare.
hahahhaa.. is dat good or bad? angel but from my nitemare.
ape dah...
he's being a good boy lah..

and oh!!!!! hat trick on his debut!!!!!
congrats wayne rooney!!!!!
man u 6-2 fenerbahce!!!!!
who has written off man u, u better eat ur words!!!!!
liverpool lost? omg. kental.
sorie dear. :D


klah, i nid my slp.
too many soccer matches yesterday morning.
gd morning.
outz.

and i'm proud of my hunny bunny.

didn't go to skool juz now, again.
i wanted to but the boyf was having his p.o.p today
so i decided to juz ponteng skool one last time
to gif my moral support to him.

went dere wif his parents n youngest bro.
it wasn't as nerve-wrecking as the 1st tym.
and i was quite enjoying myself in his mum's company.

saw him in his full army uniform and the rifle and all.
saw him giving hormat to the spectators, i.e, us.
and i was damn proud of him.

when his mum put on his jockey cap for him,
i almost cried. it was such a proud moment for him.
ya, ya, it sounded so cliched.
but i WAS and AM proud of him juz now.

the moment was almost spoilt
when i fought wif him.
i cried real damn bad and he didn't move an inch to comfort me.
he said i deserved it.
well, i guess i did.
coz i was being such a selfish biatch.
anyway, as they say, we girls use tears as weapon.
and eventually, he relented.
hugged me and said, "long tym right nv cry?"
hahahaha.. nabuih.

i shd reli go to skool tmr.
naik lemak liao.
and yeap, hope he's fetching me!

bro's going bali tmr.
plz haf some good ladies taste, bro.

and i gtg and slp now.
take care ppl.

i luv u boyf.
and i won't do it again.
promise!!!!!
*boo*

outz.

crawlin' in d dark, lookin' for d answer.

i'll take abit from my LJ and put it here.

mum and me had a pep talk juz now.
it was all about him and me.
so basically, after the talk,
i ended up feeling relieved and restless at the same tym.

relieved, coz i noe we both love each other so much
and dat both sides of our parents approve of us being together.

restless, coz i won't noe if both of us will eventually
ended up getting married to each other.

wat if we dun? i'll be bawling my eyes out, i tell u.
all these obstacles are brewing up from within.
they may juz be the factors which can destroy our relationship.

gosh oh gosh. it's so easy giving advice to someone
but when it comes to ur ownself, u feel lost and the advice
dat u give to frenz doesn't make any head or tail to u. haiz..

aniwaes...
didn't go to skool juz now.
hehhehe.. u can blame alif if u want to.
he told me he wasn't going and so,
it triggered my laziness too.
wabul,kin n khai didn't go too.
so... :)

the boy is p.o.p-ing tmr.
i'm so proud of him.
reli, i do. it's lyk he managed to finish his bmt
without any major complaints
except the occassional fatigue n tiredness.
even when his face is "destroyed & disfigured" when
major rashes appeared, he wasn't the least fazed.
but he tot I would be turned off.
u could never be more wrong hunny.
y shd i? it's not ur face i'm in love wif.
it's ur money/bike. hahahaha.. juz kidding.
it's U.

i love u mohamad hanis bin yusoff.

n tmr, i HAVE to go to skool.
someone plz spank me.

haf a gd monday everyone.
no blues plz. ;)
outz.

*snores*

i changed the background colour of dis layout.
to the person who did dis template,
it's not a crime to do so rite??
hehehe.. i still leave ur credit behind.
the original colour was too dull lah, i haf to agree.
so i changed it to pink!!!!! it's alrite rite? i love it aredi.
fickle, fickle.

i'm the only one in the family
who's not aslp yet.
i do wanna slp coz i'm freaking sleepy
but since skool is starting at 3pm tmr,
i have to slp late so dat i'll wake up late.
if i slp now, i'll probably wake up at ard 10+am.
and i'll probably be bored to tears
waiting to get ready for skool.
u geddit?
oh well.

aniwae, i miss hanis aredi.
i noe, i noe, i'd juz met him on friday n saturday.
but i didn't mit him on sunday b4 he went back to camp.
i feel lyk i forgot to do sumthing.
oh the power of love.
hehehe.. irritating rite, the way i say dat.
aahhahaha..

the cough is getting better although
i nid to do sumthing about the phlegm.
ok, i'll spare u all the details.

one of the things i hate in life
is when a guy beat a girl up.
screw u, u useless piece of dirt.
tink u're a big terror by beating a girl up?
no, u're juz a coward who has to resort
to beating a girl up because she doesn't haf the strength
to beat u back and dis gives u the adrenaline rush
of being superior.
it's all bullshit.
and the girls, i noe the feeling of being beaten up.
i do. and i reli regretted not voicing out.
so dun mk the same mistake as me
and plz tell someone about it.
break up wif him.

and to dat person who claimed to be my "cuzzen",
and a jamming mate of khai,
well, i juz wanna say, plz, get a life.
we dono u!!!!!

gd morning.
outz.

understatement:i am weird

i can type without looking at the keyboard.
i can type while watching tv.
i can type while reading a book/newspapers.
i can type juz by looking at the com monitor.
but i can't type while closing my eyes.

warning: if u wanna eat at the 24 hr
drive thru or dine in macdonalds or kfc
near the National Indoor Stadium,
plz remember to bring a sweater along.
if u wanna become the next ice sculpture
at a grand wedding, plz dun. easy.

the boyf will p.o.p on tuesday.
a little more than a mth has passed.
dat's so fast.
and hope he can finally fetch me from skool.
i miss him fetching me!

won a pair of tixs to watch the new movie,
starring kirsten dunst n dis guy,
titled Wimbledon.
the show will be screen at Tiong Bahru Plaza!!
of all places!
but i graciously let the sis n the batu lesong
haf the tixs. i'll be skooling lah dey!

i've watched garfield,
get dis, ard 40+++ tyms.
courtesy of lil butterfly.
she practically wants to watch it from morning till evening.
dat particualar day, she watched it from 9 am
till 3 pm in the afternoon.
and when i switched it off, she bawled.
test me, i tink i memorise the whole script/dialogue.

more n more strange ppl r adding me up in friendster.
isk... nvm lah...

klah, chatting wif the boy on msn now.
make full use of ur sunday ppl.
outz.

he lied to me. he reli lied to me. he did. urgh.

he told me dat he wouldn't be booking out yesterday.
he told me dat his officers
forced him to stay to help wif the p.o.p stuffs.
he told me dat he would only be back today noon.

but yesterday nite at 11, he called.
in his background, i heard the sound
of the door of the lift closing.
i asked him ware he was.
he told me, "i'm at camp lah dear."
i started laffing.
"y u laff B?"
i told him, "coz i heard the sound of the lift."
"ya lah, i'm at camp. my camp kan ade lift."
i laffed again.
"u bedek of a kambing.
mane u pat camp bleh pakai lift!"

i could sense a smile on his face over the fone.
i could sense him trying to laff.
i could sense dat he was trying to sniffle a chuckle.
i could sense dat he WAS HOME!!!!!

i told him so.
he said, "hehhee.. i'm on my way to ur house."

awww..he surprised me.

i got ready and den i asked my parents' permission
to go out wif him.
so we went out of the house at 12am.
ate at yassin, near his place
n sat dere till 4am.

went back to my place
ware i almost suffocated to death
by my own coughing
and the feeling of my heart being squeezed.

my boyf looked so worried.
poor him.
i tink he was scared to handle me.
woke my mum up n she applied some vicks on my chest.

the boyf den gave me a massage on my back.
mum looked on but at the same tym,
scolded me for always eating ice cubes
and drinking cold drinks.
the boyf joined in.

aiyoh. bleh mati ah dgr ke-membebelan org.
makin sesat jantong aku.

hahhaa.. but i noe they meant well.

slp at 6am juz now,
right after the boyf went home at 5.40am.

i'm one sick but happy, contented, blessed,
quitting-on-biting-ice-soon girl.

itchy head.

my shampoo has almost run out.
i nid to buy a bottle tmr.
remind me.
or else, i'll be a scratching monkey tmr.

the R Toads boys lost their 1st game
wif the score of 3-4 and won their 2nd
6-1. didn't go to skool or the matches juz now.
i was feeling damn downcast.
and sick.

i won't be skooling oso tmr.
but i'll be cuming down skool to watch them play
the remaining matches.
go toadies~!

aniwae, my boyf n his team-mates made a blog
about their football club.
pls support ok?
-----> here.
critics, comments, accepted.
thx.

to aishaa,
hope u're feeling better.

klah ppl,i gtg n slp now.
miting alif n faliq at 8.30am tmr.

and my boyf will be booking out tmr at 10pm.
can't wait~!!!!!
maybe going jb or sumthing. hmm...

niteZ. outZ.

i.....can't.....breathe.....

skool was chaotic.
wat's new?

i didn't save my project.
how stupid?

the guys r having a soccer competition
in skool tmr.
i'll be going.

woke up at 3 am yesterday
wif a suffocated feeling.
the heart was beating fast
and i couldn't keep calm.
it was so surreal.
i reli tot i was going to die.
which i'm sure sum ppl would be so happy
for it to happen.

the coughing is getting bad.

and i tink i'm falling sick.

yeah, it's a highway.
i dun care how u perceived it.
as long as my loved ones love me.

klah, i gtg n slp.
niteZ.

lean back, lean back. glory is man u's~!

today, we chylled outside
the skool under the void deck more
than we studied.
it seemed dat every of our teachers,
except our Class Advisor, prenda,
didn't cum to skool.

we played in the rain.
kicked puddles of rain water to each other.
wet thru.
damn fun.
i dun nid help wif cleaning my thighs which were dirty
wif the wet tiny branches n leaves
but i guess khai n hanif tot otherwise.
perverts~!
hahahhaa...

i can officially say dat
khus n hanif r now
kentalan mat hip hoppers.
although hanif is
the wayyyyyyyy much better dancer.
khus, plz stick to punk rock or hardcore
or wateva shit dat u usually listen.
Hey Mama? more lyk, Hey berkecah.
they both were so hilarious today.

as for khai, he's getting thinner.
and crappier.
i noe, wat's new rite?
but he's much more worse now.
he's lyk the "add fuel to the fire" to hanif n khus.
and the funniest part was
when we were scolded by an apek
who was sleeping at the RC area
and he stared at khai
n said, "BABI LU!"
u shd see khai's face~!
it was a classic!

juz look at the pic.
he ate the choki choki chocolate,
and stucked some of it on his teeth.
and he had the decency to push his face
wif his ugly chocolatey teeth
rite up to my face.
urgh.



and i haf to say dat
alif is the most patient fren i ever had.
:D

skooling at 8am - 5pm [izzit 5.30pm?] tmr.
someone plz cheer for us!

did u read today's The New Paper?
hehehhe.. u SHD read the front page. :D :D
2-1 lah.. 2-1~!!!!!

ok. i seriously want to slp.
i juz ate the cough mixture, "obat cap ibu dan anak."
the drowsiness n the feeling of wanting to slp
is sooo damn overwhelming.

gd nitez ppl.
fasting mth is approaching.
outz.

6-235-35-35

n i saw the cutest pizza hut delivery rider - EVER!
*swoon*
hey, dere's nuthing wrong in
looking at other guys, sumtyms.
i'm a hot-blooded woman too, ain't i? ;)

skool was great.
it always has been.

k.
i
badly
nid
my
slp.

waking up at 2.35am later.
or izzit 2.55am?

to watch.......


Tue 21 Sep 2004
Old Trafford
ESPN
2.55am

glory glory man united.
but dat rafael benitez is a good coach.

outz.

irritating throat.

*cough* *cough*
n dere're lots of phlegm.
ewwww..

the sis n the dad came back last nite
at about 8+ pm.
the whole family sat down in
the middle of the living room
and rummaged thru their bags.
thx dad n sis,
for the imitation-but-wonderfully
gorgeous n cute roxy pink T,
the most-expensive-item-bought-and-it's-original
Hard Rock Cafe T,
the imitation-but-thoughtful
diesel bermudas n billabong T for my boyf.
thx alot for buying a lot of stuffs.
told ya my sis has good taste. :D

the hols flew by without me realising it.
i was juz about to get used
to the fact dat i was having my hols.
but den, it's aredi monday,
and it's back to skool.

and no, i haven't done a single thing for my flash.
how to?
i dono ware the A Drive in my computer
had gone to.
i tink the repairmen forgot to insert it back in?
so how to save my project?

changed my layout.
it's simple but so sweet.
juz lyk me.
*grins*

the prospect of going to skool at 3
juz turns me off,u noe.
people r going home at 3
and we r going TO SKOOL at 3.

oh shits.
i haven't eat yet.
take care everyone. cYa.
outz.

cloud 9? not enuff man...

who invented the term, "cloud 9?"
y cloud?
y the number 9?
did he/she went to the clouds and count till 9?

dun u ever wonder about dis kind of things?
who invented the word, "computer?"
y computer?
y not call it, let's say, apple?
or television?

and y television?
y not call it remote controller?
or air conditioner?

and y aircon?
okok...i guess u get my drift now...
it's getting on ur nerves rite?
i noe, coz i'm getting on MY nerves.
hahahhaha...

aniwae, i had a great but tiring weekend
wif the boyf n his pals.
i dono y, but i get along wif his pals so well,
dat sumtyms i feel dat they ARE my pals in the 1st place.

we watched The Ghost at Cineleisure,
after rounding suntec city.
the sound effects of dat show, my god.
it was so terrifying for me
dat i sat wif my legs crossed on the seat.
i was so scared dat someone might juz grabbed my legs.
yeap, i'm dat paranoid.

but after cuming out of the cinema,
i've forgetten about it
and the feeling of fright has left me.

his fren, nas n him
den sent me home at 330am
and they eventually fell aslp in my living room.
i woke them up at 5am and off, they went home.

12 noon, the boyf called me and told me to get change.
coz we were going out.
i so hate last min planning when i'm aslp.

overall, my weekend sounded so plain n simple.
but it was very worthwhile and greatly enjoyable.

and oh. his pals n him told me
i looked good wif long hair,
while my mama told me to cut it
coz i looked lyk my age wif long hair.
shd i cut botak? it'll be much easier to decide rite?
opinions pls.
i nid them.

so u see, cuming back to the point,
the person who invented the term, "cloud 9,"
did a good job in exchanging a long meaning to a short term.
but for me? cloud 9?
it's not enuf.
i may need cloud infinite.
i'm adoring n loving my boyf more n more.
oklah, puke lah. gag urself lah.

<3 <3 <3.

and i was invited to join U.R.A.Q.T.
[You Are A CuTie] at Friendster.
they told me to add them.
only those invited r allowed to join.
hunny, i dun nid to join to noe i'm a cutie.
i noe i am. hahahahaha..
thick skinned biatch.

be skooling at 3pm tmr.
new timetable.
sucky as dat pudding i bought juz now.
klah, gonna slp now.
nitez.
outz.

:D is dis smile big enuf?

is the smile big enuf
to tell u how estatic i am?

yeap, it's saturday.
and finally, the boyfren is back
from his blardy 5 days field camp.

but the thing is,
i haf no freaking idea
ware to go or wat to do wif him today.

prolly go the movies.

chill out sumware?

stay home
and juz wait for soccer matches to start?

trivial stuffs
but hard to decide.

i'm hungry.
but i can't wash the rice to save my life.
either it'll be too soggy or too hard.
so rite now, i'm waiting for my bro's gf
to cum so she can cook the rice.
hahahaha.. sorie kak wati.
u will score alot of marks
if u cook for my family tau.

hahhaa.. i'm a bastard.
incorrigible lazy pig.

klah, i betta go n bathe
before the boyf comes here
and find out dat i smell lyk poo.

outz.

ohk-oh.....[pronouced as oak oh.]

ohk-oh.....
hadi commented on my eyebags juz now..

ohk-oh.....
the sis went to bangkok today wif the dad
so i'll be sleepy alone in my big queen size bed
and in the dark..all alone...

ohk-oh.....
i'm sleepy and i can't slp
and thus,making my eyebags even worst...

but of coz, i can put all dis aside
juz for the fact dat today is saturday
and my boyf is cuming home and is miting me~!!!!!

oh come on, cheer for me will ya plz? thx.

my sec skool mates say
dat i am still as loud as ever.
sat at mcafe lido and
from the counter, they could hear my voice.
yeah, probably suria is rite.
wat i lack in height, i make it up by being loud.

eh, being loud got advantages tau.

but dat will be another story for another tym.

remind me to tell u all the advantages.
i tend to get carried away while blogging. :)

rite now, although the eyes can't shut to slp,
the head does not agree.
the head is bugging me to slp.

are there 2 computers in my bro's room
or izzit juz me?

k. gd morning. the head wanna lie down.
outz.

finally ah. finally.

1 whole week of holidays
and dis is my first outing, OUT OF THE HOUSE.
i'm going out wif my sec skool mates.
i miss them so much~!!!

cYa u guys later...
to aishaa, msn later at nite darl.

n it's a saturday tmr~!!!!!
yahoo ah. yahoo..

take care peeps.
outz.

abit of my LJ i in here. HAH!

aku tido pukol 4 pagik tadik
pasal aku main com dapade pukol larot malam
den teman kakak biol aku tgk bola.

man u draw lah. kental kan?
tapi ini bukan motif aku untok blog.

aku nak bilang nie hah yg aku nie ngantok.
tido pukol 4 pagik. bangon pukol 10.
handal kan? hebat skali.

skarang aku dah pening lalat lah.
pasal pandang ini com dgn mulot ternganga aku
sambil dgr combinasi lagu2 yg merepek.

rnb, pop, punk rock, hiphop rock.
boleh terdengar jugak aku nie eh.

sekali lagik, ini bukan motif aku untok blog.
aku dah pening. itu lah motifnye.

salah sape aku pening?
bukan salakau, bukan salaku, tapi.....
SALAH SANGKA.

klah, aku nak tgk teebee.

....................

TRANSLATION:

i'm having a bad headache from looking at the monitor too long. :)

....................

ok ppl. photos of the ms & mr ite macpherson are up.
i noe, it is long overdue.
most of the pics r very dark.
so trying making out who's who urself.
i'm too lazy to rename.
n to fir,
i took some from ur album k.

kakak n ayah r going to thailand tmr.
hope kakak will buy many pretty stuffs.
we almost haf the same taste
so i can definitely count on her.

i nid to go overseas man.

klah, haf a great thursday ppl.
outz.

panda, prada, prenda (my teacher), sucka, wateva

i luk lyk a short but adorable (ahem) panda.
nid to get rid of those stubborn eyebags.
which is unfortunately a very unsuccessful mission.
i tink i nid to go for extreme makeover.

speaking of which, if i could,
i would lyk to get rid of my baby fats ard my waist.
and den, could u get rid of my flabby arms?
at the same tym, gif me those siliconed packets
and insert them into my breasts to a full 36C.
finally, could u juz whiten my teeth a little?
so dat dere's no signs of me smoking my teens away the last tym.
and , DO NOT lengthen me.

make me a sex goddess for the shorties in the world. plz.

love me. envy me. hate me. loathe me
for my plastic-but-gorgeous face.
pity bout the height though. :)

oh well, i better snap out of dat nitemare.
heheheh.. if i say i'm reallyyy happy wif myself,
i would be lying.
if i say i'm not, i would be lying too.
so a girl could only dream.
it's all in the mindset.
i'm not drop dead gorgeous but neither am i ugly.
oh fuck, once again, i'm a walking contradiction.
wat do i reli want in my life? aiyoh.

aniwae, thx to alif n khus
for being swit enuff to accompany me here at home.
i noe it's boring so, yeah, sorie bout dat.

to khai,
i'm not fat~!
who the heck causes the lift to overload
everytym he enters?
definitely not me~!
the skool is a lighter place when u're absent.
hahahhaa.. kidding ah mat.
u noe i luv u.. hahahah..

to kin,
send yan my regards. i miss him.
and i miss u too girlfren.

to aisya n hanif,
ware r u two lovebirds? disappear?
i nid my vitamin e~! when r u werking?

to fir n faliq,
the brothers to the sisters in distress.
i miss u both.

to tweet,
is dat tummy flatten yet?
and yeah, i want dat cd.

to mon,
r u smiling alot?
smileeeeee...

to nur,
dun keep doing projects.
chill out~!
but yeah, i nid ur help soon. :D

to wabul,
oi. babi kau. diam ah.
hehehe.. i miss our arguments n blabberings.

oh god. and dis is only the 1 week hols.
imagine if i were to graduate.
argh~!!!!!

and i miss u boyfren.
saturday, here we cum. :D

it's up n running only to be cut off sooner or later...

ya.
when will dat be?
i dono.
wat am i toking about?
my title.
nvm.

hi everyone.
i'm back.
thx to my brother, yesh real brother.
not some sworn or abg angkat.
he paid for the reconnection fees.

i used the excuse dat i nid internet
for my skool project.
which isn't a lie~!
but it is if i dun do my project
n instead, surf ard ppl's blog n update MY blog
and check my emails n all dat shit.

speaking of my project,
i noe shits about all the flash.
god help me.

oh of coz.
i mustn't forget to blog about one of my fave person.
my boyfren.
he's away in a 5-day field camp in tekong.
no handphone watsoever.
so basically, dis is so terok den not miting him for 3 weeks straight.
at least for the latter, i get to hear his voice.
gosh, i miss his morning msges,
saying he's up n getting ready to fall in.
n maybe ppl's rite. i shd juz get married to him now.
haha. too soon.

aniwae, khai darling,
u dun haf to force urself to tag u asshole.
aku main2 jerrrrrr. babi *screw up nose*

n to khus n alif,
plz u both. dun be late.
cum to my place, n we'll juz chyll ok?
my mum's going to syarahan n dere's no food.
so survive on ur own. ahakz.

ok ppl, haf a great tym.
my skool hols kinda sux.
so plz dun be lyk me.
:D
outz.

pain pain go away..

blardy hell...
my period has to cum today.
n of coz, when dere's blood,
dere's pain.
n when dere's pain,
ayu will get cranky.

i miss my bf.
we nid to tok. seriously.

2day's the last day of skool.
can u hear the excitement in my voice???
so, i won't be miting alif, faliq, fir, khai, aisya, hanif, kin, nur, wabul, khus, tweet, mon for the next 9 days~!!!!!
probably only me, nur, alif will not be working.
haiz... 9 days of staying home.

klah, ite kids, enjoy ur hols.
dono about poly kids. :D

outz.

ridiculous behaviour leads to insanity

we fought~!
my group,dat is,
wif a bunch of mats from our skool.
it was fun while it lasted. :D

can't wait for saturday.
i wanna go shopping. :D
courtesy from the boyf of coz. :D

i hate u.
i hate ur family.
i hate ur parents.
n u're so fucking gonna rot in dere.
n yeah,u're so last summer.

i'm a one happy girl.
juz lyk garfield. :D

gd day ppl.
outz.

system of a down

yeap, my internet connection had been cut.
haven't got the smackeroos to pay it yet.
hey, dere's no nid to deny dat sumtyms
my family do haf financial difficulties.
i guess every families haf dere's problems ya?
but i'm happy wif my life of coz. :D

he didn't get to book out on saturday n sunday.
he passed his live firing but failed to
mit the marksman score.
well of coz, my darling is a blind mouse.
he can't see the target at nite.
dat's y he's in PES B.
ahakz. sorie hunny.

n he's gonna make it up to me
by bringing me shopping dis cuming saturday.
we'll be going to paradigm too
wif his mates n sum of my boos.
hahaha.. we're gonna matchmake sum ppl, *wink*

yeah, juz lyk shidah,
i love my boyfren's money. hahahaha..
juz kidding~!!!!! i love him for him.
it doesn't hurt dat he spends a lot on me rite? :D

juz finished my MCC test.
got 44% out of 100%.
daymmnnn...

k ppl, till den.
take care.
haf a great day.
outz.

pms - pre madness/moody symptoms

i got a big pimple on my chin
which is, thank god, not dat visible.
but i can feel the bump on it.

and i'm feeling thirsty n hungry
all the tym since 3 days ago.
so dat can only min,
i'll be experiencing terrible cramps anytym soon.

yahoo. can't wait.

i miss my boyfren. so much.
we juz fought yesterday~!
hah~! after so long... haiz..
and it sux of coz... hope it'll blow over soon.
knowing my technic of persuading him,
i noe it will. hopefully.
mustn't take my technic for granted rite?
and it was juz a petty matter to start wif.

i dun nid to explain to anyone.
sum ppl ard paya lebar area n in my skool itself,
must haf seen me holding hands wif my guy clsmates
especially faliq.
b4 anione jumps to conclusion
dat i'm cheating behind my bf's back,
i want to clarify to u all
dat i am faithfully n very much in love wif my bf.
my boyf told faliq personally
to take care of me while he's away in camp
and he did. wif perfect care.
so the holding hands are juz his affections for me lyk a small sister.
aniway, he dun hold my hands alone. ahakz.
n dat dude has a girlfren oso.
so yeah, he's one of my greatest pals ever n i love him~!!!

n oh, alif is oso one of my greatest pals.
taken into account dat he'll follow me dis thursday
to skool to find dat apek. hehehe..

oh man. i haf the tendency to over-explain myself.
coz it seems dat the more i explain,
the more i get flustered by the fact dat someone may get mistaken.
when in actual fact, no one has ever gossiped about us. yet.

to my dearest gf, kin:
take care darling. dun fret so much.
we are all gonna be here for u. especially faliq.
he's our bro, so u can definitely count on him.
muacks~!

//
updated.
he juz msged me~!!
he still loves me eventhough i'm sooo stubborn.
ahakz. maybe he nid a big stone to crack my head open
muacks baby~!

k gd nitez ppl.
will be going out wif the sis
since the boy isn't booking out tmr.
aww shucks.
outz.

bleurggh~!

i
am
so
pissed
off
with
myself.

and everyone else for dat matter.

argh.

oh yeah, happy 14th mth of love, love..

bad day and fuck the system.

i would lyk to apologise to anione
who is offended after reading dis post
coz i KNOW there will lots of vulgarities involved.
if u're offended, plz take note dat
u can juz get out from dis website
instead of lingering ard here and suffer from my wrath.

of coz, as u all shd noe by now,
i started the day badly when mum woke me up early
and informed me dat she was on the way to the hospital
to send my asthmatic dad.
dat's sad enuff.

den i went to skool as usual.
took bus 80 as usual.
finding MY own business as usual.
but i guess dis fucking apek dun intend to
make my fucking usual day usual.

he boarded the fucking bus when i was about 8 fucking stops away from skool.
and he stared at me in such a fucking weird way.
he sat at the fucking seat opposite mine.
so it's lyk we're side by side each other,
separated by the "alley" in the middle.

u noe when u look straight ahead,
but u can still notice things happening at ur side?
well, i was doing juz dat when i noticed he looking at me.
so i faced and turned to look at him.
and he looked away at the window.
dat's y i was so freaking shocked~!!
he was rubbing his fucking dick wif a stupid smile on his face~!!
sure, he was looking away from me,
but dat smirk on ur face i will never forget.

i was so disgusted and stump
dat i looked away and straight ahead.
dat's y from my side view,
i noticed him unzipping his fucking pants
and wanking his fucking dick.
he even had the fucking audacity to ejaculate all over the seat.
all dis while, he was looking at me~!!
hello, i was juz wearing my fucking skool uniform~!!
not some sexy outfit~!! argh~!!

after all dat shit, he changed seats.
i swear, if i wasn't dat stumped or shocked,
i would haf kicked his balls.
but unfortunately, i was too traumatized to do anything.
and i let him get away dat easily.
i was so angry wif myself.
and i cried n cried in cls.

now dat's wat i call a trendy WANKER!!
not sum kids enjoying themselves in the culture/local music scene thingy.

damnit.
how i wished my baby was here to comfort me.
*sob*

btw, it's not funny.
u may tink it's funny.
but it's not.
i was traumatised.
ya lah, i am timid.
but dat doesn't gif u the fucking rite to laff at me.
u said when i tink about it i'll laff?
i dun tink dat tym will cum.
u never bother to tink about others' feelings huh?
ok nvm. wateva. u r strong. i'm not. case closed.

and after skool, dis bus driver wanted to look at my bus pass
coz i paid 55 cents.
i was lyk, hello? i'm wearing my uniform?
and when he held my pass,
he said, "take off the sticker."
wat sticker?? it turned out dat he tot my pic was pasted on.
when he rubbed against the pic, finally he admitted defeat
and gave me my ticket. BLARDY ASSHOLE~!!
MY DAY JUZ NOW JUZ SUX BIG TYM~!!!

and oh yeah, FUCK THE SYSTEM~!!

gd nitez. angst out.
n i'm outz.

dad's fine and i'm still bored.

skooling at 1 later.
but i was awaken at 8 by mum
coz dad was having his sudden bouts of asthmatic attacks.
it always scares me so much when dat happens.
ever since i was young, he always gets breathless easily.
and he's still so stubborn, smoking away ciggies after ciggies..

maybe dat's how i get my stubbornness from.
sorie baby, u always had to endure my kepale batuness.
and i miss u...

k, i nid to "deposit some money to the toilet bowl."
outz.

p.s: as for the last 2 hours, i've been putting
Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved on repeat mode.
so i tink i had heard the song ard 30++ tyms. :D

and dis is so cool. check out my fren's site. ----->.

taken off from my friendster bulletin board:

[01] wad's ur mood now?
bored. restless. definitely fidgetting in my seat rite now.

[02] wad are u thinking about?
when's dad n mum will be back from the hospital & if my bf r bookin out dis sat.

[03] wad do u think ur character is?
paranoid, weird & fun

[04] how many ex bf/gf do u have?
3

[05] are they all serious relationships?
the 1st 2 were all puppy love, as in it was cool to haf a bf n the 3rd, i THOUGHT it was serious. too serious.

[06] are u always the one crying for the relationship?
i cried everytym for the 3rd r'ship. n currently, the bf rarely made me cry. n oh yeah *psst* he cried for me b4 coz i was too stubborn. hehehe.. shhh..

[07] any guy/ger cried for u b4?
yeap...

[08] wish to have a long term relationship or just wanna enjoy urself now?
i would be lying if i said i dowan 2 enjoy myself. but den again, u could haf a long term r'ship & enjoy urself at the same tym. i tink i am in one. :)

[09] do u have a crush now?
Yeah, elijah wood. a 6 yrs crush. it was never reciprocated. :(

[10] IF one day ur best fren and and ur beloved boyfriend/girlfriend fall into the sea and both can't swim.. who would u save first?
my best fren is my boyfriend.. :)

[11] do u think now is the age for u to start a relationship?
as long as a person is ready. it's up to the individual.

[12] wad will u usually do when ur boyfriend/girfriend broke up with u?
look at the window n juz scream. n i'll be ok. but if i were to break up wif my bf now, i doubt it would be dat easy. i prob go on a hunger-strike. but den, the tot of not having food scares me. ok, i'll juz bawl my eyes out. forget dat i said anything about the hunger strike thingy. :D

[13] can u tolerate guys/gers who always stick with u?
if 24/7, of coz i would get pissed.


[14] are u willing to give in everything to ur partner?
if it sounds rite..

[15] does looks matter?
dun lie if u say no~!!!!! as for me, he must haf the thing call a pair of eyes juz below his eyebrows.

[16] lastly, if u have a relationship now.. will u treasure it?
without a doubt.

to zur~!!!!!

yeap, zur, it's my blog.
but still, it doesn't gif me the rights to hurt ppl's feelings.
u r not intruding my privacy coz i'm for one,
never once tink dat a blog is personal n private.
if i want sumthing private/personal,
mite as well i write manually in a diary.
or an LJ. :) hehehhee.. [i noe i'm irritating. keep promoting LJ]

i apologised becoz
1)i will feel crappy if i dun,
2)i'll feel guilty if i dun,
3)i noe i'm in the wrong.
4)and duncha tink it'll be awkward for my own self if i see u ard skool?

so yeah, i dowan any enemies.
never haf and hopefully never will. :D

and you know Aminah budak Bukit Panjang izzit?
she got a small sister and 2 older brothers?
coz i saw u adding her at Friendster.
i'm kepo rite?hehehe.. jgn marah..
........................

i miss my boyfren so much.
i miss him sleeping over my place.
i miss him eating my mum's food.
i miss him fetching me from skool.
i miss hugging him on the bike.
i miss the vibration of the bike when i sit on it.
ok, the last one sounds so sick.
overall, i juz miss the man in the army uniform whom i call my boyfren.
I MISS YOU MUHAMMAD HANIS BIN YUSOFF!!!

and it doesn't help dat today i'll be home alone.
makes me feel so lonely and so pathetic.
3 more weeks to go before you P.O.P.

oklah, enuff of anguishing.
outz.

ROOOOOOOO---NEY~!!!!!

and so, the above-named person is now officially..... *drum rolls*
A RED DEVIL!!!!!

let's kick sum asses Man U~!!!!!

oh yeah, pics will be uploaded soon.
how soon? heh. can't answer dat.
JUZ WAIT!!!!!