Motion City Soundtrack.

dat's the name of the band currently playing in the background. [well, unless u stop it lah.]
i juz lyk the name so much.
thanx to my >()< <3's youngest bro, haziq for asking me to dl their songs.
rawk on!!!

told my >()< <3 about the taggings.
he kinda laffed at dat no1 guy.
coz my >()< <3 was flattered dat dat no1 was lyk managing his money thru my tagboard.
he told me to juz ignore no1 coz my >()< <3 was sincere in treating me every mth.
boo ya no1!

he noes i'm not materialistic.
our past experiences together proved to him dat i'm not.
in fact, i'm too generous wif my money, he said.
but i told my >()< <3, no1 is juz jealous coz, in the end, after all dat blabberings from no1, i'll be the one enjoying his money and my >()< <3 will be the one happy to see me happy.

we love each other.
so, dere's no nid for no1 to bring me down lyk dat.
he doesn't noe us. he doesn't noe how we spend my >()< <3's money.
coz no matter how much i blogged about spending his money and he's treating me and all dat,
in the end, i will be the one who can't bear to take a single cent from him.

ok, y am i explainin? nvm, i dono y.
it juz irked me dat no1 has the audacity to actually diss me when he doesn't even noe us.

last nite, my >()< <3 and me spent a good 2 hours yakking away on the fone,
reminiscing the past, from the 1st tym we met right up to the current day.
it was helluva good thing to juz blab and blab.
sure, 2 hours may seem short, but when he's in camp, it seem long.

aniwae, my sec skool frenz told me they will be breaking fast tmr instead of today.
damn it. juz when i was happily waiting for today.
nvm, next yr lah eh..

will be going to geylang tonite wif my >()< <3.
juz looking ard for his baju kurong.
we both are gonna don metallic pink dis yr.
but too bad, he won't be following me on my mmt toads raya outing.
uwekk!!!
i hate ns..

klah, gtg and help my dad paint a portion of the living room.
till den, haf a great fast.
outZ.

2 more weeks.

it's 2 more weeks till raya?
wow..dat's fast..

and i can't wait for the boy's pay and ERS.
i nid to shop!!!!!
but of coz i can't spend it all away.
he nids the smackeroos to buy another bike.
wasted rite?
nvmlah, it's his money; i can't say anything, reli.

and everyone is signing up frenster.
sooo cute..

haiz..i can't slp..

on second tot, i tink i can.
better go now.

i'm updating for the sake of it.
niteZ.
outZ.

to the mmt toads:i'll pay u all ur 55 cents back lah!!

my sister received an sms from singtel which said dat Nokia 6600 are going for 38 bux WITHOUT any plans or anything.
juz the phone cost 38 bux.
heard dat fir wanted to buy the fone so i told him about the promo.
so juz now, we [fir, faliq, tweet, aisya, alif, khus, hanif, MONirah, me] went to Bugis Hello Singtel shop to take a look.
well, nuthing stated dat a promotion was going on about the fone.
so they started to bombard me lah...
dowan to belif me anymore lah...
i wasted their 55 cents lah...
i can pay u all back lahhhhhh!!!

i swear i really read dat sms from Singtel.
my sister read it too.
oh well, they dun belif me, den wat can i say rite?
hahahha.. no harm done.

aniwae, came to skool for only a 1 and a half hour lesson.
waste tym rite?

i luv u, i luv u, i luv u, i luv u...

and i luv the father from "Who Wants To Marry My Dad?"
he's soo charmingly goodlooking for an old fogey.

enuf aredi!
we've won.
3 points in the bag.
wat more u want ARSES?
sore losers.

photos are up.
FINALLY!
sorie lahhh..

gd niteZ.
outZ.

and kin goes, "kasi 1KG dengdeng?"

after skool, alif, tweet, kin, aisya, hanif, mon, fir and me went to geylang to buy some food for breaking fast.
read my title aredi? yeap, kin asked for 1 KILOGRAM of dengdeng.
we juz had to burst into laffter when dat gerl said dat.

i accidentally exclaimed aloud, in malay dat fir was one of the few who fast but he didn't buy any food.
the ones who didn't fast, bought alot of food.
*silence* my toads turned ard and looked at me.
and hanif "reprimanded" me.
hanif: kau ingat ini englishville??
*laughter*
heheheh..sorie lerrr...

prolly gonna do it again today.
if they all are not going to SW of coz.

my MCC attendance is 70%.
woohoo.
debarment, here i cum.

uploading pics is a very tedious task.
and i won't be paid for it.
so to the mmt toads, dun bug me for photos!
hrmp!
my com is slowing down, i.e, lagging
and the website dat i used to upload my pics, i.e, www.photos.yahoo.com
is killing me softly.
so be patient!

projects aren't done yet and my teacher is following the footsteps of my mmt toads,
i.e, bugging me for them!
still, i love u all.
wat to do. i'm a sucker for companions.

klah, i'm blabbering.
my >()< <3 is taking his gpmg course.
good luck dear.
muacks.
outZ.

my weekend update. and the day arsenal went down.

//Edited
2-0! 2-0! 2-0! Arsenal fans, eat ur hearts out! ur 50-games-unbeaten dream was destroyed in Old Trafford! i luv u RRRUUDDD and ROONNNEEYY.. controversial or not, i dun a fuck. we got the 3 points. finally, it takes man u to bring the ARSES down!
Glory Glory Man United. damn, soccer is the best sports ever.

rite now, the adrenaline rush has died down. i am so gonna smile while sleeping.
and i'm gonna dream of man u thrashing chelsea/pool. muacks.
//


yesterday:

broke fast wif my >()< <3, 2 of his pals [nas/faizah] and my mmt toads.
it was as though hell juz broke loose when my mmt toads met tweet's pals who are also some of my mmt toads' frenz. oh well. hope u understand.
slacked at the merlion and pics galore.
they will be up soon, after i upload. :D
it was drizzling but dat didn't stop everyone from making everyone laff.
and oh! ATTENTION: faliq caught dis cockroach and put it in hanif tshirt.
squirming here, squirming dere, rolling on the floor, screaming, taking off the tshirt and finally, the 6 legged fren fall out.
and my 2 legged fren was traumatized. heh.

before dat, my >()< <3 and me met up wif khus and his switheart at bugis.
bought for alif his belated bdae pressie.
a t-shirt wif a colourful monkey wif closed eyes caught our eyes. the irony.
aniwae, it juz so reminded us of alif so ta-da. we bought it lor.

my saturday? FUN FUN FUN FUN FUNcore!!!!!

juz now:

broke fast wif my >()< <3 at his place.
food galore. but i couldn't reli gorge myself rite?
haf to put my best self coz his parents and siblings were ard.
aniwae, the food was good. and so do the companies, especially from my >()< <3.
and we managed to talk our differences. so we are ok now. hopefully always. ;)

Man United VS Arsenal
Old Trafford
ESPN, Channel 23
11 PM

oritez, the match is cuming up.
can't wait.
till den, haf a great 10th fasting day.
outZ.

smile. and be happy.

yeap. no matter wat obstacles God has given me or how hard the life journey i may face,
i'm still gonna smile and be happy.
if somebody is gonna misunderstood my good intention and make a big hoo-haa out of it,
so be it.
i'm not gonna cry and ponder over wat reli has happened.
coz i noe, i meant well.
and if somebody is gonna make me the bad person,
i let dat person be.
coz i noe, i meant well.
y shd i try to destroy sumthing so beautiful rite?
yeap, i am stil gonna smile and be happy.

UWEEEEKKKK!!!!! :~~~~(
on second tot, no i can't.
damn.

see u all later mmt toads.
muacks.
outZ.

1st day and i feel lyk i am on a hunger strike.

the wonders of praying.
i felt so rejuvenated after doing my subuh.
alhamdullilah was the word dat the >()< <3 said when he asked me wat was i doing
and i told him i juz finished praying.
aye..dat was so paiseh-ing.
he's bin trying to make me sembahyang on a regular basis
and not juz during ramadhan.
insya allah ye.. :D

aniwae, dis is my first day of fasting for dis yr's ramadhan.
the stomach started growling the moment i woke up at 11am juz now.
i gotta endure man. been gorging myself of food when i shd be preparing myself to fast.
padan muka kau ayu!

my weekend starts today thanx to alif!

will be breaking fast wif the >()< <3 as well as the mmt toads.
can u guys tink of ware to break fast?

aww shuck.. dun keep saying me cute..
i'll feel so.. erm.. paiseh..
but! thank u for the compliments!

oklah, i wanna go back to slp.
the sister woke me up early in the morning.
selamat berbuka everyone!
outZ.

i tink worms are growing in my anus.

coz i can't seem to sit still.
been transferring seats in bus number 82 juz now.
i tink the auntie behind me was pissed.
well, hello! u could do it, so y couldn't i?
i did it juz to piss u off. i've succeeded didn't i?
see dis smile on my face? u couldn't slap me, so u could only resort to tsk tsk-ing me. too bad. :D

but i tink literally, worms are growing in me.
i can't seem to get any fatter or taller.
i tink wateva food dat i've eaten, the worms ate half of the intake.
damn it lah. kepo peh worms.

found a 5 cent coin in the toilet.
yipppee!
i can use it for my bus fare!

speaking of which, i tink i've used more than a hundred bux worth of coins for my bs fare.
mum's coin pouch is getting dry.
poor her.
blardy hell ah the EZ Link ppl.
been applying to renew my EZ Link since July dis yr.
but it hasn't been approved.

and i can fast tmr!
so scared dat i wouldn't be able to take it.
Endure! Endure! Endure!

why are humans such busybodies?
why am i a busybody?
coz.....i juz love gossips!!!!!
but hey! i can keep secrets too ok!

i like watching the young singer, Jojo.
she's so pretty and cute.
and she looked so different in the "Get Out (Leave)" vid and her new single, "Baby It's You" vid. gorgeous on the latter.

i juz realised dat i've eaten too much milk biscuits.
i tink my calcium intake is on overdrive.

oklah, my >()< <3 scolded me for not sleeping.
i better go now.
buhbai ppl.
outZ.

minah? who? me? hhahahahahaa.. u're joking rite? READ ON.

the >()< <3 sent me to skool juz now since he could book out for awhile.
he had the doctor appointment today to remove the allergy patches.
i didn't go to my morning cls so luckily he was ard or else, i wd haf not gone to skool at all. haha.
sat quite far from him on the bike. he was fasting mah.
haha.

i tink i no longer love my levi's type 1.
the jeans juz plain sux.
whenever i sit down, i feel lyk i haf a cock coz the crotch part will bulge.
eww.. rite khai?
can i haf the new Divas jeans?
i want ppl to haf the illusion dat my legs are neverending.
it only cost 190 bux.
plz?
hehehehe..
i'm sure the >()< <3 will tear me to bits if i ask him to buy for me. hahahhaa


told mum dat i can fast tmr, on the 21st.
she asked me how long was my period.
i told her 7 days aredi.
she, being the pious type, told me to let 8 days pass so as
to be sure dat dere's not "leftover" blood.
oh well mama, i won't argue wif u on how many days NOT to fast. ;)
but of coz, when it's tym to kadak, i'll be dead.
so if u see me eating tmr, dun wag ur finger at me. :D

skool was fun. was videotaping ourselves during MMI lesson.
dere will be alot more to come since we all are in the video making lessons.
steven spielberg, eat ur hearts out!

read my frenster's testimonials juz now.
ppl haf dis perception of me being fierce.
my clsmates, they all said i looked fierce when they 1st saw me.
i got dis smug look.
and the most insulting thing was, they said i looked lyk a minah.
but when they reli noe me, they realised how crazy i am. and a minah, i am so not.
i'm sporty. a little on the punkish side. but i'm not a rockchick. wateva ayu.
well, darlings, dun judge a book by its cover.

i'm having a blocked nostril. juz one nostril is blocked.
so irritating. i feel so cacat.

and the mmt toads are probably breaking fast together tmr.
maybe or maybe not i'll follow. see lah how.
budget seh..

oklah, enuf ramblings.
promised my >()< <3 dat i would slp by 10.30pm.
it's 12 now, and i'm still wide awake.
OKOK, i'm gonna slp now dear.

everyone else, the 6th day is over.
endure!
outZ.

p.s: oh >()< <3, can gif me a hundred bux when u get ur ERS $$? hahahah.. kidding la..

Makcik/Kakak2 tudong shaking her head...

yeap, dat was wat happened when aisya, a few of my frenz who didn't fast *ahem* and me went to Singapore Post's KFC.
well, at least aisya and me haf excuses.
but shame to the 3 of u! hahahahaha..
we were hungry ok! i was! i didn't eat anything at all from morning.

i can truly start fasting on thursday.
and by den, i hope i haf the strength and endurance not to succumb to temptations.
applause to hanif n nur plz ppl. *applause*

i slept from 3pm to 6.30pm juz now.
when khai msged me, i tot it was only 5pm.
paiseh eh khai.
:D :D

Happy 18th Birthday to one of my dearest gay partner,
Tengku Muhammad Alif Bin Tengku Azmi.
You have been a great pal.
seriously, if i haf 2 more frenz lyk u, i'll be so damn happy. haf fun on ur bdae. may all ur wishes come true [cliched, i noe]. and may she be ur real fren one dat. hehehehe.. we all love u ulat.

yeap, he's one of my gay partners, so i haf to make it extra special lah the post.

so ppl, pls wish him. or else...

watching Who Want To Marry My Dad.
i tink it's sick to watch ur dad dating via the spy cam.
i min, it's aredi so sick to watch ur dad dating in front of u, much less secretly.
all these women behaving lyk they are in their 20s and 30s. aiyoh.
but of coz, it's all pure entertainment.
if i were to watch my dad kiss another woman, i'll puke i tell u.

man u vs sparta prague and pool vs deportivo.
can someone pls ring me and wake me up for the matches?
thanx, although i noe no one will do dat. heh.

haf a gd nite.
outZ.

Win Lose or Draw wif Bob Saget???

we played dat game in the lab juz now.
and the host was Hanif aka as Bob Saget.
dat was weird and so funny coz bob saget didn't host WLOD.
he hosted American Funniest Home Video.
we had alot of fun. the whole class was laughing along wif us
when in fact it was supposed to be my group's crazyness moments.

aniwae, everyone was fasting juz now except for dat someone.
he shd noe. hahaha.. i was amazed dat everyone managed to hold on till 7pm.
alhamdullilah.
even my fren who said dat he sees no point in fasting, did fast.

i can't wait to get my fasting gear in running.
kinda miss out on having dried lips, growling stomachs and bad breaths!!
hahahhahaha..

and fir! i managed to put the music player!
thank u darling!!

and i won't be SW-ing tmr.
lazy!

my 2nd warning letter had arrived.
and it was paiseh moment juz now when i went into the lift wif 2 ite amk kids.
i was reading my warning letter and i didn't press my 4th floor button.
suddenly, i realised dat the lift didn't stop at my level.
i looked up at the screen above and realised dat the lift was aredi on the 8th floor.
the 2 kids were looking at each other and den to me.
calmly, i pressed the 14th floor. after the 2 of them walked out to the 10th floor,
i went up to the 14th floor and den i pressed my 4th floor.
so it was a long way down back again to my place.
how stupid rite?

and i noe who won America's Next Top Model.
surf the net lah if u wanna noe.

my >()< <3 loves me very much.
i noe darling, i noe.
and i <3 u too! muaX!

klah, gd nite everyone.
outZ.

Finally...

The >()< <3 footie website is almost done.
lyk finally...
been busy to update it, so now, i'll sacrifice my slp a little and touch it up abit.
please gif them ur support.
any comment and criticism are welcome.
feel free to tag ok? and dun forget to leave ur name and url behind.
thank u so much.

i'm doing it partly becoz i love my >()< <3 so much.
he's been a good bacin.
juz now, he almost came by here to gif me burger from the bazaar
but i guess time wasn't on our side.
thank u!!!

and i finally found a way to put songs on my blog.
indirectly, i shd thank shazila coz she told jenn about it.
and of coz, jenn has to tell me.
thank u both!!!

ok, see the pattern here?
i'm thanking someone after every paragraph.
not done purposely, reli.
but since u're reading my crap, i juz wana wanna thank u all.
thank u!!!
hahahahahha...

skool's starting at 1 today and ending at 6.
i've to go home straight coz mum's going for terawih.
dere's a possibility the MMT Toads r breaking fast outside.
nah.. it's ok, i reli dun mind. next tym.
byk pahala tolong mak tau..

so how's everyone's 3rd day been?
i hope u guys will juz hang in dere.
ard 27 +/- days left. and it's RAYA!

ok, it's late and i'm blabbering once again.
wat's new.
oklah, morning.
outZ.

p.s: dear, u must gif me hari raya money k. i'm younger than u. :D

ya ya ya.....

i juz hate it when ppl tink they r right
and i'm always in the wrong.
fortunately, i've forgotten how to fight or argue back,
or else, i would have no frenz.
damn it. mellowed at the wrong time.

aniwae, although i'm having my period and can't fast,
i feel as though i am coz mum usually starts to cook ard 5+ in the evening.
morning tym when i wake up, i would be wasting my tym looking for food.
oh nvm, can lose weight at the same tym.
been gorging myself of food lately.

tym flies by so fast.
today, the >()< <3 is booking in.
and it seems juz lyk yesterday dat he booked out
when in actually fact, it was on thursday.

and man u drew 0-0 wif birmingham,
pool shortlived my happiness by winning 4-2 against fulham [damn it],
arsenal still is unbeaten by winning 3-1 against villa,
and chelsea made my day by losing 1-0 against man city.
man u is beginning to piss me off man.

oklah, it's 3am soon and i'm the only one who's not aslp.
and i'm reli sleepy.
alif, sorie i had to accompany u thru msn only for awhile.
gd morning.

outZ.

look ma, i'm shagged!

dah sakit tu g balik. takmo merayap2.
org dah ckp takmo merayap, degil jugak.
dah sakit and penat, complain.
abih sakit2 bawak motor. yg rase susah dgn sakit ati sape?
ur family, my family and especially me.

degil betol ah matair aku nie.
degil2 pon aku sayang jugak.
mcm aku, aku degil2 pon, dier sayang aku jugak.
haiz.. manusia, manusia.

u can go and watch ur white chicks for all i care.
i can watch it on my own or on dvd. hrmp.

outZ.

Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa!

To all the muslims ppl in the whole wide world,
Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa!
Happy Fasting!

i can only fast till next thursday.
hope by den, i won't be too lazy to do so.
hahahha..

i didn't go to skool today.
lazy is one factor.
something happened at home is another factor.
i tink i am so repeating my module for dis semester.

my bro's and dad's big ashtray has broken, courtesy of Lil Butterfly.
she was in total shock when the thing go, "piang!"
so adorable. if only she's lyk dat everyday and not be too hyperactive.
hehehe..

pls download simple plan's Welcome to My Life and pass it to me thru MSN.
iMesh can suck my ****** ah.

ok lah. i dono wat else to blog.
muacks.
outZ.

oh! p.s: my boyf.. he.. ah.. nvm.. he's cute lah. dat's all.

I-DIDN'T-GO-TO-SCH.

woke up at 6.30am to find dat i was having my period.
how irritating rite? so early in the morning.
but i guess i was lucky dat it came earlier coz if it were to come
when i was about to go to skool, i tink i would haf gone straight home when i reach skool.
the menstrual cramps dat came wif it was so freaking unbearable.
i practically was kow-towing wif my head on the mattress and my hands on my stomach,
squeezing the life out of myself.
i was perspiring and my knees juz buckled by themselves.
popped 2 panadols for mense and about 30 mins later, the pain subsided.
those 30 mins has gotta be the longest 30 mins i haf to endure every mth.
slpt the pain away and i was good to go when i woke up.

the >()< <3 could be booking out at 7pm tonite.
i so badly want dat Nasi Pattaya from his place.
hope he remembers it.

and i'm so addicted to Alicia Keys & Usher "My Boo" and Good Charlotte "Predictable".
iMesh sux. the songs are being cut halfway or dere's static.
oh well. songs dat r free, wat do u expect rite?

oh oh! i forgot to tell u dat on 05-10-04, i cut my hair reli short.
hehhee.. the hairdresser dere couldn't speak a word of english
and all the way she conversed in mandarin.
the more i replied to her in mandarin, the more she used cheem words.
luckily i still understood. the mmt toads were lyk, "klah,tempat ni untok org cine jer, jom jln." hehehhee..
but the >()< <3 was angry dat i cut my hair. haha.. too bad!
cut liao!

klah, i wanna watch the 5.30 chinese serial.

outZ.

i am so lazy to go to school. so tell me, wat's new.

skool is from 3-6pm tmr.
so now u noe y i'm so lazy to go?

i didn't win any $$ from my virgin 4D experience.
BUT BUT BUT! hanif n aisya's numbers fell short by one number.
they bought the number 2158 but the 2nd prize was 2157.
aisya and me was lyk, "arghhhhhh!!!" all the way on the fone.
better luck next tym. after ramadhan. hehehehe..

i can juz feel my period is cuming.
i'm always thirsty and hungry, i'm bloated, my stomach is aching and i'm cranky nowadays.
so yeah, i'm anticipating it.
dono how many pads i've wasted. hehhehe..

more of my angst ramblings on my Live Journal.
sign up if u wanna read it. hehehehe..

klah, i gtg and call my >()< <3 <----- >()< = sweet [it looks lyk a sweet rite?] and <3 = heart. so yeah, it's sweet heart = >()< <3. :D

niteZ.
outZ.

p.s: i wonder y i am so naive and sensitive and lazy and cranky and weak-willed?

my first time..... hehehehhee..... psstt!

aisya and me had a talk juz now
and we cleared up the air about our misunderstandings.
all went well and we're good again.
so sowie babe for all the shits.
hit me in the head when i get all paranoid again ok?

who told u dat huh? who reli told u dat?
dun put words into my mouth ler.
and if i reli wanna gossip about u,
it will be among my frenz. and if it's so happened
dat one of my frenz is ur fren, den too bad.
coz wat usually were being gossipped in my group,
will always end up in my group. lyk we said, "talk here, end here."
jgn marah bobal kasar.
juz smile je k. i dun bear grudges.

the boyfren is having a long booking out session dis week.
tonite, he has the nite off which means dat he gets to book out in the evening,
and book in back ard 10pm.
it's very troublesome, i noe.
dis thursday, he get to book out at 9pm and book back in on friday ard morning.
den evening tym, he get to book out and book back in on sunday.
yiipppeee!!!!!

psst. juz now, during lunch break, it was my 1st tym.....
BUYING 4D! hahahahhaa.. i forked out a dollar and i shared a card wif hanif and aisya. the mastermind was *point to fir!*
hehehee.. it was so funny. they were lyk "ayu, rabak! terok seh!" but they were laughing n laughing.
and to tink dat fasting is only 3 days away.
kakak!jgn blg mak! hehehhee

speaking of which, i am so not ready to fast.
i bought 12 bux yesterday and i was left wif only $1.50.
the rest was spent on food.
isk isk isk~! no wonder the guys call me fat girl.
cb.

and oh, i didn't play soccer juz now. the guys lyk dowan us girls to be involved
so we [aisya and me] juz went up the hall and got a basketball.
it was fun standing under the hot sun and throw hoops.
yeap, i'm dark.

we watched the vcd of my bdae chalet during the skool hols.
it was hilarious. but 1 hour is kinda short ya?
i'm gonna wait for my turn for the vcd and watch it wif my boyf.

and hope he'll break fast at my place dis saturday.
can watch soccer too kan u?

OKLAH, ENUFF BLOGGING.
gd niteZ.
outZ.

what-have-yous.....

my CA (class advisor a.k.a form teacher) asked me why i kept skipping class
and she asked me if i had any problems at home
and if i haf enuff money to go skool or sumthing.

i so wanted to laff and scream at her dat i'm so freaking lazy to attend skool
but i couldn't so i had to keep a straight and serious face
and told her dat i'm having some personal problems at home
dat i dun intend to disclose. she shut right up.

sorie teacher, i like u. u're nice but i can't possibly tell u bout my laziness rite?
hahahahaa.....

but the touching part was when she asked me
why i looked tired nowadays and dat my eyebags are so obvious.
it looked so obvious, she said.
she said i looked more smaller and skinnier.

i swore i tear-ed a little when she said those things.
but i held back my tears and juz smiled and shook my head.
ah..bless u teacher.

if i were to collect every imitation von dutch bags i see in spore,
i will still not be able buy the real deal.
gosh, do u noe how expensive the real von dutch bags are??
aniwae, my point is, i so hate imitation von dutch bags
dat all dis minahs r carryin ard.aiyoh.

oklah, i tink i won't be ranting my angst out tonite.
tired lah. gtg and pack my bags for SW.
tink i'm gonna play soccer again. MAYBE.
see lah the girls, how lah eh.
niteZ.
outZ.

my gay partners rawk. and so does my boyf.

//edited

thank u god for letting me noe my gay partners.
thank u and u for always giving in to me and listening to my crap.
i'll destress wif u both 1st thing in the morning at pasir ris. OK?
BIG KISS AND HUG!!!

and my boyf rawks. honestly.

life has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride and it's not fun.

the sec skool pit was good.
meeting up wif them has always been a blast and yesterday was no different.
thanx for inviting me fadzloo!
and the sorriest thing was dat i forgot i bought my camera
and i didn't take it out.

too much shit has been going ard.
and so, we both are feeling the strain.
i am so sad.

tagboards are supposedly meant for u to say watcha wanna say
on ur or someone else's blog.
but when it becomes a media for an anonymous or a fake person
to diss u or someone u knew,
it certainly becomes frustrating for everyone.
i've been thru it, and so did my sister.
some of my frenz been thru it too
and the latest victim dat i know of has to be aisya.

she and hanif suspected someone but i dono who.
if their conjucture is true, may dat person rot in hell
for dissing her and posing to be someone else in skool when u're not.
but if they are wrong, the person they suspected may suffer the stigma
of "being the tagger who dissed aisya/my gf."
so to dat syukri, i hope u'll stop dissing anione i know or anione for dat matter
coz ur action will bring serious consequences among our group.
the 2 of them could suspect anyone in the group, in the cls or it could even be me.

i seriously haf no time to do dissing coz honestly, it's such a sucky feeling
to be dissed on ur own tagboard. i know it.
so syukri, pls, either u own up or u stop.
lyk i've said, misunderstandings sux.

so rite now, i'm trying my best to put on my happy face.
smile smile smile smile smile. dat 5 letter word looks so foreign to me.

i nid help in my flash project.
the previous 2 scenes were not saved when i tot it was.
so juz now, i did it again and i managed 3 scenes and guess wat?
my computer automatically shut down and i didn't save it... AGAIN!
urgh.

hope dat all dis misunderstandings and current bad run in my life
will pass soon.
maybe dere is still sunshine after rain.
i nid it. badly.

and boyfren, i honestly will stay wif u thru thick and thin.
no matter wat happens or wat u said to me or i said to u,
i hope we'll overcome each and every obstacles cuming our way.
will always love u, am loving u, still loving u.

argh. argh.
i juz wanna break down and cry.
and it shows on my face. it reli does.
my eyes are sunken now.
breakouts are sprouting everyware.
my rashes are getting worse and worse.
and my weight is yo-yoing.

always look on the bright side of life, they said.
well, fuck dat they.
they dono life.
outz.

i'm gonna get a sister-in-law.

my parents are getting ready to go to my bro's gf's house at jurong
to melamar her. is dat the correct way to say it?
oh well, nvm, u shd get wat i min.
i dono y, i'm so excited at the prospect of the bro getting married.
hahhaha..
it's lyk, we are all growing up. and the fact dat he's the 1st one getting married
gets me all hyped up.
the preparation and all.. weeeEEeEEeEE..

aniwae, happy 26th birthday to my bro, Mohd Hidayat Bin Atan.
the best bro a girl could ask for.
no matter wat, i noe he will always haf my back.
u bully me, u're going down. hehehhe..
i love u big bro..

haf a good saturday ppl.
haf fun.
outZ.

pics're up. blushing bdae galfren. curfew. it was a blast still.

i've been holding the urge to blog about wat we did on syikin's bdae
and wat we bought for her.
now dat she has received her present(s), i can finally blog about it.

spent the whole of thursday (yes,i didn't go skool again!)
searching high and low ard town for a bdae gift.
i myself was left scratching my head to find a bdae gift for a gal.

finally, we bought for her a Good Charlotte T-shirt dat cost ard a 2 digit figure.
maybe the rest tink it's not dat expensive but i tink it is, for a t-shirt.
khus, alif, tweet, faliq, fir, khai and myself divided the cost.
it's worth it though, when the bdae gal smiled when she received her present yesterday.
if it's not up to ur liking, juz hang it in ur wardrobe
and take it out every now and den and tink of us.

and yesterday (081004),
alif, khus, tweet, MONirah, aisya, faliq, fir, hanif and myself
spent the evening wif her.
it was lyk a belated bdae outing and it was a blast.
she got her present and of coz,
her second bdae present was when her crush took a pic wif her.
i told dat guy to put his arms ard her shoulders
and the gal looked lyk a young bride-to-be, smiling and blushing
as though it was her wedding day.

glad dat she's happy. glad dat my day yesterday went well.
although curfew set by my parents for me without the boyf sux.
i can go home late if i'm wif the boyf but wif frenz, i haf to be home by 1115pm.
oh well.

u're most welcome siti norasyikin.
it's our pleasure.
the pics r up.
u can steal them if u want to.

i'll be miting my sec skool mates for a bbq tmr.
yippeeeee..
gotta slp. morning.
outZ.

i nid my sleep.

hope syikin is ok.
hope she'll get better.
poor gal, spending her bdae in the hospital.
we are here for u babe.

aniwae, i seriously nid to find tym. to sleep.
honestly, i've been flitting to one place to another dat i've not enuff tym to slp.

*yawn* thx aishaa babe. u're a gem.
hmm...i'll text ya if i wanna scream.

and yana babe. i love u loads.
i luv u and man alot.
the 2 persons in my lives who r always dere for me.
rawk on best frenz.

5 ppl have commented i smelt lyk a baby.
wellll...i noe i always smell so good. :D

and tweet, u're the man.
u always got my back huh?
thx dude. but i'm not reli worthy of dat.

klah, weekend is nearing.
and i'll get to mit my boyfren.
yahoo...

bye peeps.
outZ.

hahahaha..

misunderstandings.
the previous entry isn't about my boyf, sec skool frenz or ite frenz.
it's about someone who doesn't read my blog.
hence, the angst were typed out here.

aiyoh.
misunderstandings suck.
but nvm. i wun be surprised if anybody misunderstood me and jump to conclusion.
wateva.

breaking apart.

the fellowship is breaking.
honestly, i dun gif a fuck.
the world doesn't revolve ard u.
u shd be glad i mince my words here, in my blog.
if i were not to, u'll be so ashamed of urself.
and if ur wish were to be granted,
dun cum running back, crying.
fuck u.

dinda..kanda..la la la la la la la. dah besar anak mak.

MAYBE i'm gonna get sumthing from the boyf.
MAYBE i wanna buy Converse High Cut sneakers.
MAYBE only ok. MAYBE.

skool
we spent out tym idling at the coffee shop dere.
ate till full den the nonsense flew high and wide.
the conversation was about the 70's and 80's songs.
dere were 4u2c, iklim, mega, xpdc, sudirman, nico.

"ello bleh ckp dgn fiona?"
"kejap eh. adeeekkkk!! joe nak bobal!"
"ah? dier tanak bobal? dier peh pasal ah!"
hehehhe.. we changed some of the lyrics.
it was fun. had so much laffter dat the auntie at the coffee shop shooed us away.
she even had the audacity to tell us to "help urself. clean the table." wif the dirty rag. nabuih.

den khai and i could not stop dueting.
khai: dinda...
me: kanda...
lalalalalalala..
very irritating.

hanif intends to audition for the next next next season of Krayon.
hanif: saye abg hanif! kak siti, music pls!

and alif, khus, tweet, faliq had been infected wif the T-Virus [Resident Evil lah..]
they bit everyone who stood in their way.
i was supposed to be Alice [milla jovovich] but alif "accidentally" bit me.
damn.

vinod[my clsmate] is the guys' big boss.
but vinod is under me.
hahahahhaa...dun believe me, ask him urself. HAH.

go and find them lah.
i dun reli care, u noe. pathetic. dun lose ur temper on us. nabuih

and she has juz turned 19 today!!! A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU GIRLFRIEND.
i noe we weren't dat close the last tym
and i admit dere's alot of gossiping about u on my part
but i can tell u dat, i truly realise dat u r a sincere fren.
a very cheerful n loud girl lyk me.
haf a great day on ur special day today.
dun tink much about dat hospital visit today. u'll be good once again.
i luv u babe. muackSSSSS!!!!!

u all better go to her blog and wish her happy bdae.
or else i'm gonna sacrifice u all.

i nid to slp.
outz.

and so. i had fun. yeah.

bro bought a pretty billabong bag for me to share wif sis.
thx bro..... it's pink and black. very nice combo.

so in SW [dat's PE for u ppl out dere], we played soccer on the court.
aisya, kin and me were the captains. we had 3 other boys under each of us.
it was great fun. but i conceded a goal playing the keeper.
it was the rotating system, dat is, if a team score a goal against a team,
the team dat conceded the goal had to go out and let another new team in.
the next round, i didn't play the keeper. i chased almost every guy dere.
but i got short legs, so the ball was always out of my grasp.
BUT IT WAS FUN!! it's bin a while since i play soccer.

the boyf most probably won't be able to book out dis weekend. how i hate it.
oh, btw, the boy stays put at Infantry at Bukit Panjang Camp.
he wasn't posted to anyware.
poor switheart,he badly wanna get the driver post.
blom rezki bacin..takpe k?

i've run out of ideas wat to blog aredi. for today only lah.
coz i'm so fucking shagged. nid to slp now. waking up at 5.45am tmr.
haf to attend assembly or else the teacher gonna mark me absent.
kannasaigaywhale.
niteZ.
outZ.

wat's the fucking use??

i haf tonnes of projects to do. and i so intended to finish almost all by today.
but guess wat? none of the software downloaded on dis com at home can be used.
the Powerpoint, dun get me started. u can't even click on it. urgh!

skool was ok. fun but not quite a blast as usual. little ppl lah.
to kin, everything will be ok. ;) dun worie bout it.

last nite, i dreamt dat alif bought a big tin of Milo powder to skool.
faliq and i ended up at pasir ris mrt wif him eating the whole thing.
told mum about my dream and she laughed her heads off. hahhaa.. lame, i noe.

coz i'm so bored, here's a bulletin from my frenster.

1. Have you got a crush before ?
obviously. crushes make skool life so much
more happening. *hint to alif n kin*

2. Who make you heartbroken most ?
dis ex. enuf said.

3. Anyone in mind now ?
the boyf, who is back in camp today at
7.30am. gosh, juz when i was beginning to get
used to haf him ard for his 1 wk break. alah.

4. Who are you thinking of now ?
my sister coz she pissed me off
so much but too bad, if she wanna be rude,
i'm ruder. u want respect? earn it. i dun care
if u dun respect me. ya, ya, she's fuccen irritating
but i still love her. fuck.

5. Do you hate bf/gf with attitude ?
wat kinda attitude? if he's so cocky, egoistic and
much more vain than me, pls put on ur shoes n
walk away from me.

6. Ever being scolded by bf/gf ?
DUH! i always ended up getting reprimanded for
my selfishness and paranoia [not jealousy].
sumtyms. not always. i'll rephrase dat. heh.

7. Ever being in triangle love ?
nope and hope will never ever.

8. Feeling sad now ?
nolah. more lyk slpy but lazy to slp.

9. Are you emotional ?
do u haf to cry often to be emotional? or be sad
often? define emotional. dat being said, i'm abit
emo. :D

10. Are you suffering from depression ?
used to. a mild one.

11. Do you hint to ppl ?
to the boyf.. hehhee.. and he will always gif me dis
cute smile which means he noes dat i'm hinting.
muacksss.

12. Fall in love easily ?
not fall in love lah. i tend to get infactuated wif a
person easily and it's not dat easy to get out of it.
but it takes alot more to make me fall in love.

13.Are you a failure in relationship ?
failure? no, i dun tink so. i've always gif my 100%
in every of my r'ship/frenship. ups n downs are
part n parcel.

14. How long is your longest relationship ?
15 mths n counting. ;)

15. Who is your 1st love ?
i tot he was my 1st love. apparently, wat i felt for
him was juz utter hatred n being afraid. so rite
now, i'm so in love.

16. Do you still loves him/her ?
i dun love him animore. but i appreciate it if we
were to be amicable about all the stuffs dat are
waiting to be discussed when the time comes.
especially on his part.

17. Ever been cheated ?
i tink so. once. and i found out after i left him. HAH.

18. Ever feel neglected by bf/gf ?
when he's away in camp!!! boo!!! ok, it's not his
fault.

19. Ever felt in real love before ?
u min, lyk rite now???

20. Who you really love now ?
MOHAMMAD HANIS BIN YUSOFF!!!

....................................

nitez.
outz.

i'm addicted to frenster's bulletins. help. pls? and oh! read the last paragraph

how did i spend my weekends?
well, let's start wif friday nite.

friday nite
i didn't get to watch my white chicks.
damn it.
and the toadies went ahead and watch it wifout me.
damn it double shot.
and to make matter worse, i noe it's not their fault coz i told them i wd be watching it.
damn it triple shot.
the boyf, his pal [nas], his 2 bros n i juz sat at yassin till midnite.
recommendation: the nasi pattaya dere is to die for. juz dun ask for chilli.
u'll die from the hotness.

saturday
my saturday was spent going to his place
and den we proceed to mit alif n khus in town for Resident Evil 2.
those who haf weak hearts, pls dun watch it.
i'm wondering y critics r giving it only 2 ticks. it's awesome i tell u.
and i want milla jovovich to be my sister.
make it my eldest sister coz the middle position has been taken up.

den we 4 walked to Orange Julius Liat Towers to disturb faliq.
but who did we see? hanif n nur.
yeap, weird combination rite? nur was hanif's date for dat nite.
ok. as u wished. heh.
aniwae, nice meeting u aishaa. sorie kalau tak layan!
the boyf was busy talking to farid, wani n haris. the 3 of them came down too!

sunday
went to bukit timah field to watch him play his soccer.
it was the quarters and my boyf scored one!
but the lead was given away when the opponents pulled 2 back.
finally, the match ended 2-2 but my boyf n his boys won 4-1 thru penalties shootout.
i was so hysterical dere, jumping up n down lyk a mad fan.

so chelsea 1-0 pool. i had no idea who i was rooting for.
but when joe cole scored dat goal, i actually shouted n pumped my fists into the air.
i dono y. hmm.. but it was a very good one touch goal.
and man u 1-1 boro. dat defence of boro's was so hard to break down.

and happy 15th mth of love, love..


the boy will be going back to camp today at 7.30am.
juz when i was getting used to having him ard me for dis 5 days. uweks.

and i seriously nid help.
u guys shd not make animore bulletins for me to do.
when i've settled down, den u may continue. ok?
isk..

skool's at 1pm tmr.
gd morning. outz.

p.s: did u noe dat bill gates earn 1 million pound for every 4 hours?
dat's lyk 6 millions pounds per day!!!!!
if i were to haf dat kinda money, hey, dat ferrari/porsche/lamborghini u're eyeing, is on me. i'll pay by cash. no wories.

bah.....

i juz wanna say dat Malaysian Idol is much more rocking
than our very own Singapore Idol.
Malaysians can truly sing. and their top 3 finalists shd be able
to gif the Singapore Idol top 3 a run for their money.

and dis cuming for a quite patroitic girl.

will be watching Resident Evil: The Apocalyse wif the mmt Toads.

klah, reli sleepy aredi.
niteZ.
outZ.

wasted breakfast.

slpt at 3am dis morning but i woke up at 10am coz
dere were thousands calls blaring on my celly.
the boyf was oso one of them. argh.
but nvm. aniwae, he told me to get ready to go breakfast wif him.
i did. so when he arrived, i bought lil butterfly along
for our breakfast at macdonalds.
mac's menu was aredi on the lunch but to the 3 of us,
it WAS our breakfast. wat's the diff.
it was his treat aniwae. HAH.

came back to my place n he went off to his friday prayers.
good for him. i nid to follow his examples man.
discipline myself to pray more.

aniwae, almost immediately after he went off, i poo-ed.
so wat's the use of eating all dis nice delicious burgers/nuggets/fries rite?

full one minute, hungry back on again.
and i still stay so short.

how was skool juz now toads?
good?any news/gossips/happenings?

dad asked me last nite y wasn't aslp yet as i had skool today.
i told him my teacher was on mc. and he believed me.
kuang kuang kuang~!!!!!

ok.i badly nid my slp.
so dat i'll be fresh for white chicks tonite.
mid nite show eh?
aiyah. make it a little earlier lah u all [the boyf n pals].
i always tag along. kepo rite? i noe.
he asked me to go along, i go lah. if he nv ask, i'll ask him if i could!
hahahahha..

happy children's day to me.
and to u all who are always young at heart.
outz.

once again..here i go..

i am so not going to skool today.
as in friday, 1 oct 2004.
lazy to the max lah sia.
alif won't be going too
but he's not the reason y i'm not going, ok?
lazy lah. u noe the meaning of lazy?
yeah..

aniwae, i decided to make MCC,
the subject which is filled wif flash,flash n more flash,
as my ungraded subject.
dat mins, wateva shit i do to my MCC projects or assignments,
they will not affect my final GPA score.
can i do the same for the whole course?
ungraded but i'll still get my cert?
i noe, i noe, i'll juz keep dreaming on rite?

accompanied syikin to tampines yesterday [thursday]
wif alif,tweet n khus.
5 ppl, but mad!
kin paid her bills lah.
finally, someone gonna get a hp line!
the boyf came down to accompany us eat.
and they all "accused" me of mistreating him coz he's so thin.
he was in the camp, u blardy assholes!! :D

i'm having a mild rashes break out.
my neck, my head, behing my ears,
all dis small spots are popping out
and they r kinda itchy.
luckily the boy is still being concerned,
or else i'm gonna shoot him.
and luckily, the spots aren't dat visible.

maybe, i'll be watching white chicks wif him today.
not reli sure. i hope we can make it.
heard it's hilarious.
and saturday, another maybe for resident evil.
movies galore!!

klah, i reli wanna slp.
morning ppl.
outZ.