WARNING: POST IN MALAY. [direct from LJ]

to my >()< <3: pape u bace, jgn marah eh. ini senda gurauan. takkan tak bleh angkat?

i'm stressed.
i reli am.
when i go skool, i haf to be a student n a fren.
when i get home, i haf to be a daughter, a son, a mother, a father, a sister all in one.
ppl expect me to do dis, to do dat.
i'm tired. so so so tired.
inadequate sleep, u say?
BUT I CAN'T SLP!
I'M TIRED BUT I JUZ CAN'T FUCKING SLEEP.
all i nid is a book, and slowly i get to slp.
but wat happens if i finish reading dat book?
i dun lyk reading the same book twice. or more for dat matter.

"kau buat ape kat skolah sampai penat?"
ellooooo.. everyday we go up n down the skool, walk out to the blocks of flat, sit down n go back up again.
study study. kalau salah, leader aku, i.e alif, buat muke boring.
aku tak suke dier muke boring. tak cute. k baik aku diam. nanti dier perasaan.
kalau tak blaja, aku tak buat pape dlm cls. mcm budak tongong.
surf surf pon, brape byk website aku tahu?
kalau tak surf, tgk porn. tak tgk porn, kene kacau dgn jantan2 caberet dalam cls aku.
tu aku tak kesah. kadang2 klakar. tapi kalau takde mood, terpakse kene senyom ketat jugak.
maintain gaya mah.
tu jer ah. mak aku nie mane paham. dier penat, aku pon penat tau. tapi aku tetap sayang dier.
haizz..

nie matair aku plak.
"call me."
dah call, letak. go back to my living room to watch tv.
*lagu linkin park* tu maknenye ade msg.
"call me."
aku kene g store balik [tepon rumah aku kat dlm store.style kan?]. call dier.
"sorie b, i haf to fall in. bye."
*kedebak* bunyi dier letak.
k, tak pasal. aku tgk tv. ingat aman.
tak sampai 10 min.
*lagu ryan cabrera* only when my boyf call, lagu nie kuar.
dier miss call. aku kene call balik. g store balik.
"k, i dah R.O. [routine order, itu maknenye diorg peh sir dtg bunk diorg check2 sumer in order]
u buat ape? tak ngantok?"
"ngantok.. mcm nak tido. penat ah."
"ah. gini ah, kalau i call mesti u penat. k g slp ah."
dah aku rase bersalah. try to sit up so i can focus on him.
tapi backbone buat hal. mcm nak tercabot. terpakse baring balik.
"okok, i'm awake." tapi mate tutop.
"blah blah blah blah.."
"eh.."
"blah blah blah blah.. u plak?"
"huh? ape i?"
"dah 2 kalik i repeat. kalau ngantok asal tak bilang. g tido lah."
*dlm hati* padahal aku dah bilang kau brape byk kalik.
"k bye."
"bye aje?" aku tanye.
"ak ah.." *kedebak* bunyi dier letak.
haizzz..

haf to call him back to apologise.
"i paham dear. takpe. u g tido."
"betol eh? sayang i tak?"
"ah.."
"abih kate tak marah?"
"u slalu gini pe. skit2 dgn i ngantok! i pon penat! u buat ape kat skolah? stakat blaja je."
terbisik hati aku. *aku kat skolah buat bende. blaja. bile kau call aku, aku tanye buat ape, ckp tgh break/tido. byk seh break kau. bleh tido lagik. abih ckp penat.*
k dowan to argue. apologise. salah aku pe. sumer salah aku. no hal. tetap sayang dier.
haizz..

tapi kadang2 salah aku jugak.
dah bleh balik dapade skolah, aku tanak balik straight.
nak lepak, nak merayap.
makin penat.
pastu sampai umah, complain ngantok2.
tak bleh tido, takot mlm jadi burong hantu.
tapi bile matair call, alih2 ngantok.
kenape eh kau ayu? terbiat eh?

ape ke tidak, kadang2 dier call aku, tapi dier tak bobal dgn aku.
dier dgr atau tgk kawan2 dier dlm the same bunk bobal. dier pon ikot ketawe.
"asal u ketawe? i tak cakap pape pon."
"takdelah, dgr budak2 nie peh mepek. klakar siak."
"u nak bobal dgn i or u wanna hear them talk? coz i rather watch the tv than hear nuthing except noises n laughter."
"k, k, i concentrate... hahahhaa.."
"dah abis dengar, MSG i ah."
"ok."
kalau korg, darah menyirap tak?
pastu, aku dah relek2, dah sedap2 kene tiop aircon, dier suroh call balik.
KENE PATAH BALIK STORE.

matair aku nie satu. sayang dier nak mampos. pape pon, tetap aku nak kawin dgn dier. cume dier kadang2 ngade2.
aku pon kadang2 gitu jugak. tak bleh salahkan.
muacks to u dear. u sayang i tak? sayang kan? muahhahaha

moral of the story?
belikkan i tepon cordless yg bleh bawak ke mane2.
as in, in the living room, toilet, kitchen, bilik,
masih clear. takde gangguan. not the current cordless ok?

tadik plak ade napfa.
kiwak. aku last siak bile 2.4km. 23 min.
record kan? kau pikir aku kuase nak lari?
relek suak. bukan pasal berat bontot, ke berat dosa.
aku tak kuase je. bukan dapat hadiah kalau 1st.
kalau lelaki, den i-ye lah.
tapi aku pompan. NS tgk aku pon diorg kecian.
pendek sgt. tapi aku cute ok. jgn mcm2.
nak tahu standing broadjump aku?
110cm. jaoh kan? kau pikir aku tak bleh lompat?
itu mmg betol ape yg kau pikir. aku mmg tak tahu lompat jaoh.
kaki pendek. nak bend pon tak cukop lower leg.
nampak cacat.
sit n reach, ok ok apple ah. 31cm. considered jaoh jugak.
satu kawan aku ni 53cm. dektu giler. sotong agaknye.
sit up, aku tak tahu aku brape. rase2 dlm 20 ade ah.
tapi peng dgn cikgu aku dpt 35.
world kan? alah, bukan teacher check. g mampos.
pull up, 12. kencet siak. arm muscle tak kuat.
tapi angkat guni beras, kuat plak. pelik tapi benar.

besok abg sedare aku tunang. siap ah kalau aku jumpe dier.
mak aku mesti membebel kalau aku tak tegor dier.
tapi kalau aku tegor, dier tak layan, nak aku buat ape kan?
biar lah. aku pon tak kuase nak kecoh2.
let go wif the flow.

kan aku dah bobal melayu. peace.

outZ.

swollen.

didn't go to skool today.
i woke up wif an inflamed left eye.
wah lau.. my left eye is aredi smaller than my rite one
and den, it had to inflamed, causing it to look much much more smaller.
dang! n my cuzzie is gonna get engaged dis saturday.
i won't look good on cameras!
oh well.. i'm so gonna pray hard dat it will go away.
if not, i'll resort to wearing my sunglasses.
heh.

man u lost to ac milan by 1-0.
damn! milan has an away goal.
dat goal is so gonna be crucial for the 2nd leg.
and chelsea lost to barcelona by 2-1.
but chelsea has an away goa.
advantage lor...
haizz..

gonna go to the doc later for my eye.
i'm bored to tears!
but luckily i'm reading dis Memoirs of a Geisha.
rawkin ah.

took me n her out of ur links.
dun reli care.
but dat is reli childish isn't it?
if i go to skool tmr, den i'll see u.
if not, i'll see u on saturday at my cuzzie's engagement,
ware by when i'll go over to the girl's side.
i may smile but i dun tink u wanna acknowledge dat smile.
i may talk to u but i dun tink u would answer me or talk to me back.
i dun mind. too bad we've come to dis.
if my mum was to ask, hmm.. help me out here.
wat shd i tell her eh? oh well, i dun tink she would notice.
would be too busy taking pictures.
makciks-makciks. so typical.

outZ.

almost doesn't count...

well, i almost wanted to change my mind
after alif told me sumthing.
but i decided to stick to my opinion.
eh, surprise! i do haf a mind of my own.
i dun follow my frenz blindly.

aniwae, i'm in the >()< <3's fren's shop once again.
the boy fetched me from skool juz now
and he sat under the void deck wif my homies n my boo for awhile.
heh. i sound lyk a minah hiphop.

i tink the longest tym i ever lepakked n sat down
has got to be yesterday.
from 12 noon after the excursion,
we went to tampines to eat n talk, talk, talk.
i reached home ard 7pm.
my butt was aching. and so was my body.
tot i could slp after washing up.
but shits happened in cyber world, so i was kinda awaken by den.

finally, slpt at 1am, after an eventful MSN chats wif my lovely frenz.
put the hp alarm to 5am coz i wanna watch abit of the soccer match.
but when it finally went off, i felt lyk i was aslp for only 5 mins.
soccer fanatic i am, but i juz couldn't open my eyes.
found out dat the ASSES [arsenal] lost.
and real won juz by a goal to nil.

now,i'm as slacked as can be.
too much shits make u slpy.
love u all my frenz.i reli do.
outZ.

i choose who i want to be with.don't question me WHY!

for ur info hanif, i talked bad about kin before.
hey, i'm sure she did the same thing to me too.
we're no angels so little things dat we do irk other ppl.

but wat pissed me off is, hey, dun tell me u nv talk bad about me?
dun sms me and said dat i shdn't defend ppl who talk bad about me.
dun gif me dat crap n hypocrasy.
suck up to ppl?
who are u talking about?
me? or kin?
or maybe, juz lyk u, we both terase.
no big deal.
THE SMS JUZ PISSED THE HELL OUT OF ME!!!

i've talked to kin before.
i admitted rite in front of her dat i gossiped about her before.
about wat?
many things dat u urself gossiped about too.
lyk her ever-changing boyfrenz,
lyk how close she is to boys.

but now, as i get to noe about her more n closer,
i realised, hey, she's not bad a girl.
sure, i'm not the one she goes to if she has problems.
it will be either faliq, fir or tweet.
as for me, it's the same thing too.
i dun go to her.
i go to khus or alif.
but as a group, i enjoy her company sooo much.
she rawks. reli she does.

we haf different tastes in some things.
but dat doesn't min i can't talk things to her.
sure, when i gossiped about her,
i didn't noe dat i would get to noe the real kin.
she wasn't the kind of girlfren dat i tot i could talk to.
but as they said, dun judge a book by its cover.
and i reli regretted not knowing the real her den.

hey, i'm not bodekking or sucking up to her.
i haf a choice to be her fren or not.
in dis case, i've decided a long tym ago dat she is worth to be a fren.

n stupid is not the word to describe alif for always giving in to me.
i min, he has a choice too!
but he decided to be a gentleman and gif in to me.
silly, yes but not stupid.
u gif in to ur gf too rite?
other tyms, he bullies me too wat...
so wat the difference?

i found out alot of stuffs.
y me? y kin?
y always the 2 of us?
coz we're 2 are very vocal?
dat's us.
we're loud.
we can't change ourselves if u hate our guts.
u hate us but other ppl adore us.

i seriously got no hal wif u.
but when something snaps, lyk when u sms me lyk dat,
i juz had to say sumthing.

all dis misunderstandings 1st occurred becoz of the chalet.
all about me not giving alif his money back.
i admit, dat was my fault.
but dat is over n dis is a new chapter.
and dis is not about the chalet thing animore.
this is personal.
i am trouble maker ey?
hah. i'm applauding.

so wat if all dis while i enjoyed their company,
but behind my back they gossiped about me?
I CHOOSE WHO I WANT TO BE WITH.
no questions asked.

i'm not trying to rake up the past.
but serious shits man, THE SMS JUZ PISSED ME OFF!!!

wanna talk to faliq izzit?
orite.
see ya tmr.

outZ.

p.s: the excursion was sucky. i shd haf stayed at home! and dis last sentence is not for u. it's for my readers.

hah.and tmr got excursion siak.ITE pon ade excursion eh?

got back home ard 10pm.
when teacher let us off at ard 5pm.
u noe y?
mum n my dearest auntie decided to eat at downtown east
and me, being so hungry, decided to join in.
can't tahan ah.

and sweet sweet alif accompanied me all the way.
no.. not till he followed us eat.
but he accompanied me from pasir ris interchange till the bus stop at downtown.
my god. and u said the bus stop is quite near ur place.
i saw the distance when i was in my uncle's car
and it is freaking far!

aniwae, mum asked alif if he wanna join us eat.

mum: alif wanna join?
alif: nvm, eat aredi. *smiled lyk kambing*
mum: come lah..
alif: it's ok.. nvm... *smiled lyk kambing again*

he walked away..
mum discussed wif me.
i called him back.

mum: jom lah makan.
alif: ahh.. da..
me: mak, dier mane bobal melayu. kan mcm kekok kan dier jawab balik.
auntie: dier bukan melayu??
me: melayu, tapi dier tak biase bobal melayu.
mum: mari lah, makan skali.
alif: ahh.. takpe.. dah makan. *smiled lyk kambing still*

wakkakaa.. all dis while, i cannot help laffing.
i juz love looking at alif's face if someone conversed wif him in malay.
so awkward but at the same tym trying to maintain his composure.
muahahhaha..
gua lup lu lah dude..
haizz.. my frenz are all cute lah. wat to do.
bless them.

oh ya. u noe wat?
i dun lyk it dat u say dat about my fren.
told me not to terase but den, u r the one contradicting urself.
haizz.. dun blame my frenz if they blow up.
they haf the rite to.
their fren's name has been marred.

my >()< <3 planned dat after NS,
after he get a good job,
and is stable enuf,
he wanna marry me.
my baby boy is finally growing up.
i luv u too.
too much.
but it's all worth it hunny.

aniwae, CHELSEA LOST!
STUPID MOURINHO!
STUPID TACTICS!
STUPID GAMBLE DAT DIDN'T PAY OFF!

tomorrow, the whole cls has an excursion to Seletar Engineer Combat Camp.
or something lyk dat.
we're gonna rawk the SAF.
and after dat, prolly gonna ask the teacher to let us off at Jalan Kayu.
Prata babe!
pastu, gua bleh balik.
muahahhahaha..

i owe alot of ppl testimonials.
sorie darlings! i'll do it A.S.A.P.
and tonite is not the nite.
muahahhahaha..

niteZ den.
outZ.

this is the song dat doesn't end.

my gut feeling is.....
chelsea will prevail once again.
but my heart tells me dat
newcastle will be able to beat those scumbags of millionaires.
rite now, newcastle 1-0 chelsea.
i'm on track rite now. pls let newcastle go all the way.
ya allah.

but knowing chelsea's form,
i juz KNOW dat they can come back.
wat's 1-0 down to them?
argh. suckers.

we see each other from friday till today.
but we nv reli talk to each other.
we both realised it juz now.
and when i sent him off to his bike,
i was rattling n rattling nonstop.
he didn't even say anything or stop me.
he juz smiled.
he knows i nid to TALK.
thank u darling.
u're so swit.

some ppl.. whom i tot isn't gonna rawk my world..
is now rawking my world big tym.
i didn't noe i could talk to some ppl as though they were old tym frenz.
but i could.
so, thx zur for the msn chat.
i reli can't belif i could talk so openly wif u about life and all.
wooooooahhh.. :D

for my weekends, i had been slacking ard.
on fri, he came over.
on sat, i went over to his soccer training n den he came back to my place.
on sun, we went over to farid's house n juz chilled.
if i were to live in a bungalow ALONE juz lyk farid,
i tink i would die.
dat dude.. my god.. 20 yrs of age n lives in a bungalow alone.
courtesy from his parents.
i would die.. from boredom!!!
oh aniwae, the reason we slacked ard was becoz..
WE GOT NO MORE MONEY TO SPEND!!!!!
except for the bike fuel.. :(

skool starts for a new week today.
basically, i haf a love-hate relationship wif skool.
haizz..

oh ya, some ppl [look at alif, khus n dzaf] go clubbing nv ajak!
gini ah members!
and dat some one is no longer a virgin clubber!
*winks at alif*

n i most probably gonna get an interview at Suntec Starbucks.
pls pray for me dat i get it!!!
i nid the money!!!

oklah, i better stop here before the com dies on me.
it has done so for 4 tyms in a row.
rawk on.
outZ.

i can smell cats' shit.

and it's very overpowering.
help me.. i nid something to block off dis smell.
i'm not home, u see.
in my >()< <3's fren's shop.
and they juz came by from playing soccer at the field.
so my guess is... it's either the smell comes from them..
or.. they step on sumthing..
muahhahaa...
shit lah..i shit smell nicer!

aniwae, sabo-ing faliq was great fun.
he was caught off guard to the max.
but poor khai darling was hit by the flying eggs..
poor dude.
but it's ok.
smelly or not, u still look good. so no worries dude..

oklah, the smell is getting to me..
i tink i nid to get out of dis place..
ware is my >()< <3 when i nid him..
my goodddddd...

outZ.

rawking good tyms.

thanx alot to my buddies, alif, khus, kin, fir, tweet.
i'm lyk the 3rd oldest in the group, besides faliq n tweet
but they still treat me lyk a small kid.
accompanyin me to the mrt when their buses were at the other sides.
how sweet.
frenz lyk these, i appreciate till death do us part.

on 2nd tot, we're gonna mit in hell,
wif khus n michelle right in front of the queue.
muahahhaa.. it's an inside joke.
and who the hell is michelle?
hahhaa.. i can't say, lest someone who read my blog, works dere.
muahhahahahaa...

shit lah. kin made me addicted to dis kind of laffter..
the muahhahaha kind..
now i sms or wateva, i use muahahaha..
it's soo irritating n addictive..

they made me so loved.
never judged me wif wat i wear, wat i say.
never tsk me when i cuss loudly
or when i made stupid comments.
i can be myself. i can act stupid.
i can even act cute withou being whiny and they still dun care!
i dun haf to feel so inferior wif wat i wear to wat they r wearing.
coz the group consisted of more boys than girls.
and the way kin wear, is rite up to my taste.
sure, she can wear sexy clothes but they are casual n not minah-ish.
THANK GOD!!!!!

dis guy kicked my little left toe as if it was a soccer ball.
i was queueing up to withdraw money
when suddenly the guy from the next atm machine walked back to the exit.
nabei, my toe nail is cut into half.
power rite?
thx dude.

reached home at 1053pm.
from tamp, took train to pasir ris
and transfer to bus 88 to sengkang.
fast rite?????

and den... dis woman had to scare the hell out of me.
from my bus stop, i walked to my lift.
well, of coz lah, couldn't be i crawl rite?
ok, den i looked left n right n behind n front before pressing the button.
after i pressed, i stepped back and read some articles on the bulletin board.
den from the reflection of the glass,
i saw dis woman walking her dog behind me
and den i jumped out of shock.
i turned n looked at her n den she smiled.
NABEI CHIBAI AH.

my >()< <3 juz passed his shooting.
poor baby. nvm, try harder next tym k?
but i should understand, he's potek wat.
:D

oklah.
outZ.

entry for today: ghosts encounters... skool... blah

oklah.
i should wish those ppl whose bdae are in February.. PROPERLY!

1st off.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 20th FALIQ!!!
May all ur wishes come true..
and we all love u!!!!!

next...
faliq's gf, farah a very belated 15th bdae!!

and of coz,
i was mistaken about dzafir bdae.
it was on the 14th.
I TINK????? coz alif can't be harap-ed.
happy belated 22nd bdae.
soooo old... :D

oritey. bdae wishes aside..
wat else shd i blog about?

hot topic huh?
those F-R-I-E-N-D-S are burning up.
i'll tink i won't venture into dangerous liasions.
it's not my territory.
last tym, maybe yes.
but now, no.
enuff is enuff.
i'm older n wiser now.
;)

it was my... erm... kena disturbed by frenz day juz now.
i was pissed a little but after awhile...
nah... not worth it coz i noe they were juz kidding.
khai was the master of it all.
sorie lah for sneezing at ya!
i didn't min it wat!!
i'm trying my best to take some things lightly
and not be so uptight anymore.
wat past is past.
no use holding on to dat nightmare.
i would only make myself sad.

so now, i would hold my head up high.
and i won't gif any fuck about wat ppl gonna say about me.

on 2nd tot, i'm so gonna kill alif.
he made me soooo damn embarrassed at Pasir Ris interchange juz now.
how coulddd hhheeee?
wat would the girl say?
but nvm, it was fun as well, coz i found out some juicy secrets.
OH MY GOD.

in skool, dis health screening ppl came.
u can check out ur blood circulation to see if u're healthy or not.
we all checked ours..
the results were amazing n surprising.

mine was:
"ur liver [or kidney,i forgot]is surprisingly ok.
do u slp late at nite?"
"once or twice a fortnight only i slp after 3am"
"no wonder. livers [or kidneys] are supposed to work and clean themselves up at 12am till 3am."
"errr.. orite."

actually, dat wasn't the exact conversation.
it was all messed up, wif us laughing n all.
so i had to reli make up wat the professor was saying.
kuang kuang kuang~!! sorie.. teehee..
but dat was wat reli happened! i swear!!

took pictures.
emo kids here n dere.
will show them to u when i've enuff to upload.

and once again,
tweet n alif, showed their kinky side.
wanted me to lick off the ice cream very slowly.
and now, my uniform has stains on it, thank u very much.
dun tink dirty, they are juz ice cream stains.

my sister has been disturbed by some ghosts for quite some tym now.
and last nite, she woke me up, telling me to slp at my parents' room.
we did n she told me dat she was being disturbed again.
dis is lyk the 9+ tym?
my god. my dad felt his hair stood when he came into my room.
my room is haunted! but the ghosts only disturbed my sister n not me!!
not being disturbed lah actually..
the ghosts juz sat on her stomach n look at her.
and pls, my sister is 24. she doesn't lie about things lyk dis.
it's too childish n so unlike her.

my >()< <3 is shooting some targets at some shooting range.
go baby go!
muaX.

klah, dis is more than long.
outZ.

ramblings

oh! is it dzaf's bdae today?
ye ke? kalau salah sorie.
alif told me so.
Happy Birthday dude!
u're old!! my god!!

man u won.
2-0. thx for the own goal dunne.
n pool lost.
by the same scoreline.
hehhee.

by all mins, come up and say it directly to our faces.
u suck cork big tym.

*winks at alif.*
"1 bitch, 1 pig and a dog."

we didn't fite.
we didn't argue.
we managed to enjoy each others' company juz lyk the 1st tym we dated.
the feeling is very liberating
and i feel very exhilarated wif dis arrangement.
no more shoutings and no more crying.
lyk in his own words, " i feel lyk we're still a newlovebies."
wat in the world is newlovebies?
hehhee.. nvm, i understand wat he meant.
and he understands wat i mean now.

new pics r up.

orite lah.
i'm slpy.
outZ.

shopping rawks.

on yah, forgot to thank faliq n tweet
for treating us to Earthquake Ice Cream at Swensen on Monday.
skipped cls juz for dat!!!
:D

forgot to tell u guys
dat me n my >()< <3 watched Flight of The Phoenix on Wednesday.
it was AWESOME!!! Catch it!
i min it! reli. catch it!
u won't regret it!

and juz now, he surprised me wif a beautiful pendant + necklace
from Perlini's Silver.
i didn't noe he has such beautiful taste.
i wasn't even dere to tell him wat i want.
thank god he bought a nice one for me.
if not, i would haf ask for an exchange.
but he's so stubborn; doesn't wanna tell me how much it cost.
hrmph!

den, he suddenly went into Surfbabe at Wisma
and asked me to choose a wallet for myself.
bought a light brown ripcurl one.
25 bux. :D

next stop, Lido.
queued up for Constantine tix at 7.25pm.

went to Pacific Plaza to window shopped.
but the boyfren ended up buying a belt and a larnyard; totalled 39 bux from Fox.

got to Far East and we went into dis shop ware they sell cheap watches.
saw a leather band watch dat cost 20.
and a matching guy's one at the same price.
we bought them.
his in brown, mine in black.
:D
in dat shop alone, we spent ard 40bux.
my god.
so we decided to head back to Lido to prevent us from unneccesary shopping.

BUT! not before we stop by Scotts to sit down
and sat at Coffee Bean to chill.
took pictures and off to Lido.

Constantine..
4.5/5.
i would haf gif it full marks if not for the fact dat i dun understand some words
of wat they were saying.
Keanu Reeves.. my god, he has been my crush since Speed
and it's not wonder he still is.
YUMMMMMMYYY..
and smoking kills. remember dat kids.

click on it for the full pic.
he bought for me all these.. :) 


but alas.
after all dat spending,
he has juz enuf money to pay for his bike installment.
and it's only juz dat he received his pay.
hehe.sorie baby.
i didn't ask for all dat!
u wanted to buy them all for me.
rite?
i noe u're sincere but i feel guilty.
at the same tym... i'm so happy!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!

outZ.

island life.. love it? NOT!

wasn't yesterday, 10th of february 2005, the 2nd day of CNY?
no offence but wat the heck were most ppl doing at Sentosa?
the bus queue was so long, it was way out to the carpark beside the NEL Harbourfront station!
my >()< <3, his pals and i had to walk to sentosa.
and it was sooo fricking hot too!!!
not only dat, when we reached the monorail station 1,
the queue was even much worse!
it took us about 2 hours to finally put our butts on the monorail seats.
yeap, dat long!!!
ppl were snaking all the way!!!
luckily i had great company, or else i would haf juz forget about it and go home.

upon reaching palawan beach, it was packed wif humans!!!
malays, chinese, indians, caucasians!!
they were everyware!!!!!

aniwae, we [nas, faizah, ariff, lydia, haris, iban, >()< <3 n me] had soo much fun!
we swam towards the pirates' raft and back.
but i swear to u, i hate the feeling of the soft sand on the shallow seabed.
and the feeling of seaweeds sticking to ur feet.
it was soooo icky!!!
kept clinging on to faizah n my baby so as not to step on it.
each tym i did, i shuddered n shivered throughout.

juz lyk how we got to sentosa,
we did the same thing to get back to mainland.
we walked.
but it was fun dis tym coz it was nite time.
and the weather was cool n it was breezy n alot of the visitors were walkin wif us as well.
it was as though we were in a marathon.

famished, we top up our tanks at geylang bahru's yassin.
i, for once and for the 1st tym ever, finished my plate of nasi pattaya.
even my >()< <3 was amazed!!!

pictures will be up soon.
i'm shagged from walking..and WAITING!!!!!
till den.
outZ.

projects, amazed japanese girls and happy lunar new yr.

alif n khus came by here juz now.
our intention?
we were to do a cls website for our project.
but from the tym they came till it was tym to go,
all we did was to type a paragraph about our cls
and dat was it.
the rest of the tym was spent playing my PS2,surfing the net
and teasing lil butterfly.
oh! and eating Canadian's 2-For-1 pizzas.

dat was good. i was famished lyk anything.
decided to go to city hall to buy sumthing.
and ended up miting wif dzafir, fad[spell?]
and their 2 japanese girl frenz.

they were noisy!
dramatic!
funny!
dzaf had to teach them stupid sentences lyk,
"kakak kau peh laki." "aku bau masam mcm syikin."
so bad...
the 2 girls were oblivious to all dat
they kept laughing n smiling.
oh ya! they called me "kawaii"!!
hehhehe.. but of coz, some ppl are so jealous of my cuteness.
muahahahah..

thx to alif, i reached home juz in tym.
he gave me $$ for my cab ride home.
this wasn't the 1st tym and i'm so ashamed to take ur money.
i didn't wanna take it.
but u practically shoved me inside the cab.
everytym!
how could i reject the offer, u tell me?
haizz... he juz want me to be home safe.
i'll be safe in the NEL too rite?
thx anyway dude.
best frenz for life! and remember our 50 bux bet ok?
heh.i sound lyk a 12 yr old kid writing an autograph book.

yeap, i haf to reach home by 11 if i'm out wif my frenz.
i haf curfew when i'm wif my frenz.
wif my >()< <3, the curfew could extend till 1 or 2 or 3am.
coz u wanna noe y?
frenz can't send me rite up to my doorstep.
but my >()< <3 does it all the tym. :)
so yeah.. dat's y.
it's kinda lame, i noe but hey, i'm not complaining so y shd u?

oriteY den.
uploading the RP gig photos.
juz see the photo columns if u wanna see it.
if it's not dere, mins it's not yet done.
hah.

Happy Lunar New Year!!!!!
enjoy urselves today manjens!

outZ.

my com is lyk a tortoise.

it's taking wayyyyyy too long to upload juz,
get dis, 19 pics!!!!!
my god, even my terrapins move faster than it takes to upload A pic.

my eardrums are ok, thank u very much.

i can't slp.
i slpt at 6am yesterday and woke up at 1pm.
but i still can't slp.

completing my project draft to show to our,
ahem, leader, alif for his opinion.
pls let me slp after dis.
i want to slp.

so dis is my new hair cut.. click on it for a bigger image.
see..i look lyk a small kid by cuttin my hair rite? 


i can't wait for my >()< <3's pay!!!
lagik2 Chinese New Year.
things are going cheaply!
*rubs hands gleefully*

PLEASE ADD ME AT blueboy.redgirl@gmail.com AT MSN!!! A CHANGE OF EMAIL!!

oklah.
outZ.
wake up can continue eh.

p.s: surprisingly, my period dis mth didn't cause me any excruciating pain.
alhamdullilah!!

lost n deaf.

everyone was asking me,
"so how was ur 1st gig experience?"
well... to everyone...
it was Fun wif the capital F...
Enjoyable...
and of coz...
DEAFENING!!
till now, my ears feel blocked.
reli, i do.
when ppl opened their mouths to talk,
all i can hear was muffled sounds.
god help me.

it was good though.
i get to see my classmates in a different light.
they totally let loose and let go of any inhibitions.

but will i ever go to a gig again?
maybe i would... depending on the situation.
i'm not gonna swear off gigs again
unless i go deaf.
hehhehe.. and if the >()< <3 allows it.
he's a bit cautious about leaving me alone to gigs.
i can understand dat.
i disallow him to go clubbing too!
muahahhaha..

pics of the gig will be up soon.
i promise u.it will be soon. :D

aniwae, i'm so tired rite now.
reli i am.
of everything.
skool...my mundane lifestyle...
i nid a kick in my life man...
not an everyday kinda routine u noe..
but, of coz, i am contented dat i haf a little life.
wat am i typing here?
contradicting myself.

to kin...
hey sweetie...
i dun min to get paranoid... or to terase.
but i juz can't help it.
i was bought up to be wary of ppl
but it turned into a bad case of paranoia.
it kills my frenship wif ppl...
i hate dat trait of mine so much...
i'm the kind who dun care if ppl say it rite up to my face..
but i get all tensed up when ppl indirectly being sarcastic to me
or they described the bad person..
haiz..maybe i shd get dat green letter from IMH.

oriteZ den.
i'm sick of being the one at fault.
don't u?
outZ.

wasted day. i luv u. and teater komedi gerek arh.

cut my hair shot.
i min short.
i'm too lazy to press the delete key btw.
aniwae, yeah, cut it short.
alif n khus accompanied me to a plaza nearby my place
and they waited till i'm done to eat.
how sweet.

i tink i look lyk a small kid now
not a 20 yr old adult.
my god.
i'm not helping myself.

took 80 to skool ard 1+pm.
received a call from tweet
who said dat dere wasn't any cls
but we could still mark our attendance.

came to cls wif dat intention
but we ended up playing games, surfing net till 3pm.
blardy teacher. dun ask.
she's a pig who wears a skirt and put on lipstick.
*wink at khus n alif.*

nibbled ppl's ie, mon,faliq,fir,food at SP [dat's Singapore Post ppl.]
for a while and den all went to their separate ways.
fir, faliq, mon went home.
i tink dat was faliq's destination anyway.
and alif n khus went jamming.
while urs truly went to mit my sister at Starbucks Toa Payoh.
She werks dere btw.
asked for the kakak $$ to buy food and we both went home.

dat's it.
dat's my entry today.

i'm getting paranoid.
kin blogged sumthing about one of her frens acting all cute.
she could mean me!!!
oh gosh!!!
help me.. dah start dah nie pompan dah..
haizz... y i always terase one?
dono.. sorie kin if u dun min me.
if u min me, den sorie too.

and when my >()< <3 is away on his field camp,
i start to realise dat maybe i sumtyms take him for granted.
he is always dere when i nid company in the bus or when i'm bored.
but when i'm at home or ard my frenz, i tend to forget about him
and to sms or call him.
today, while i was on the bus to toa payoh alone,
i absent-mindedly dialled his number only to realise in tym
dat he didn't bring his hp along.

we do fite.
i always end up crying.
in my eyes, he always end up looking lyk a jerk.
but wateva he says to hurt me, in reality, they r all true.
i do feel lyk i've changed a little.
to wat extent? i nv realised it.
he's hurt sumhow, i noe.
but i nv reli care.
today, i had a lot of tym to myself.
i focused on my n his good n bad points.
and u noe wat?
his good points wins over my good
and my bad wins over his.

and i'm not saying it juz becoz he's my >()< <3 or wateva dat crap.
it's true. i tend to get carried away wif my frenz.
haizz...

anyway, happy 19th mth anniversary to us dear.
we nv celebrate our monthly-s.
but i hope on the 24th, we will.
insya allah.

oriteZ.
dat's it.
thx for reading my long entry.
sih sih sih, TRIME KASIH!!! :D
outZ.

revenge is sweet.

1 time is fantastic
but twice in a season?
it's heaven!!
Manchester United 4-2 Arsenal!!!!!
read the freakin scoreline!
it was mesmerising to watch the match.
i couldn't fall aslp!
it was fast, exciting n very HOT!!
yeap, tempers were flaring as usual but man u kept their cool.
rawkness man. \m/
nv b4 a match was dis intriguing.

cls started at 9 but i can at 12.
my fever was acting up on me.
and my body was aching all over.
but alif had to trick me into going to cls.
he said it was important.
i did.
and u noe wat?
i've bin doing nuthing since i came.
nuthing. zilch.
and i can even update my blog.
nb.

oklah, i'll update when i feel lyk it.
for now, i dun.
so take care everyone.
outZ.

the sweetest thing.

i'm sick.
i haf a cold, a cough and a not-so-high fever.
ok ok, my temperature is still the normal body temp
BUT i can feel it coming ok!
i can juz feel it...
too little sleep, i guess.
now, i look lyk one sick panda.

mum gave me 100 bux juz now to buy my mp3.
thx mum, u're the best.
i could always count on my mum, no matter wat.
she is my pillar of strength and hope.
and no, not juz becoz she gave me the $,
but she is.
in reality, i tink i treat my mum more lyk my best fren.
i love u mum.

wait a minute.
is it Mother's Day aredi?
no? hehhee.. tot so..

skool was chaos juz now.
our projects are starting and i'm surprised by it.
coz usually, when the deadline is near, den we start our projects.
but the deadline is lyk in 5 mths' tym and we had began.
good work!

tmr morning, man u vs arsenal.
can't wait!! hope i can wake up!!
glory glory man united!!
FIR!!KEJOTKAN AKU K???

when is my period coming?
i can feel it coming but it still doesn't wanna come.
been wasting too many pantyliners!!
oopss.. too much details. :D

for the 1st tym ever,
i'll be going to a gig.
yeap sireee, u read it rite.
miss nurhidayu bte atan here will be going to her 1st ever gig.
it will be held at Republic Poly on saturday.
of coz, i support No Direction n Ceramic Circle
since Tweet n Khai are in the bands respectively.
and oso for the fact dat i dono any of the other bands.
hahahahhahahaa..
i'm gonna be a VIRGIN GIGSTER!!!

oritey den.
i've run out of ideas to blog for now.
take care everyone.
gd nite.
outZ.