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sun after the rain.

we made up.
i noe.. very childish and very fickle of us.
i noe.. some of u could be laughing at our stupidity.

but wateva it is, i dun care.
coz i've decided to gif it one more shot.
a 2nd chance at our future, our happiness.

and a real blessing in disguise about this whole situation is,
we've really really talked things out,
and it bought us so much more closer.

all those cryings, well, it's not worth it actually
but i was sooo blardy depressed dat all i could do
was cry n cry n cry n cry n cry.

dere are a whole lot of ppl whom i wanna thank.
my utmost respect to alif n khus for being wif me for almost 24/7.
even i couldn't bear wif my own self.
they haf been my pillar of strength besides my family members.
to the rest of the kids, for giving me advices and making me laff. :D

the kallangcs ladies for trying to make me feel better.
u guys rawk. of coz, faizah, my one n only girlfren.

to the taggers/commenters, thank u so much for ur kind words.

honestly, i am happy wif the way things has turned out.
i am happy wif dat everything has turned out well.

those who wanna say we're stupid n childish,
well, we are the 2 persons in dis relationship.

so dun anyhow say, unless u're my fren.

and to my >()< <3, hopefully, we'll make dis work for the 2nd tym.
if u make me cry again, i will call upon my MUM, alif n khus
to banish u from the face of dis earth.
k kidding. main2 only lahhhhhh..
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aniwae, watched the eye 10 wif alif, khus, fir, faliq, kin, tweet n khai at Marina.
my god.
the show, i'll gif it 4/5 for cleverly making u scared out of ur wits.
and 3/5 for storyline.
it has a comedic touch in it too.
so funny lah. klakar seram.

alif sat in between me n kin.
and i so pity dat guy.
on his right, he had me grabbing his hands
and on the left he had kin screaming for dear life.
but he himself is scaredy cat.
he pratically dugged his nails on my leg.
and dat made me screamed out loud, not out fear but pain.

watch dat show wif an open mind k ppl.
dun tink facts or reality.
it's more made up and fiction.

orite lah.
i'm bored aredi.

this is so fucking hard.

all i can do is cry cry cry cry cry.

i can't survive dis shits...
i reli can't...

i so badly want to be wif him again.
especially after he apologised as sincerely as he could.

but reli.shd i?
dis is my life, i noe.
but i reli can't handle it.

i'm so used to having him ard me
it suddenly so fucking sux
to noe dat maybe he won't be dere for me anymore.

i'm not fickle.
juz confused.

if i do get back wif him,
pls pray so hard for me dat i won't be stupid for the 2nd time.
pls pray so hard for me dat i won't shed a single tear for him anymore.
and pls pray so hard for me dat the ppl who haf been ard me
and supporting me won't get disappointed again.

i can't handle dis shits
i juz want him back...

is it reli wrong?

hopefully dere is rainbow after the rain.

chalet was rawking.
i had fun. we had fun.
picture will be up soon.

more on LJ.

n fucking shit i feel so shitty right now,
i could juz die.
i deserved those words my best fren said to me.
i deserved it.
ayu, may u rot in hell for treating him lyk shit, for not caring.
:`(

n to my other half, u hurt me damn fucking bad too.

outZ.

y don't u do somethin'?

britney looks so hot and cool in dat vid man.
the Do Somethin' vid.
she is hot. damn it she is.
i am a britney spears fan at heart.
i dun care wat ppl say, but i love her.
she is scandalous, rebellious, sexy, hot, everything dat i'm not.
and i love dis record of her.
Do Somethin'! Download it man.
download the vid as well.
see, even carmen elektra tinks britney is hot.
woah.
i sound so lesb, but i dun care.
i do appreciate beautiful women ok.

aniwae, u noe the mario guy who sang Let Me Love You?
well, when i 1st saw his vid, i was lyk, "look, u're ain't usher."
and i tot he was ugly to the max wif his big nostrils
but he has such a smooth voice!
yesterday i watched TRL UK version and Mario was one of the guest stars.
and he is so charming, so cute, so smooth, such a flatterer dat i'm nursing a crush on him.
and yeah, i can look aside the big nostrils.
hehehe..and he's only 18! my god.
so gorgeous. wat a beautiful man.

lastly, the 9 oclock chinese serial featuring tay ping hui, joanne peh and chen hanwei.
u noe the ah beng wif the purple hair?
he is so cute. i told alif so.
dat ah beng is so cute lahhhhhh..
but when he opened his mouth to talk, the cuteness juz shattered.
his voice sux lyk anything and his teeth, i tink they are crooked.
not dat i haf beautiful teeth but his are all jagged n sharp.
nevertheless, he IS cute. *swoon*

wassup wif me and all this beautiful ppl?
i dono. i'm juz appreciating them.
weird huh?
wat a post. wat an entry.
but it's ok.coz i'm basically telling u guys wat i'm feeling.
which is totally unnecessary but thx for reading.

today is our chalet.
and we are going to par-tehhhh!!
i so can't wait.
anione wanna come for our bbq tmr, pls sms me.
if u noe my number lah dat is. heh.

orite.
gonna get ready my stuffs.
outZ.

my 1 week hols.

today is a mixture of boring + fun day for me.
it was boring until khus n alif turned up at my place juz to chill.
khus' motive was of coz to use the net,
check his emails, update his blog, read some blogs.
dat was it.

den the 2 of them played the Xbox again.
played Halo again!
but instead of killing the enemies, they searched for each other
and shoot each other till the other person died.
and when the other person respawn, they searched for each other again.
how thrilling n very.. slenge.

muahahahhahahaha.. bodoh.
alif IS a good man. :D

and dere we were on the playground,
baring our souls to each other.
yeah, i would cry my eyes out if either khus or alif
would not be my fren anymore.
they are lyk my brothers in crime man.
n i sure do want them to be my best men when i get married.
yeah i noe, i can only haf bridesmaids.
but i dun care! i'll jolly well make sure my husband let them be my best men.
or else, i won't get married!
hahaha.. touching rite?
even alif n khus were touched.
we 3 hugged each other n of coz, alif juz had to cry out loud - jokingly of coz.
we are retards.

so tmr.
i tink i'll be staying home.
same goes to my gay partners.
or i'll go compass point.
and ask them along.
muahahaha..i'm such an irritating fren, rite?
:D <3

alot of dramas in my life rite now.
best lah.
i so nid them.
klah.ite kids, haf fun dis one week of holiday k.
i so can't wait for the chalet.
alif n khus, pls pray for me!

outZ.

i'm having a ball of a tym.

i'm a fucker.
wow. dat's a 1st.
dis little lady is a fucker.
true ah, we still consider them outsiders.
u noe the saying, "kalau tak tahu, jgn kepo. kalau tak kenal rapat, diam dah.
actually, dere is no such saying. i made it up.
muahahhahaha..

i'm sure u guys haf been in situations
whereby u n ur other frenz are fighting/arguing/debating
but the outsiders are the one who make such big fuss.
u noe, they are the one all hyped up and criticisin u
dat u juz had to stop and look at them wif amazement.
u juz tink, "who am i fighting wif again?"

tak bleh accept?
angry? geram? bingit?
lu peh suke lah.
lyk alif always told me, "ayu, jgn world."
so, i will tell the same thing to u, "jgn world."
so wat they tell u things?
dat gave u the rights to interfere?
apasal eh the rest can keep their mouths shut,
or in dis case, fingers away from the keyboard
but some ppl juz can't?

not happy, pls come and see me.
alif taught me good.
and yeah, i'm sure as hell noe he would get pissed off wif me
for retaliating.
i'm sorie alif darling.
but u noe me, i HAVE to retaliate.
lyk fun lah. my integrity has been questioned, my own world has been invaded.

childish rite?
i noe. my group is childish. i am childish.
wat to do. wah.. some ppl mature aredi.
y does maturity always come into ppl's minds when it comes to fights?
eh, ur parents, no matter how old they are, still fight ok.
ape dah.

oklah. enuf aredi.
so sharina, kau ckp org. asal tanak straight jer cakap name aku?
eh, sarcastic dgn org tu mature behaviour pe kan.

stakat pasal ekor nak bingit.
chill ar.
yg tak bersuare aku tanak carik gadoh.
mon aku tanak gadoh.
dgn aisya lagik aku tanak gadoh ar.
pasalkan, dier sorg jer yg aku bleh ajak bobal.
dgn dier je aku nak buat baik.
13 tahun, sia2 jer kan kalau tak nak berbaik kan?
aku admit ah aku nak baik semula dgn dier.
tapi kalau dier tanak, den aku pon no hal kan.
takkan nak bodek2 dgn dier juz so dier accept aku nye frenship kan?

muahahhaa.. fun ah.
i'm having fun.
i'm not stressed.
juz kidding, i did wanna cry.
but tinking back, for wat sia.

n i can't wait for our chalet.
we so gonna rawk pasir ris down!
outZ.

2nd entry.

ok. dis is my 2nd entry for today.
no joke. today is the weekends but i'm stucked at home.
the >()< <3 is here but all he does from the tym he came at 4pm till now
is play the blardy Halo game on Xbox.
he ignore me rite here in my own home!

i've bin calling alif on the fone alot today.
not becoz to talk to him about stuffs
but i've bin complaining how sian i was.
no kidding! i called him up and each of the conversations will start lyk dis, "alif, i sian."

and aisya, i'm not trying to ignore or avoid u.
i'm having my period today so i'm a little irritatable.
and i won't be able to tink clearly of wat to say.
but seriously, i tink it's better we talk 1-to-1,
without any influences from ur side or mine.
we both noe we can talk wif each other calmly and logically
and not act lyk sum big shot.
true?
call me when u tink it is wise to.
but not today.
my stomach is killing me.

dad n mum bought dis toy.
u noe, dis thing goes round n round and we haf a tiny little plastic rod to catch those fish when their open their mouths.
my parents are playing it.
yeap, they are challenging each other to see who catches the most fish.
so cute lah they, laughing each other, pushing each other's rod.
but i'm having a headache from playing it.
even my surrounding is spinning.
for the record, my mum is the uncoveted champion for the 10th time running.

i'm so sleepy.
will be watching man u vs fulham later, after updating.
and will be watching the >()< <3 play soccer tmr at CLEMENTI!!
my god.
so far.
heh. klah, wanna watch my parents catch some fish again.

outZ. [alif tinks it's very irritating for someone to end a conversation or an entry wif an outZ. u noe wat? i noe dude and i jolly well dun care coz i want to irritate everyone!! muahhahaha]

juz bring it.

ok. so some ppl did take offence of wat i blogged yesterday.
i didn't kutok ur group.
i didn't type dat ur group is full of shit or nonsense.
wat i typed was... "no need to reshoot or all that shit. waste of time."
did the shit part mention ur group?
did the shit part was meant for ur group?
no? tot so. :)

and aniwae, when we beat around the bush,
ppl said we shd haf juz say it upfront.
when i was being straight forward without sounding nasty,
ppl called me up saying i find trouble wif other ppl.
how? fickle world we live in.

so now i haf to take into consideration of other ppl's feeling
when my own feeling was being played around without any care in the world.
i wonder... shd i juz be selfish or shd i be considerate?

oklah. mind over heart.
i will stop saying anything, anything at all about u and u.
my freedom of speech in my own blog haf been evaded.
i got to be considerate.
and erm. i apologise for my.. erm.. incorrigible actions.
muahhahaha..

aniwae, my whole group, namely, khai, alif, khus, kin, fir, faliq, me n my >()< <3 got back at 6 am juz now!!
for the 1st tym ever, i overnite wif them.
yeap, 6am.
we did half of our project at farid's house.
oklah, more lyk his younger brother's house.
we only used farid's car.
thx aiz for the hospitality.
and thx to farid too.
by the tym we were done, the last bus was gone.
so had to wait wif the rest for the 1st bus.

khai n faliq were so cute.
pics will be up.
go on, laff ur heads off.
u will cry, i tell u.

oklah. dat's about it.
i will stop bitching about others.
i will stop typing bad stuffs about others.
i will stop gossipping about others. <----- yeah rite.

outZ.

i'm full.

juz got back from compass point wif khus n alif.
my intention was to gif my pictures and photocopies
of my ic n bankbk to the manager of starbucks
and den go off wif them to watch khai n tweet
in ite tampines for their stardom thingy.
but the 2 toads (alif n khus) haf soccer in marine parade.
so i told them i'll juz mit them in Kembangan.
hot lah. den watch u guys play.
bukan nye skill sgt korg kan?
hahahhaha.. JUZ KIDDING!

eating a bar of crunchie makes u full.
i'm full. :D
and i'm lame.

i so can't wait to do the video today.
hopefully it would be a full squad.
juz hope n pray dat faliq would be able to get someone to cover his shift.

in the 1st place, u guys wanted him and now u guys easily chuck him to another group
juz becoz he has no commitment?
well, i tink the one who has sumthing wrong in the head or schedule is not him
but it's u guys.
y dun u guys try and tell him 3 days in advance
instead of wanting him at ur beck n call whenever u want?
he has to fit into ur schedule but u guys can't fit into his?
i noe, it's not a one man show but hey, teams are supposed to work both ways isn't it?

we are gladly taking him in.
he would haf better and much more fun wif us.
and we can easily reach him coz we haf his new number.
muahahhaha..
so thx for it.
luckily we are shooting the video today and he could be free.
hah. no nid to reshoot or wateva shit.
waste of tym.

i sound very childish fighting wif ppl thru blogs.
but i dun reli care. dis thing is beyong repair
and i surely haf no intention to mend it.
if ppl tink they are way above than me
juz wanna tell them dat we are equal.
so wat u haf more cash, more clothes or better than me in the looks apartment?
we are still blardy equal.

so aisya, 13 yrs of frenship went down the drain juz lyk dat.
it's not ur fault, neither is it mine.
u can shake hands wif the rest but not mine
and i won't care.
it doesn't kill me neither does it kill u.
i noe u're strong and u won't shed tears over this.
the journey of our frenship was fun.
but frankly, some parts of it suck.
sadly, it has to end now.
so long n gd bye.

outZ.

pssst.

basically, i haf nuthing to blog about.
it was a boring day.

but i got a new discovery.
thx khus.
now i noe ware is alif's weakness.
he would go all gooey n soft.
i noe ware to touch him to make him sooo damn high.
HAHAHAHA.
dat sounds so wrong but dun tink so far.
i wont tell u guys ware it is here.
ask me personally ok?
shhhh..

aniwae, the 2 gay partners of mine came here.
they watched the Meiman [it's the 9pm show, but we all called it the Meiman show] show here.
and they played the Xbox wif my bro.
so kecoh lor.

see, i told u.
today is a boring day.
my updates haf been boring siak.
sorie lah.

so long n gd nite.
My Chemical Romance rawkin ar.

outZ.

p.s: oh! anibody wanna go to our chalet dis cuming wednesday to friday? no need to pay, it's free. only us must pay.
see, we all so good rite? yeah.. of coz.
no more money woes.

trick or treat.

today was a mixture feelings of sheer boredom and excitement.
i was bored coz only alif, fir, tweet n kin + me came to skool in our group.
khai had something on to do. *wink at him*
and faliq was still shagged after cuming back from KL [i tink?]
while khus... he tak dapat dikesan.

but it was still great fun no matter, wif kin smacking the guys' balls
wif her tennis racket
and tweet n alif had a freestyle rapping, or shd i say rhyming battle wif each other.
juz read tweet's tagboard.
corny but sure as hell funny.
hey! it rhymes! corny and funny!
hah! :D

den we all proceeded to tampines.
kin darling treated us to desserts.
i had mango pudding, while tweet n alif had ice kacang
and kin herself had ice.. erm.. longan?
yeah.. den we laffed our heads off when we received an sms from khai.
he's as cute as a button dat guy.
find a gf soon k.

den one of my dearest galpals yana came down
coz one of my dearest boypals man wanted to treat us both.
so we all walked aimlessly before my group decided to disperse their own way.

left juz yana n me,
we decided to do wat we both were good at: GOSSIPPING!
;) it was fun! exhilarating!!
and some shocking discoveries were.. er.. discovered!

den man came and the gals decided to eat at seoul garden.
hah! the bill came to 70 bux!
sorie man!
we are sooooo sorie!
but he was cool, he was alrite.
smiled along wif us saying it was ok.
hmm... :D

after the meal, i was sooo bloated i wanted to shit.
couldn't take it animore and we all went home..

so, today was an enjoyable day.
but i'm feeling shagged n sleepy now.
the >()< <3 is aslp after his guard duty.
poor thing.
luv u swits.

orite ppl.
dis is a boring entry, i noe.
outZ.

great!

wat a relief!!!!!
phew!!
*wipes perspiration off forehead*

"who says we nid frenz?"
i kinda heard dat quote somewhere.
but i'll tell u sumthing,
WE NEED FRENZ TO SURVIVE.
and it's a lesson learnt in life
when frenz gather forward to support and being dere for u.

rawking ar u 3.
u 3 shd noe who u r.
i'm so grateful to u 3.

oklah, i shd stop gushing about frenz lest ppl tink i'm fake.
but at least i readily admit i need frenz.
boyfrenz are dere for u no matter wat, i noe.
BUT WE STILL NID FRENZ NO MATTER WAT TOO, ok?

k k. shut up nurhidayu.

aniwae, sorie to farid's bro,
for my frenz haf beat ur frenz in getting the girl's number!!
woohoo!! ;)
my utmost respect to khussy boy.
but den, his ego went up several notch higher!

oh oh! i passed my MMD test!!
66.73/100!!
hahahhaa.. i beat khai, alif, khus n tweet.
kin got the same marks as me
and fir got 76 marks.

he's back from his field camp.
i waited lyk 10 hours for his blardy fone call siak.
only now do i get a message from him.
aiyoh.

klah. i'm bored liao.
i'm sure u guys are too.
muahahhaa.. sorie..
outZ.

p.s: i'm stupid. i noe. :(

i'm blessed. and confused.

i'm so glad to haf frenz lyk alif n khus.
they rawk my world so much, i wouldn't noe wat to do if they are not here wif me.
my blood brothers. hah. love rhymes wif hideous car wreck.
k, no association watsoeva.
but i love them both so much.
i would do anything for them.
but gif up biting ice for them? NO WAY.

the 3 of us walked from paya lebar mrt station to kembangan mrt station.
we screamed out loud whenever a train went past above us.
ppl were looking at 3 uniform-ed assholes behaving madly
it was fun n very liberating.

on the whole, i'm very sorie for disappoint them so much.
i couldn't face them at all.
i am ashamed but they stood by me.

and faizah is one hell of a great girlfren.
she is my gossip partner, the one n only person who could retort my sarcasm
and the one n only person who could bear wif my retort of her sarcasm.
hah!if she was a guy, i tink we are meant for each other.
muahhahaha.. luv u girl n ur cheeks. muacks!

i'm confused now.
shd i or shd i not follow my heart.
hmmm..

and the >()< <3 is on a field camp.
so i can't reli talk to him.
damnation.

i nid all the luck i can get.
and the prayers dat i need.
haizz..

outZ.

it's heavy.

yesterday, 3 ppl commented dat i looked tired, i looked stressed.
juz now, the boy asked me wat was wrong.
i couldn't answer them, i juz couldn't.
coz i dun even noe wat the hell is wrong.

they even said dat i looked lyk i haf the burden of the world on my shoulders.
i couldn't reli concentrate on his soccer match dis evening.
i did try to get close to the action by sitting near the pitch.
it helped though, for a little while.
and i would get back being so listless, so far away.

i used to daydream alot.
now it got so bad dat i tink it has become a nightmare.
it's scary to tink dat i'm making myself distant from my own self.
i dun even noe myself anymore.
wat the fucking hell do i want?

only 20, wif a small physique and i haf so many troubles and worries.
y can't i juz put my problems aside
and tell myself dat life is supposed to be full of joy,
especially when u haf great family and awesome frenz ard u?
i'm so worried sick about myself.
and my >()< <3 is worried about me too.

and dat will only add more problems to myself if he worries.
coz he will get easily distracted in camp
and he will keep calling/smsing me to noe if i'm ok.
bless him.

someone pls help me.
i nid help.
i reli do.
i juz want to be happy n carefree lyk before...

i'm tired...

outZ.

p.s: his team won. do u noe how happy i am to see his team winning each n every game? i love to support my baby.

laa-lee-loo.

i STILL didn't get to watch Hitch.
he said, "ok, ok. next wk k? sorie."
i said, "never mind."*smiles*
padahal hati dlm membara.
juz kidding switty.

i tink i wanna watch Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events.
i tink dat's the exact title.
the reason being, alot of ppl told me it's good.
but alot of ppl told me Hitch is good too.
so i tink i will try my darnest hardest to saiko the boy to watch both.
HEH.
can lah u, wait my 1st pay, i repay u back k? hehhehe..

talking about pay, i juz can't wait to start work.
my sis told me dat i will be so tired to work at Suntec
coz it is huge.
but i told her dat dat's good coz i won't even noe 6 hours haf gone by.
and at least there is sumthing to do dere.
i won't get reprimanded by the manager for juz standing dere n doing nuthing.
true?

gonna watch the >()< <3 play his soccer match in clementi.
he's cuming here to fetch me so i dun nid to fret who to fetch me.
i noe.. i tink i'm such a rare species of a gf.
if some ladies, i tink they would be so lazy to support their men.
heh.
actually, i'm juz bored. dat's y i wanna follow.
muahahhaha..

and i told him dat i miss her.
he said the same thing as wat my 2 best frenz said.
approach her.
but seriously, my ego is telling me no.
wat if she snub me?
i hate rejection.

man u won 4-0 against southampton.
no more jinx against southampton.
and dat can only min good news.

i seriously haf no idea wat to blog about.
juz tot of typing down random tots.
so thx for being able to bear wif me.

outZ.

i'm so freaking happy!

coz u wanna noe y??
i got the job at Suntec Starbucks!!!!!!
yeap baby! u read it damn right!
i got the job!
to tink dat i rehearsed wat i wanted to say at the interview.
to tink dat i asked khus, khai n my sis
of possible questions they might ask.
and i passed wif flying colours!!
oh my. i was so tired from smiling.
dun worie, i dun look fake when i smile. ;)

msged my >()< <3, my bro, my sis n my sister-in-law.
and u noe wat my bro msged me?

bro: payday buy new pc.
me: u tink my pay is 3000/mth? but can.. for my beloved bro, anything can.
bro: orite, dat's my sis.

i felt lyk strangling him. >_<

thx alot to khai for telling the manager to hire me. [haha.]
to alif n khus for accompanying me.
to the manager for hiring me!!
i'm so on my way to independancy man.
HA-HA.

aniwae, the great news was marred by my most worst gastric pains ever.
it was so painful dat i could barely walk to mit the >()< <3 at lido.
he bought for me a packet of pills especially for gastric
but it didn't kinda work.
coz an hour after i ate 2 pills, i was still crouchin n squatting on the ground.

but it got better when we went to mustafa center.
yeap, i didn't watch my Hitch. wasn't reli in the mood.
i drank a glass of hot tea and it was soooo soothing
i could fall aslp dere.

now the >()< <3 n my bro are playing Halo on the Xbox.
it is very fun watching them play, wif them commenting here n dere,
making fun of each other and oso helping one another,defencing n all.

not reli sure if i can get to go JB anot.
not reli sure if i haf the mood.
hmm..we'll see how lah eh.

oriteZ ppl.
haf a great weekend.
outZ.

my relief teacher's a bitch. new pics are up.

i juz hate her whenever she relieves my PJT teacher.
she's fat but she tinks she's gorgeous lyk a goddess.
to haf confidence in urself is one thing
but to be cocky is another.
she's a bitch n she's ugly.
u're juz our relief teacher bitch!
our PJT teacher doesn't order us around as though we're kids.
u look as though u hate ITE kids.
so wat the fuck are u in ITE for?
go n teach other institution lah!
and did i mention dat she's a bitch?

sorie ppl.
i juz hate her so much.

aniwae, nuthing much happened today.
the >()< <3 fetched me from Singapore Post juz now
and.. basically, dat was it.
today was a very boring day.
*yawn*

i forgot, but haf i mentioned dat bro bought his Xbox aredi?
yeap, he sold his PS2 aredi.
so cheaply somemore.
haizz.. mcm2 rite?

and Arsenal went out too!
so did Real Madrid!
i'm sooooo esctatic!
gooooo JUVE!!
but of coz, pool got thru.
*yawn* wat do u expect?
their opponent was Bayer Leverkusen!
wat an easy match.
[yesh, i'm a sore loser. -_-]

prolly gonna go JB wif the >()< <3 on saturday.
anione wanna follow?
i'm gonna ask him to buy me some stuffs!
*rubs hands in glee*

tmr is my interview at khai's werkplace at 5pm.
if i get the job, i'll prolly be werking at Suntec.
my god, saw it yesterday and it was HUGE!!!
khai was aredi scratching his head when he saw it.

oklah.
penat liao.
outZ.

p.s: new pics are up.

fuck it.

Man U lost to AC Milan by a goal to nil
and AC Milan got thru to a 2-0 aggregrate.
watching man u played desperately for their last minutes was heart-wrenching.
i almost cried in the dark [i watched it in the living room and i didn't switch on the lights lah.]
but accepted the fact dat the man u which won the treble in the 1998/1999 season
was no more.

althought i dislike chelsea to the guts,
i haf to say i was pleasantly surprised dat they got thru.
especially when ronaldinho said the night before
dat none of the big giants of EPL would get thru.
eat dat u buck-teeth horse!
u shd see his face when the final whistle was blown
and the camera focused on him.

of coz, i couldn't reli wake up for skool.
supposed to wake up at 730am
but told mum to wake me up at 8.
and becoz of dat, the >()< <3 was kinda pissed off wif me
coz he was expectin my call ard dat tym.
promised alif at 9am
but i arrived at 9.30.
SORIE.

i haf such a bad command of english.
look at how many buts i haf.
oh fuck. wat do i care.

i'm so bloated.
ate rice wif different gravy n dishes during break.
and now i feel lyk peeing.

life is unfair.
ppl lyk u, ppl hate u.
but i still love life.
and ppl,for dat matter.

oklah,i'll update again.
if i want to.
if not..dis will be my entry for today.

outZ.

extreme makeover.

yeah.. maybe i shd get bigger tits.
since almost everyone tinks i'm flat-chested.
oh well. i love them all the same. i tink they r cute.
say hello to them, will u?

aniwae, highlight of the day was an inside joke.
i was't allowed to disclose it and neither do i want to.
very rude u noe! i min, both the joke n disclosing it is rude.
poor soul would be so paiseh-ed.
but it was fun while it lasted.
almost smiled to myself in the bus tinkin about it.

aniwae, during our 3 hours break, we went to raffles place
coz kin had something to do.
so we went and i decided to call up my bro to ask for $5 since i'm left wif a penny to spare me till the end of the day.
he works ard the area, so wat the heck rite?
i noe my bro, he would spare me the $ no matter wat.
he wouldn't let me starve. muacks.
so.. the irritating part was to ask for direction to his work place from him.

"no.. u're too far.."
"no.. u're juz across it.."
"yes.. no.. nope.. too far.."
"aiyah! u come here lah!"

yeah yeah. i'm the slenge one.
i min i've been to his workplace countless of tyms before
but everytym, either the >()< <3 would send me on the bike
or i'm wif someone who knew the way ard Raffles place.

so being wif the kids dis tym, i decided to venture on my own.
whenever i was near to a landmark or a significant building, i called him.
but each tym, either my location was too far off or my sense of direction sucked.
when i got to ard raffles mrt, i called him up.
he said i was near. juz nearby.
he told me to walk to my right.
i did n i ended up facing the fullerton.
he told me to turn left n rite n watever [i forgot]
and i climbed the clifford pier wif fir [he accompanied me, bless him]
and finally, about 15 mins later, we saw my bro under his office building.
he gave me $10 [oh, bless u too bro] and den i salam-ed him n off we went.

me n fir were perspiring lyk mad.
and den when we crossed the road, we realised dat we had walked one full circle.
a BIG circle.
i shd haf juz turned to my left instead of right coz by doing so,
i could see my bro's office is smacked right in front of my eyes.
BODOH!!!!! BODOH!!!!! BODOH!!!!!

haizz.. nvm lah..
we still had fun.. exploring raffles city..
7 school-uniformed kids walking amidst office workers.
my god. i noticed some weird stares.
but who the fuck cares?

and yeah, i dun gif a fuck either if u tink i'm showing off.
my hp is bulky, so i prefer to hang it ard my neck,
rather than putting it in my pocket.
if not, my skirt will flare.
paham?

upon reaching home juz now, my parents decided to go compass point.
i took my chances, hoping dat they would treat me alittle sumthing.
it paid off and now i haf 5 new panties n 3 new bras.
NICEEE.. i got a pink bra!!!! :D
the 8 items cost my parents $40.
they were on sales mah! dat's y cheap.
buy 2 bras get 1 free. hehhehehe..
alah.. once in a while mah!!!

klah, i wanna slp now.
man u vs ac milan today morning, i tink.
pls someone, call my celly to wake me up.
thx.
outZ.

multi-tasking.

ok! i'm updating my blog and watching Desperate Housewives at the same tym.
heh.
so if u see any misspelt words or wateva,
u noe i ain't concentrating here.
ok, rite now, it's the adverts and i managed to type dis long.

my weekends was spent wif, deep breath, alif, khus, kin, fir, faliq, tweet, khai, mon betty, dzafir, fawa and my >()< <3.
the tym set to mit? 5.30pm.
tym mon betty came? 5.32pm.
tym my >()< <3 n u came? 6.28pm.
tym the rest came?6.40++pm.

poor mon betty.
i bet his arse was blardy painful from all dat sitting n waiting.
heh. but he was smiling and swearing at us, so i guess he was ok.

aniwae, we went to watch White Noise which was soo nonsensical as Michael Jackson.
wasn't worth our $8.50. shd haf watch Hitch instead.
but nvm, at least we had fun screaming our lungs out when we had shocks.
i heard mostly kin n alif screamed.
so fun lar.
we shd do it again peeps.

on sunday, watched the >() <3 played soccer against dis team.
his team won 1-0. they were not quite up to their standard.
i dono. probably all of them were too shagged.
but we both had a little fight
so farid fetched me and sent me back home.
thx wani n farid. darlings lah u both eh. :D

the kids are probably gonna do our project at farid's house.
asked his permission aredi.
so all we need are the kids' agreement.

frankly, i miss you.
kinda sad lar. but at the same tym, still so fucking pissed off.
argh.
dun worrie dear, i'm talking about a girl here.
not some guys.

juz now, dis guy juz came up to kin and said,
"i noe u! u're the girl wif the brown eyes." or sumthing lyk dat.
but lyk, who the hell r u again??hehhehe..

and thx alif for treating me to Long John juz now.
i'm so paiseh. so very paiseh. but thx.
and yesh, i'll find u a gf soon.
so anyone, any takers? 19 yrs, male, single n available.

oklah. i desperately wanna watch my show.
outZ.

the day i went to the toilet in public.

heh. i read my title again and it sounded so funny.
y can't i juz put The Day I Went To The Public Toilet?
nonsense sia ayu.
oh well.

hey ya ppl.
weekends is here.
i'm looking forward to it coz 1)i'll be miting my >()< <3 n 2) i'll be miting my frenz for a movie.
let's so hope dat i can mit the guys.
it's bin a long tym since i watched a movie wif them!

happy belated 20th mth anniversary >()< <3.
we both nv celebrate our mthly anniversary.
i min, wat's the point??
but we juz wish each other lor.
heh. 4 more mths to our 2nd yr! muacks.

went to skool juz now.
yesh, it was only for one subject.
but i had a test on dat subject.
so i haf no choice but to go.
and aniwae, section head had warned us, so... haizz...

i was blardy having a blardy stomachache juz now.
i couldn't walk, couldn't breathe dat hard, lest the shit came out.
it was damnnnn bad.
but i somehow managed to eat wif the rest at cavana.
a whole plate of chicken rice [again!!], mind u!!
but when we went up to chill, my shit was at the end of my anus.
i had to go to the toilet.
reaching dere, it juz wouldn't want to come out!
y torture me lyk dat??!?!?!
nvm, i managed to get it out when i got home.
oh! saw farid's bro at Long John and he was lyk shocked to find me dere.
i shd be the one shocked to find him dere!

heh. mcm tk biase pulak kene confused dgn aku.
but frankly, how could he get confused rite?
i'm so much cuter than u.. haizz..

ppl, my bro is lowering the bass+amp price to $200.
he said, the faster he get rid of them, the faster he'll be getting an Xbox.
:D

i tink one of my terrapins is blind.
he/she/it uses its sense of smell to find the food.
the other one juz gobble up the food when it sees them.
but the blind one had to use the sense of smell
and i could see it struggling.
poor creature.
eh, dun look at me!
i'm a good pet owner ok!

i'll be going for the starbucks interview at bugis next friday at 5pm.
if u see me.. say HI!

klah, my >()< <3 juz called me.
he wanna mit me tonite at 9pm when he books out.
wah lau! 9pm is when my chinese serial starts lah!

my life has been good.
outZ.

freakazoid.

i miss my Desperate Housewives.
it's lyk an antidote to my monday blues.
y blue eh? y not yellow? red? purple?
coz blue is a sad colour?
but i love blue! it's such a nice, peaceful colour.
i'm so going out of point, but who cares!
nyenyehahhahah..

i miss my khussy boy!
he's bin absent since monday.
he's lyk dis lah.. get work aredi, he'll won't want to come to skool.
wait Vivek [my C.A] will nag n nag.

well, he [Vivek] did nag at us yesterday.
he called all of our parents last evening to tell them about our attendance.
mum was naggy but when she heard dat everyone in cls was called up,
she kept quiet and den she went, "ohhh.. lah... tak bilang siang2.."
[oh.. y never tell earlier?]
mak aku pon rawk ah.

and today, the Section Head came into the cls
and said dat shd we absent for one more day, blah blah blah..
i dono wat else he said.
i was busy staring at my nails.

oOooOOooo!!
i juz can't wait for the chalet dis coming march n may!!!
i hope it will turn out great!!!
those of u who wanna come for the chalet dis coming march,
u dun haf to pay!
only the kids n i must pay..
so all expenses paid lah eh dikatakan.

heh. i promote n promote skali the kids marah at me.
mampos aku.
peace!

once again, my bro is selling his samick bass n amp at 300 bux
and his PS 2 + lotsa games at 250.
yeap, we'll throw in the games for free.
about 10++ games.
so pls, pass ard to everyone u noe!!
thx.

n thx alif for accompanying n treating me juz now.
muuahahahaha.. i got a very irritating fren..
muahhahahah..

i got a huge soft pimple located near my left eyebrow.
it is so soft dat it looks more lyk a bump than a pimple.
maybe it is a bump coz i bumped dat area on the light switch at home.
but den, when i squeezed it, pus came out.
now it's lyk all emply but filled wif water.
so soft. so i dun tink it's a pimple.
but neither is it a bump. so wat the fuck is it?
i've bin tryin to cover it up wif my fringe.
and i get so self conscious about it dat when the slightest wind blow against my fringe,i would go all paranoid n very aware of my surrounding.
retard.

klah. my chinese show wanna start liao.
outZ.

my way or the highway.

my cousin's engagement was great on saturday.
it went smoothly and very happy.
my cousin-to-be, ie, the fiancee, kak yana was very very sweet.
she was basically very relaxed n laidback, walking here n dere.
coolll...

den after dat, the youngsters went home
and we decided to mit up in town to watch a movie.
the newly engaged couple came down, so did my bro n his fiancee,
my 2 guy cousins, my sis, my >()< <3 n me.
watched Hide And Seek which started at 2am.
boy! were we yawning everyware even after the show started!

it was an ok show. i liked it alot.
alot of ppl said it was not great but i tink i lyk pyschopatic shows.
heh.
the >()< <3 was aslp coz, well, i haf to admit, the starting was kinda draggy.
but as it got along, we all were sitting up n watching it intently.

the cousins are planning a chalet in may.
kak yana has booked a $160-per-nite bungalow chalet at Aloha.
and the kids are planning one soon too.
TUNNEL ARR!!! :D

ate chicken rice twice today.
went to parkway parade for my break wif the kids
and ate chicken rice at the hawker center.
after skool, went to singapore post and ate cavana's chicken rice.
i was bloated wif chicken AND rice by the tym i got home.

faliq's joke: parkway got parade.. so parkway parade!
CORNNYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

bro's selling his PS 2 and his Samick bass + amp.
the bass + amp is going for 300 bux.
i dono how much he's selling his PS 2 for.
all 3 items are still in good condition.
VERY GOOD CONDITION!!
any sellers, pls get back to me at my tagboard or email.
thx.

congrats to the >()< <3's smallest bro, haziq
for getting 25 points for his O.
eh.. i noe it's not dat good but compared to mine in 2001,
i got 38 points ok???

maths n science sucked big tym to me dat tym.
and so did history, geography, art.
i was left wif english n malay to save my life
but decided to dropped my history n art to make life easier.
my history n art teachers told me, "thank god! wat took u so long!" and "finally! u made MY life easier!" respectively.
wat a slap on the face.
but considering i was an "ek ar ek ar, heran tak heran" girl in sec skool,
wateva they said, i juz sticked out my tongue n pointed the middle finger at them.
they frowned but deep down they knew it was paradise when i decided to drop both subjects.
when i got my result, i got a B4 for malay n a D7!! for english.
dat reli shook me up.
my english?? a D7???
i so wanted to cry.
not becoz i fail my damn O so fuckin badly
but the fact dat i failed my english!
an F9 for the remainin 3 subjects and an absent for arts.
yesh, i dropped it too late. shits.
my teacher told me i was one of the worst express student she has ever seen.
but one of the best sec 1 student the skool has recruited.
hey, i got 228 for PSLE , ok?
hehhehehe..

but it doesn't matter now.
ITE is rawking, very fulfilling n well, juz great fun.
i couldn't ask for more for the way my life has turned out.
sure.. i did many mistakes but i never regret them. well, not much. :D
and guess wat u suckers of critics??
ITE graduates are getting jobs instead of those poly or jc grads!
eat dat assholes!

and gmail sux. so not userfrenly.
nabei.

outZ.